It is with a heavy heart and a sick, sour stomach that I once again come to you all, guilty. I cannot believe that I am SOoooo stupid!!!!!!!! My four year old beauty, Miss Rachel wanted brownies, which I made late last night. When I came home for lunch today, I cut one for my husband and had some bites myself. I had my MF meals on time today, but the brownie (I am so STUPID) was calling me!!!!! Then I had 3 deviled eggs, some crackers, and two pieces of string cheese. I took the rest of it to work for my co-workers to eat up and they did. When I got home, I fixed my MF chili, then after I ate that, proceeded to eat a bag of ranch doritos with chip dip, about 4 oz. of cheddar and some M&Ms.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I have been doing so good. After my back sliding on Friday night, I was 100% compliant Saturday. Yesterday, I had some chicken, but didn't go any further. Maybe my anti-depressant isn't working well anymore? Maybe the shorter days are affecting me? Maybe the complete fast is too much for me right now? Maybe I am an awful, horrible, sinful glutton!!!!!!!!
I am afraid if I do L&G that I won't be able to stop eating!!!!!!!
I'm hating myself pretty well right now. Go ahead and let me have it! You won't make me feel any worse than I already do.
#1 I am getting all of the snack food out of my house!!!!! Cookies and ice cream don't bother me, but salty junk food, i.e., doritos, chips, crackers, etc... They are my WORST enemy!!!!!
#2 I am NOT baking anymore treats until and when I am delivered from this gluttony!!!!!!!! Like after losing 150 lbs., and being on maintenance, and stabilizing my weight for about 3 years!!!!!!
#3 I am going to listen to all of my fellow MFers and follow your wisdom, advice, and understanding!