The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[katieb920]

Just checking in to say Hi. I hope you feel better. Wow 2#'s to go until the 50# club. YOu go girl.

[Tawanda]

Katie, cute new avatar!

LOL on Tattoo.......wonder how much he weighed? (losing a Tattoo in #s).

DH & I ran errands this a.m. then went to the grocery store. I wore a pair of shorts (Eddie Bauer size 12 ), a light weight short sleeve knit top and Birks. I wasn't self-conscious and I felt 'good' about how I looked. Hopefully that wasn't warped thinking on my part ......but I felt that I was at a normal/healthy body weight for my height and age. Now, I'm still 6# over what the BMI chart says is healthy/normal weight........but dang, I felt good about myself. A nice, new feeling that I look forward to feeling again and again.

I noticed this morning, when trying on tops, that I no longer have 2 sets of gills (back rolls)....just one set still needing to go. LOL Sorry for the visual.....but dang, I feel good and hopeful about how my body is shrinking/transforming.

Only 3 glasses of water drank so far...so need to work harder on that---and get myself busy doing something constructive around here.......either inside or outside.

My first raspberries are almost ripe and I was lamenting over not being able to eat them........but I'm going to pick & freeze them to enjoy during maintenance. Next year I'll be able to stand out there and pop them into my mouth as I pick them.

I'm going to do this! I am going to make it to GOAL!!! I am going to be successful at getting the weight off this time!!! I am AMAZED, I am thrilled, I am excited and I'm astounded that it is really happening. It is a struggle many days.......but I'm more than half way there, I've seen great changes in my body size and I'm so not willing to ever go back to the miserable person that I was 48# and 52" ago.

[DogMa]

Don't freeze those raspberries - send them to ME!!!! I've been having raspberries every morning with breakfast, and blueberries with my midmorning meal. (Sigh. Maintenance is a wonderful thing.)

Whatever the BMI chart says, 6 pounds still qualifies you as pretty darn "normal." It's not like someone can look at you and say, "Oh, what a fatty. She obviously needs to lose 6 pounds."

[queenielou]

Hey Tawanda - Glad to hear you are feeling and looking so great!

[Serendipity]

Gottal love that visual, T. It was a really neat feeling the day I realized that I had lost more than I had left.....so any time I want to see the progress I made, I just have to look in the mirror and realize that, hey!, one of me is history!

[holberry]

Ohhh boy, you sound great Tawanda

I think you must look pretty dang good in your eddie baurer shorts and birkenstocks.( your such a NW woman!)

drink up
h

[Tawanda]

I had forgotten to spell check the previous post so went back and corrected on error (I wrote enough instead of enjoy--:?). Then noticed that I had forgotten to do the spell check on self-conscious so I looked it up in the dictionary and fixed that. Geesh! I need to do a better job of proof-reading. My sentence structure and grammar skills are sadly lacking but I always felt I did a pretty good job of spelling. Not any longer.

5 glasses of water consumed so far.

Odd thing happened.....after writing my previous post I went into the bathroom where we have a huge wall mirror and looked at myself. In my black shorts and sage green top (and black sandals).....and I looked swatty and pudgy. What happened to that normal/healthy sized body I thought I saw earlier? Darn mirrors!! I thought, "Okay, so this is reality. I am still classified as 'overweight' and I am about 35# heavier than I was at age 30....and I am flabby (member of the Saggy Skin Club) so I will still look 'plump' for awhile longer". I am okay with that and would rather see what is truly there than kid myself that I am looking better than I am.

Then I get a phone call from a friend who saw me today and said "you are looking really good! I saw you walking towards me and thought 'she is getting so skinny!' and I liked your shorts.....wondered if they would fit me and I could borrow them". LOL

Okay, off to make dinner and also to fill up my glass again.....

Robin, sorry, but the raspberries need to go into my freezer. The birds always strip my blueberry bushes before I get a chance to have any of them.

HB, I like EB clothes because they carry talls so I can be assured the inseams and arms are long enough. Their fabrics are nice and things wash up wonderfully---good clothes. Birks.....gosh, those are a million years old and were the most comfortable black sandal type shoe in my closet for lots of walking on uneven ground.

Jo, 'one of me is history'. That is an incredible statement to be able to make. Lost enough weight that equals an adult. An amazing accompishment and I'm impressed everytime I think about it or read a post by you, Lauren, Alex and others who have made that kind of a change in your lives.

