by Zinkette99 » July 7th, 2006, 12:29 pm
Well its a grey grey day. I have the house to myself for a bit though, which is nice.
I made a decision today. I have really been inspired by people like falisamarie, dede, Nancy and of course many many others on here. Some of them have discussed making the conscious decision not to cheat. To do this program until they are finished. (Actually I believe that was TheShadow that stated that) Sorry if I am quoting incorrectly. Anyway, last night after having a "little" cheat I realized... On this program there is no such thing as a "little" cheat. Every time I cheat I am stopping my body from losing. I have really been wishy washy on this program. I do great until about 4 pm rolls around. Thats when the cravings come. I tell myself "I can't stop them. I will start again tomorrow." I justify things. But look... A month has past since I restarted and I have lost 7 pounds. RIDICULOUS. I could easily have been down 25 by now.
I can't do this anymore. I have to do it all the way.
So today is re-dedication again. But in a different way. I am NOT going to cheat. I am going to be 100 percent compliant. Starting today, July 7th. On August 7th I will weigh myself. I am going to try my best not to weigh after my first week of compliance. The scale tends to mess with my head sometimes. I am going to do this. I am going to lose the weight. I am going to go home to Virginia for Christmas and I am going to have my entire family's jaws on the floor. I won't need any Christmas presents after that.
I think I can weigh 180 by Christmas. I really do. And I am going to.
Have a great day everyone.
25 years old
5'8
Started MF'ing: 6/5/06
267/247/135
"Strive for perfection, allow for error. If you haven't given up, you haven't failed."
Courtesy of ChiNut
:)