by tlo » August 9th, 2006, 11:45 am
Hello everyone,
I just wanted to post and let you all know that I will not be posting much anymore for a whil. The reason being is that I am really feeling discouraged at this point. I am not quiting, because I think that I have found something that will really work if I work it, but the whole thing is that I have spent roughly $300.00 for my first months supply, and this last two weeks I have been compliant and I am now up two pounds from my starting weight! I have been on plan exactly a month now and have no weight loss to show for it. Even though, my aunt Flo is visiting right now, I just get so discouraged when I read other post of people who has been on plan for like one week and lost 5 -10 pounds.
Now I am fully aware that everyone looses at a different pace, but I definatly didn't expect to gain.
Plus on top of everything I am really low on Medi food and I don't think that I will have the money to re-order until the end of August. I may have one week of food left. But like I said I am not going to totally stop, I am going to re-order as soon as I can and totally commit myself at that time. Also I now can order only the foods that I like and know that I will eat, without having to do all these swaps. And if I don't lose anything this next fully commited go round for another month, I will have to just acknowledge the fact that Medifast may not be for me.
So I will check back with everyone once I get my new batch of food, and let you all know I am restarting and how I am doing then. And I will be sure not to start this next time, the same day/week I begin my cycle because I think that is where I messed up right from the beggining. And I am not going to go totally crazy either, I still eat my chicken salad from Mcdonalds everyday, and will continue to eat my Medimeals until they are all gone. After that I will eat right, like salads, and fruits and vegetables, unitl I do my re-start.
I know it may sound like I am giving up, but I am really not, I have struggled with this program, but over all I was committed to it, and tried very hard. But when I woke up this morning and saw that I was up 2 pounds over my starting weight, it just did something to me. Its a month later and I feel like I have failed. This has affected my whole day today, and now I have been having a terrible day all day today of some numbers on a scale. (Which I really shouldn't of even looked at due to the fact I am on my period), but I did it and know I feel so sad, aggravated, disappointed, and just completly annoyed at myself. I am actually crying as I write this post (what a baby I am I know), because I really wanted to do this so badly this time, and within a month I so badly wanted to be down at least 10 pounds, I didn't even expect the 20 they say you can loose, I just wanted 10, and here I am heavier than when I started. This is so discouraging I swear it is.
Personally I am more motivated when I can see results, they don't have to be drastic, but I need to see something to keep me going, and I had temporary results, sabotaged myself, started over, and here I am back at square one at 192. I guess I can see what my true weight will be after my period is over, but I normally don't gain but about 3-5 pounds of water, so I probably am truly at 188 or 187 which is still pretty sorry for a month on this program.
Sorry for being so long winded but I think I needed to get that out. But everyone please continue to post, becasue I do come in ofter and read your post and you all keep me motivated, and I need that.
See you guys later, and good luck to you everyone.
~Tlo
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Started-7/11/06** Re-start 9/11
193/187.5/140