Thank you Katie and Oksoonergal!
It was nice to see some activity on the forum again. I am expecting that around Jan 1st we'll see some increased interest in the site, but I was very happy to see people posting.
159# today....hopefully my last day classified as 'overweight'.
Things are not going well in my life. I had a tough day yesterday only to come home and have a rotten evening. I laid in bed and cried a bit, in self-pity, over how life has gone the past year. One of the very few positives I could come up with, is that I've not turned to food to comfort myself the past 2.5 months, as I did the previous 7+ months. Maybe I will learn through this time (and remember it forever!) is that food won't make life's problems go away or easier, it just compounds my unhappiness. There has to be a silver lining for me in these clouds.....has to be. I've even thought about leaving my home, but I have nowhere to go. I do not see things changing for a long time, so I need to adapt as much as I am able, so that I and my marriage make it through this.
No one promised that life was going to be easy all the time.. and eating does not make the problems disappear or better.....eating heaps more pain into our hearts, minds and lives.
Be kind to yourself today and make healthy choices.
What a random, rambling mess of words......I'm in a funny mental spot right now--trying to figure out how to work through this time of my life and also reminding myself that I will only be more disappointed, sad and mad if I turn to food instead of continuing to take care of myself by getting the extra weight off.
My choices each day......in food, actions, words, thoughts.....are all that I can control. I will continue to work on making my choices wise, healthy, kind so that at the end of the day, as I cry in my bed, I'm not crying about how self-destructive I have been.
Life is often hard......
but eating is not the answer.