I cannot wait to feel great again. I forget what it feels like to feel like me, but I know it's way different than this. I also know that I like it a lot--that's why I've longed for it.
I read about others eating other things--chicken and salads. I'm tempted to do the same, but I just know that the second I do I'll go nuts. I'll rationalize about eating more or something different. I just cannot go there. Last night, I did eat a sugar free jello cup, but I didn't want another one. I felt okay about eating that. Surely it won't do anything to slow my weightloss. I just want to do this with great intensity, come out of my cocoon and fly.
Right now, co-worker's lunches have been delivered to their desks. The smell!! It is almost as good as eating the french fries! I mentally play that game with myself. The odor smells so closely to the taste that I tell myself it's just as good. Crazy? Perhaps, but it works for me. I only wish the smell of a martini would give me the same lovely feeling.

