Hi everybody, this is my second time posting here. I am a bit confused…is there a membership I am supposed to sign-up/pay for to use this forum? Also, I signed up for something on here and I picked my name as Daisey. But when I tried to post, it said that name was already taken, so instead I used Daisey523. However, when I sign in, I use Daisey. Again, I am confused.
But that is the least of my problems right now! Today is my third attempt at day one. I posted a couple of days ago and received several wonderful replies. I was really motivated! One the end of day 3, I ended up eating junky foods. So I started again the next day and lasted until around 7:00p.m. So I ate for two days and today (Sunday) is once again, day one. I am wanting to eat so bad I can’t stand it!! I am going crazy! I took somebody’s advice and put a note in my car reminding myself to stick with it. Tonight, around 7:00p.m., I had my keys in my hand and I was walking out to my car and I thought of my note. I ended up turning around and going back in the house. A few minutes later I said forget it, I want to eat, so I was going to leave again, but I didn’t, instead I came online to this forum.
When I feel like eating I tell myself forget it, it doesn’t matter, I don’t care. I just want to eat and that’s that and I do not care about the consequences, I want instant gratification!! I really do not even know why I am not eating right now because I am going nuts over wanting to say screw it, and eat until I feel really, really, really full. I also tell myself, well hey, maybe I will do medifast a bit differently. I will do shakes in the day and since I have such low calories in the day, I can eat a yummy dinner (my idea of yummy dinner is not a healthy dinner), and who knows, I should be able to also get away with having some dessert.
My thought process is insane. It is hard to change my thoughts and not feel like I am a locomotive train in a rush to get to the store to get that food that is going to satisfy me in so many ways!
When I blew it on day three at 7:00pm, I had just got done reading a bunch of inspiration stuff from this website, I felt motivated and everything. I signed off, sat on the couch to pet my dog and watch tv and within minutes it hit me—I have to eat now and nothing is going to stop me! I was just feeling confident and determined and then completely lost it. Ugh!!! This is only day one again, how am I gonna get through the next couple of days???
Okay, so for me, I feel okay during the day (for the most part). It is the evening time that tortures me (seems usually around 7:00p.m.). Does anybody have any suggestions on things I can do in the evening to help me from going food crazy?? I want to approach tomorrow’s witching hour with some tools.
Thanks everybody for being so wonderful here! Currently it is a little after 8:00p.m. (in California), only four more hours of day one to go!!!!