Don't be admiring my attitude.....it isn't anything more than I've screwed up in trying to lose weight so many times that I've just started putting together the knowledge that I've finally learnt and heard hundreds of times.
My previous attempts at losing weight (and keeping it off) didn't work because I went back to my old ways of eating (poor food choices in large quantities).
I've learnt (finally and hopefully completely) that I can not eat the way I have in the past or I'll be right back up at 212, 214 or my all time highest weight of 222---or even more.
This program is working extremely well for me..........because I'm following the Quick Start Guide guidelines, I'm doing the program as it was designed to be done and I'm resisting the urge to eat off program.
I've wanted to eat off program a whole lot of times since beginning. It can be as innocent as wanting to taste something that I'm cooking for DH (to make sure it is hot enough to serve), or to lick that bit of ___ off of my fingers, or to have a bite of whatever I'm serving DH for dinner/lunch or..................hey, daily there are foods and times that tempt me, just like they tempt everyone on MF.
The thing is, I've just finished 77 days of staying on program. For 77 days I've resisted having that bite of whatever wasn't on program---I'm at the point now that I don't want to screw up being able to brag about that
(hey, I'm being truthful---I'm always bragging about it
) and I don't want to start something that I might continue.
For me, this MF journey is about learning new habits and making new (and lasting) decisions. I don't deserve to hate myself when I lose control with food and eat so much that I get heavy again. I deserve to move forward with my life, putting food right back where it belongs---as fuel and nourishment for my body---*only when my body needs fuel and nourishment*. Food is no longer a hobby for me, a companion for me and my focus for the day.
I just hope that some day........it won't be tugging at the corners of my mind as a possiblity, to go back to that way of life, that I even contemplate.
So......don't be thinking I'm saying or doing anything that lots of other people here aren't saying or doing......I'm just being quite vocal about it as I keep drumming the lessons into MY brain.
I want this so badly......and I'm so very tired of 'attempting' to do it. This time I 'am' doing it and it feels so blessed good.