The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[nickieluv]

Wow, what a story! I'm glad you have a good attitude about it. I think I would be very pouty. But hang on to your secret - we all know the truth anyway.

[Tawanda]

Dang it! That lousy .5 found me again! LOL

Day 5 of bouncing back & forth between losing and gaining the same .5# . This, too, shall pass, but it gets comical how often it happens. I guess if I quit watching the darn scale daily, I wouldn't ever know about it .....

I cannot remember if I told you that yesterday afternoon I went through clothing that was in storage because it was too small? I don't think I did....anyway, tried 75% of what I found (I know there is some capri pants and some white dressy t-shirts somewhere, too) and even though some of it was too snug for me to feel comfortable wearing out in public....most of it is close to fitting. But it is obscene how much of it there is. Most of it was purchased 3-8 years ago and barely worn.......and there is quite a bit that is new with tags. I do not need to go shopping until I've lost another 25 - 30# I bet. Which makes me a bit sad (hey, it isn't as much fun shopping in my own closet, lol) but it is also a huge blessing as I've been really focusing and working towards making our budget have more wiggle room.

I've been going through some head games with myself lately. I have my times of temptation, just as I have had all through these weeks on MF, but now I've got the little voice in my head (or devil on my shoulder) whispering 'what the heck, lots of people go off program and still lose their weight, you'll be fine if you have that and then just get right back on program'. I realize that I don't have the will power that many may have and that once I give in, I may well be right back to square one (and my starting weight). I need to figure out a way to get that little voice to shuddup or turn the volume down so low that I don't hear him!

[Pashta]

You know yourself best, don't you? So don't go off the program till you are at your desired weight.

You're doing fabulous! Those clothes that are *almost* fitting you should be some good motivation hehe.

[Tawanda]

Tonia, I shut the little guy up (and for quite awhile I bet)......I took a good look in a full length mirror as I was getting ready to take a shower......and if that didn't shock him into silence, I got a hand mirror and turned around so I could see the backside. Those darn fish gills (rolls of fat that look like the gills on a fish) stacked on each side were disgusting enough that he said "okay, okay.....so dont' cheat for a long time yet!!!" . I know, it was brutal of me to do it to him (and to me) but it needed to be done.

[Serendipity]

~little voice~ SHUDDUP!!!!!!!!!

I find it interesting that your little voice is male.......what's up with that?

[nickieluv]

You're right, lots of people do go off - but they don't still lose weight. At least, I don't personally. When I go off (REALLY off) it kills my week and sometimes 2 or 3 weeks. I am working to not do that anymore. It really slows down the process. Like over the weekend, even when I was just 'a little' off - having 2 bars yesterday, and not getting enough water - today I was up 7/10 from weigh-in yesterday. It's not worth it, YOU are the strong one and I hope I get there soon!

[Tawanda]

~little voice~ SHUDDUP!!!!!!!!!

I find it interesting that your little voice is male.......what's up with that?

LOL, never thought about that little guy on my shoulder being male instead of female......no wonder the poor guy shriveled a bit and looked quite green when I did the look in the mirror thing this a.m.

He is a he because I watched too much television as a child and all angels and devils on people's shoulders were guys (guess they were on guys' shoulders in the movies?)......so mine is a guy.....

It really is hard to ignore those little voices that try to convince me that I'd feel better, happier, content, less lonely, less overwhelmed, etc. if I'd just eat something other than program foods. I had hoped this was something I wouldn't have to deal with after a period of time...but I'm afraid that reality is that I'm a foodie and I will always have the desire and tendency to be a foodie....so it will be something I'll have to be on guard against always.

I visited with my mom & one of my kids today (the relative I mentioned, that told the person at church that I hadn't lost weight). Neither my mom, nor my daughter noticed or said anything about me looking thinner. That really is letting the air outta my balloon. Biki, I may just need to lose 60# before anyone is going to notice.....geesh!

Nickie, I used food to self medicate for so many years that it is popping into my head these last few days that it would be okay to have a bit of something that I use to eat and enjoy (nothing in particular, just whatever happens to pop into my head or line of vision)..

Well, DH just came home........best go be a housefrau.

[Pashta]

Here's a little tidbit that may help you. When you do go off Medifast and back onto regular food, you will notice that your tastes have changed. You will not necessarily *like* the things you used to.

This happens with a lot of people. Things taste especially sweet or disgustingly fatty. If you try them and don't like them but continue to eat them anyway then your tastes will change back of course. The trick is to keep eating healthy and watch the carb intake.

