OK. I cheated. Badly.
I was angry yesterday because in 10 days I've only lost 4.5 pounds and haven't cheated once. So I made a choice. I weighed myself last evening and when I saw my weight hadn't moved down the scale, I ordered a medium Canadian bacon pizza and ate the whole thing. Why bother, I told myself.
About an hour later, I felt physically awful. I had heartburn and I was SO sleepy. Around 9:00 central time my boyfriend called and asked me how I was. I burst into tears and confessed. I am so ashamed
I feel like I've ruined everything and let all y'all down. My boyfriend reminded me that I won't GAIN 4.5 pounds from eating a pizza but it didn't help. My dad (who has type 2 diabetes) mentioned that he wants to know more about MF and I was excited to hear it because he doesn't take care of himself they way he should. Now I feel as though my credibility is shot.
Listen to me, I am such a whiney baby! Good news is I didn't make it worse by deciding to quit.