by smiller » September 23rd, 2005, 6:17 am
Morning Friends - hope everyone is doing well and making good choices. If you've been reading posts this week you'll know I've been struggling with staying on program and basically failing miserably. I even rec'd a personal call and e-mail from Miss Nancy herself - I knew I was in trouble then. I have all the excuses -- my husband is out of town fishing in Canada, I'm lonely, I have PMS, I've done so well for a month - a little food reward will do me good... -- Oh yeah, I've got all the excuses. Every morning I wake up and have all the intentions of being the perfect MF participant and somehow by the end of the day, it hasn't exactly worked out that way. So I've been laying on the guilt, condemnation, ect, ect, the same old cycle. I was sitting here this morning trying to stay focused and make good choices today and my mind started to wander to thoughts of what I could eat today and why it would be alright. It was then that I decided to read my devotion for the day - it started out like this -- "Self-pity is destructive and will leave us miserable". Then this was the prayer at the end -- "Lord Jesus help me to keep my eyes on You and off of myself. It is You that I seek to please and from Your hand my reward will come. Give me the wisdom and the strength to continue to be obedient to Your will and seek to do good always, regardless of circumstance." That is exactly what I've been doing all week long - poor ME, lonely ME, I can't do this, I have PMS so I need to eat some food, I, I, I, I, ME, ME, ME, ME... I guess He figured it was time to speak directly to me - Alright, I heard You. Anyway, didn't know if this might be a word for anyone else. Hope it doesn't offend anyone...
Keep looking up, blessings on you, Sheila M.
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