Queenielou, thank you. I feel 100% again. I don't know why I'm getting sick so often this year. I take a multivitamin and eat a healthy L & G....but the germs keep getting me. Hopefully this will be the end of it for quite a long time.

[Sojourner]

Ohhh boy, you sound great Tawanda

You sure do, Mizz T!
I had a big ol' grin plastered on my face as I read your enthusiastic post.
Yay for only one set of gills!!!!

Even though you had a momentary swing back, it was cool that the NSV brought you around.
Your friend can see you more objectively than you can, right? And she sees SKINNY!!!

[holberry]

T,
maybe you are getting sick from the babies and their new germs. Just like begining teachers, they always get sick when starting in a new classroom.
h
ps I love eb clothes and birkenstocks too

[DogMa]

That's what I thought, too. Little kids are pretty much giant germs with legs. I used to get sick every time I saw my little cousins, even when they were babies. Now that they're bigger and I'm never around really small kids? I haven't been sick in a couple of years.

[Lizabette]

TEE,
Quit talking yourself out of how good you look!
I know how elated you felt and that's how you should continue to feel, cause it's true.
Nobody has a perfect body (we wish!) but it's how you carry it with confidence that makes you beautiful and normal!
You've come a long way, babe.

[bikipatra]

I thought, "Okay, so this is reality. I am still classified as 'overweight' and I am about 35# heavier than I was at age 30....and I am flabby.

I understand your hang-up about still being classified as overweight when you are so close. I am now a "normal" weight by the highest amount you can be and still be "normal" at but when I was standing in front of the elevators at the hotel about to go down to the pool and allow all those strangers to see me half naked, I just repeated in my head "You are a normal weight, you are a normal weight. You are normal." Two pounds more would have made me overweight by BMI but my head is just twisted.

[nickieluv]

Tawanda, I know the fear of 'kidding yourself' into thinking you look better than you do - for me it's because I'm afraid that will lead me to cheat or quit entirely - but I get sad sometimes reading how you put yourself down. I always have told people who say I'm a pessimist, 'no, I'm a REALIST,' and I hear that coming from you somewhat - that when you feel good, it's because you've not been seeing 'reality' and all of your negative comments about your body you accept as being completely true. Realize that the truth is in the middle - you are not where you want to be, but you are far from being the mess that sometimes it seems you think you are. It's OK to feel good about your body while knowing you have farther to go. Extend the love you give to others to yourself.

In church last week they mentioned 'do unto others as you would have done to you' and I realized, that doesn't just mean don't do bad things to others. It also means do good things to yourself. You can turn it around to be 'do unto yourself as you would do to others.' You are giving your body a treat by taking care of it and losing the weight - do your heart some good and own your success and FEEL GOOD - look at how far you've come more often, not what you still wish you could change.

As others say, this is all my own opinion so take it or leave it.

[Tawanda]

Gosh, it seems that I did it again......I gave the wrong impression by my words as to what my emotions were when tied to my thoughts. I appreciate the feedback by Lizabette, Biki and Nickie on what I shared, but just wanted to say that I wasn't feeling upset about seeing myself in two different ways on the same day.........it is more of a marveling/wonderment as to which is the reality (maybe both are). Compared to where I was while at my heaviest -- I look quite slender, but then if I look at myself compared to what I was while thin (most of my life) then I am quite pudgy. So, what I see in the mirror depends on which direction my thinking is at the moment. If I'm comparing to heaviest or if I'm comparing to thinnest. I just find it interesting and educational (to my journey) to see this difference.

I know that I was grumbling at least once about how I felt so good about myself and then all of a sudden saw how heavy I looked so that was a different time and that was more to what Lizabette and Nickie were responding to..... Biki, yeah, that darn 158/159 is a true line in the sand for me---or perhaps it would be better visualized as a big wall like the ones that military people have to climb up and over........that is a goal, a hurdle, a mountain, a milestone for me to get to. It is a fixation, a definite spot that I'm aiming for and a classification that is important to me. Back to a weight that is considered a normal and healthy one for someone my height. Yep, I'm looking forward to it and only have 5.5# to get there.

Weight this morning is 163.5 (for my records).

[Tawanda]

H20 update....beginning my second 33.8 oz bottle of water (I know I am slacking compared to so many of you!!!).

Biki girl........you are on my mind!!