I really didn't gain very much during my pregnancy because I started off on Medifast! As a matter of fact, it was only 40 pounds. The other pregnancies were 50! My OB never said a word about my weight gain this last time because I was in the normal range.

Just remember that it won't taste nearly as good as you thought if you ever did go off-plan.

[DonicaB]

Tawanda~ I don't know if this applies to you, but I believe you said you lost 40# on Adkins????? (I hope I got it straight.) Anyway, sometimes my family members don't say anything about me losing weight because I have done it before and then gained it back......lost it.....gained it....etc. I wonder if they just stopped commenting because the figure I will just gain it back again.

I have never lost as much as I have now. I'm wondering what my oldest sister will say when I see her at the end of May. She didn't say a word when I say her at the end of March. Even though I had lost 30#. I'm just going to show them all and get to my goal and stay there.

You are going to get there, Tawanda. Just keep that little voice in check. Your family will definitely see a change.

Donica

[Tawanda]

I decided to put this in writing to have in my journal---I am just documenting where I'm at mentally, just so I have a diary of my complete MF journey--not just my strong days.

The whole day has been a struggle to keep my focus and my determination not to cheat. So far I'm in control and it is just a few hours until bedtime so I know I will make it without cheating/going off program---but I wish I wasn't having these thoughts and feelings. I need to figure out a way to erase them .

[Serendipity]

I'm glad you made it through this tough day, t. Tomorrow will be brighter.

[Mavesse]

Hang in there, Tawanda. It's amazing what a fresh morning can bring

[pinkbugs471]

You can do it. Remember that this is for you. It will be a better day tomorrow.

[Tawanda]

This morning as I was reading what had been posted since I last checked the forums......I read something in Lizabette's journal that lifted my spirits and has helped me figure out how to get my focus back. I responded in her journal, but I also wanted to put a part of it here, in my journal, so that I have it documented (mainly for myself) on how I'm traveling this journey and what is going through my head.
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APRIL 30, 2007

Thank you, Miss T. I'll see what works out concerning the testimonial. Of course, it would be nice if it were chosen, but among so many others it would seem not too probable.
Anyway, as I said, it is a good exercise to focus on the weight loss/maintenance journey, and the tremendous effect it has had on my life.

Mama duck is still residing in our boat, hopefully getting ready to hatch some little ones...................She is a good example to us of patience, determination and commitment...

You are doing really good, T, I really admire you for sticking with the program and being such a good example... like mama duck.

Lizabette, thank you so very much for comparing me to mama duck! I would have never guessed that I'd ever feel such happiness over being compared to a duck sitting on eggs -- but patience, determination and commitment are what I want so badly during my MF journey--and I felt like I was losing ground these past days...last night and this morning I was trying to figure out what happened, what stole my drive and deflated my happiness & determination......and I figured out that it is my attitude. Somehow, I began changing my thinking and my new thoughts weren't filled with the same 'can do' attitude. I began letting 'what ifs' creep in and those 'what ifs' and 'what would it hurt' robbed some of my momentum and made me feel like I was trudging through mud in my journey instead of gliding easily along.

Mental attitude.......that seems to be what makes MF easy for me to follow and do, if I play with the 'what would it hurt if I ate this bite this one time' or 'what if I went off program just for this one meal'.......that robbed me of my energy and took my focus from being successful and turned it over to focusing on the possiblitiy of going off program.

Thank you again, for your kind comparison.......I've gotten back to my mama duck mentality and will once again begin gliding towards goal instead of trudging through the mud.

I'm so very glad you are here on this forum!!!

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I think we are so very lucky to have such a caring, kind and helpful group on these boards. If we need a kick in the pants, there is someone there to point it out (and to administer the kick ), if we need a boost, many hands are reaching out to do that....if we need a shoulder, those are offered without reservation and if we just are trying to figure out how to get our minds to mesh with our desires---there are people who have either 'been there' or who have discerned through our writings what we are missing seeing because it is too close to us.

My thanks to each of you who have administered the kick, the pat on the back, the hand reaching out or the sharing of your wisdom. Pretty darn wonderful to have such a place to travel this journey and overcome the food monster.

Thank you Nancy, Terry and Unca Tim along with all the other Health Advisors who step in with answers & encouragement, for providing this place for all of us and for your support & encouragement.

[Pashta]

Hear, hear!! To MMT!