Well I did it friends. I cheated and I just feel like I want to cry my eyes out. We went on an all day outing today.....take the car to the painter.......to the Smithsonian Air and Space museum....then to the mall........then to CRACKER BARREL! That's where it all went south...
The day started pretty good. I had two shakes as we left the house because I didn't know if I would be able to have my morning snack anytime soon. I took a thermos full of boiling water and my oatmeal...and my bar. By the time we made it to the Smithsonian it was snack time and I took the baby and we sat in the food court and I had my oatmeal and a diet coke. I have not had any water at this point and I'm dying for it. Why did I buy a diet coke instead?? By the time we left there 3 hours later I thought I was going to pass out. I quickly got out my bar when we got to the van and ate it as I drove. still no water.
We got to the mall and I sat in the food court with my husband and older son while they ate Taco bell. I had just eaten my bar so I got my first bottle of water for the day FINALLY! So far so good. Doing light on the water but other than that no big deal. Real proud of myself for not giving into all the crud at Potomac Mills! (some of you know what I mean)
Then we shopped shopped shopped. Finally left the mall and decided at 4:30 that it was dinner time for all of us. We went to Cracker barrel because I knew I could get the chopped hamburger steak and I LOVE THEIR GREEN BEANS!! I got a glass of water and we ordered our meals. I ordered the chopped hamburger steak, country green beans and the corn. This is the first mistake. I ended up having 3 very small bites of the corn
But the waitress brought out a
PLATE OF PIPING HOT CRACKER BARREL BISCUITS AND CORNBREAD I sat there and broke up biscuit for my baby to eat over and over and over again. I was holding the biscuit in my hand.....my husband was eating a corn muffin with butter right in front of me over and over again........then it happened..........I ate 3 small bites of the biscuit that I had broken off for my baby
Even as I was eating the little morsels I was thinking "why am I doing this?" I haven't had bread one single time in 2 months! Bread is my absolute Achilles Heel folks. I thank God that I didn't eat a whole biscuit. I'm thankful that I didn't even take a big ole bite!! But I am so incredibly disappointed in myself for having those three little nibs of bread. I'm not sure that I even had 2 tablespoons of the corn........and the green beans may even of had some fat in them from seasoning (I'm not sure)........but the bread
I have overcome sooooooooooo many obstacle since I've started........soooooooooooooo many special occasions in just 7 weeks it's ridiculous........WHY did I stick that bread in my mouth today? It may seem trivial to some who have really gone off plan for days or weeks or big time at a party ect. But this was a failure for me. Mentally I'm asking WHAT NOW? I know that all is not lost of course. I know that tomorrow is another day. yadayadayada. I guess I just came here to talk to myself and my friends about it. I just wish I hadn't done it. As Nancy said......any little thing tips the balance of the teeter-toter. I was actually sitting there at the table thinking about the teeter-toter and that is actually what stopped me from eating the whole biscuit!
Well folks I'm going to go lay in the bathtub and see if I can wash the cares away. I'll be seeing you all in the morning. I know I've only lost 1lb this week as it is. Hopefully tomorrow that lb will still be gone.
Hugs to all,
Chris