My mom and older sister (and dad, and both grandmothers, and who knows who else in the family) have always struggled with their weight, but I thought I was the lucky one in the family. Then I got married, went on the pill, became less active, and started dealing with nasty emotions by binge eating, and *poof*! About 6 years ago, I tried Atkins, with good success. However, I didn't change my emotional reliance on food (I'd binge on "approved" food instead of cookies and candy, but it was still binging). Consequently, when I fell off the wagon, I gained back the 40 lbs I'd lost, plus, ultimately, about 55 more. I'd go back on Atkins for a few months, then quit and binge. I don't know how many times that cycle repeated. I haven't had a regular doctor in 4 years - my excuse is that it's because our insurance situation has been in flux, but really it's because I've been too embarrassed to get on the scale in front of someone who I know would tell me all the things I didn't want to hear. Every year, I have boxed up the clothes that don't fit any more, and gone shopping for the next size. Every year, I have been less able to do fun outside things with my husband.
In August 2005, I was at my aunt's house, and she had the "Body for Life for Women" book laying around. I picked it up, and stayed up until about 3 AM reading it. It really came home to me just how serious a health issue my weight had become. I mean, deep down I always knew, but I think some part of me hoped that if I ignored it, it would all go away. The book also gave me a very clear picture of exactly what health difficulties I have to look forward to in later life-stages, if I don't get my weight under control. I went home, and, on my 30th birthday, joined a gym. Then I finally got on a scale. 275 lbs!!! On my 5'4'' frame! Holy tamales, Batman! But, for the first time in my life, my weight didn't feel like failure, it felt like a personal challenge. I met with a trainer to devise a weight-training program that wouldn't make my knees crunch, and committed to doing 30-40 minutes of cardio 5-6 days a week. Even when I had a 2 month hiatus due to illness (and compounded by the holidays), I didn't gain any weight, which is a first in a very long time, ESPECIALLY over the holidays, and am currently at 262. Not a huge improvement, but anything is better than where I was.
Now we come to the medifast part of the story (this is so long . . . like a confessional . . . I wonder if anyone is still reading? ). First, my motivations for trying this program:
1. My husband and I would like to start our family in the near-ish future. I won't feel comfortable trying to get pregnant until I'm at a healthier weight.
2. I need to not think about the food. As far as emotional eating goes, some very excellent changes in my life in the two years have resulted in a happier, mentally-healthier me, and I have been successful in breaking the binge-cycle. However, on a busy day, if I have to think about and put effort into preparing something healthy, I will often resort to the easy (lazy) options. Breakfast burritos at the local market. Fast food in general. Hamburger Helper. (We are fortunate to be able to buy grass-fed beef from my inlaws, which is so much leaner than anything in the store [when we fry up the hamburger, the pan remains dry], but when you pair it with various forms of Hamburger Helper, then it's a problem. ) Grabbing a shake, or a packet of soup or oatmeal - now that's something I can do. If all I have to think about is dinner (and even that is minimal thinking, as long as I keep the freezer stocked with fish and chicken), I think I can stick with the program.
3. I'm ready to take "drastic" personal measure to get my weight under control (drastic without surgery, that is). I'm ready to be healthy and lean. I'm ready to stop hiding behind all this fat. I'm ready to have a kid. I see so much hope in the Medifast program - and I'm ready for it.
I had never heard of Medifast before I picked up the January issue of People magazine. I saw the add, then read the story about the woman who'd had success with it, then started looking around the web for more information. I ordered my 4-week kit (plus one week free! ), and should get it today. I can't wait to get started on my journey to freedom from food and fat.
The only potential roadblock is my husband's concern about the cost - I had to move from a full-time teaching position last year to a part-time one this year, so things are tighter than they used to be. Also, he's seen me spend money on things then not follow through with them so many times, that I don't blame him for being slightly skeptical. However, we agreed that I'd try it for a month and see what happens. My prediction: This is going to be successful, and we'll both see the results, and his skepticism will dissappear. And, anyway, I've figured out that if I substitute teach two days a month, that will pay for the program!
Whew! Thank you for letting me get all that out. I'm glad to have found this forum - I think the support and inspiration will be invaluable. Here's to healthier, happier bodies!
- Dayna