The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Tawanda]

Ahhhh, a couple of grammies who understand 'grandbaby watching exhaustion'.

Jo, I need a couple of days of quiet with my knitting needles. I've begun a new pair of socks and haven't gotten enough 'free' time to work on them. I watch the babies today (they should be here any minute) and all day tomorrow (I need vitamins!) then I get Wednesday & Thursday 'off' (Thursday have the farrier coming to trim the horse's hooves and also have a gyn appt. -- so not really a day off) and then Friday and Saturday are baby days again. I shouldn't have figured all that out---cause I'm tired-er (sic) just thinking of it.

[Lizabette]

Thinking about you today...

[Serendipity]

T, Have you ever tried using the word "NO"? Just a thought. I mean, it's great to pitch in, but when it's at the expense of your knitting, well, I just don't know....hehe.

Another thing......I have to keep reminding myself that it's not my responsibility to raise them. It's their parent's responsibility, so if you're over extended, you can always say no without guilt.

[Lizabette]

There you go, JO, taking the words out of my mouth again!

[Tawanda]

Ahhhh, the NO word. I did make the commitment to watch the babies a couple days a week before they were born. I'm thrilled to get to see them often. As for offering to watch them and the other g'child, well, their parents need a break every once in a while and if I notice that they are running low on energy (the parents) or they've not had any 'couple time' for awhile, or they've been ill.......then I want to bless their lives with some free time to recharge their batteries and renew their spirits. I know when our children were young, I would have loved for a parent to have offered to have the kids once in awhile so that DH & I could have a date night or time to go on a shopping trip without having children to watch or fussing. We never did anything without our children, but we also never had anyone offering to watch them. Lest anyone get the impresssion that maybe the kids weren't well behaved, LOL, thus g'parents didn't want to watch them......the kids were angels and extremely well behaved, so that wasn't it. I just think that offering to give us some 'time alone' never crossed their busy minds.

So......I do watch my g'kids a lot and some times it does cut into my 'me' time......but they are little for such a short time and what was I going to do that was so important that I couldn't do a favor for my children or to spend time with my g'kids? I don't have to watch them 24/7, so my batteries don't get as run down as their parents' do. The days pass all too quickly and we never know how much time we are going to have. If my life isn't a long one, then I'll have had the joy of watching these little ones make their daily discoveries about their world....if I live to be 90, then I'll have been blessed with these days with them and so much more as they grown up and have their own children.

Although.......some days watching these little ones is just about like herding cats..............

Oh! and I just found out that I am not babysitting tomorrow after all.....so I've got a day to knit or nap or exercise (or not ) or whatever I want to do.

Jo, I still cannot figure out the Magic Loop with the instructions I got off the internet. I need to do more searching to see if I can find a different site with better instructions. I did go buy Cat Bohdi's (sp?) book so am doing this pair on a circular, but not 2 at once...

[Serendipity]

T, I don't really see the point of 2 at once. It's just a way to get tangled yarn and there's just as much knitting, so why not one at a time? I don't knit to see how much I can get done, I knit for fun and that just seems too complicated.

[Tawanda]

Jo, I did find a site to buy an e copy of the Magic Loop instructions, downloaded it and printed it out last night. Last night I picked up my needles to work on the sock I had started but I had to take out the stitches as I just couldn't figure out 'where' I was and how to continue. I was using two circular needles and it causes me more confusion that I enjoy ......so I'll look at the e-book and see if I can figure out the ML. I thought you were doing 2 at once, so my mistake and I can see how yarn tangled would be a problem along with this is suppose to be fun and soothing--not mental gymnastics that make my eyes cross and my head hurt, in trying to figure where I'm at each time I pick it back up.

I caught the babies' cold so I guess that explains why I've felt so drained lately. I ended up sleeping on the couch last night because I was snoring and DH was acting like a fish outta water as he was trying to sleep through it. He & I had just talked a day or two ago how I don't snore or breathe heavy any longer (since losing the weight) and then this darn head cold hit --- so to the couch I went. I should have gone to one of the other bedrooms and actually been warm and comfortable for the night instead of being cold and on a too short couch. I was so grumpy at him this morning (not sure why......but I'm a woman and the law says I don't need a 'good' or 'understandable' reason for being grumpy) but I did send him an email as soon as he left for work, apologizing for biting his head off.

Just going to veg out all day at home. Nothing strenuous and nothing physical.

Hope it is a good one! (oh, weight this morning still at 170)

[bikipatra]

I stopped snoring a few months ago too. Don't know exactly what weight, but it stopped!

[pinkbugs471]

Sorry you have an icky cold.. I think a day of relaxing is in order. All this talk about knitting is making me wish I knew how.. I can crochet, but have never had anyone around that could teach me how to knit.

[Sojourner]

Hi there, Mizz T!!
Poo on the cold...that bites ~ but I'm glad you have today "off" to rest and recuperate.

While I was busy, you wrote a couple of things in your journal that I wanted to address. First of all...

LOL Sojo! I'd love to spend time with you---it would be fun to match wits and bounce smart aleck remarks back and forth with you. I love quick witted and fun people---you are both and much, much more. Did I tell you I was glad you are back?

I was thinking, "It would be suh-weet to meet up with Mizz T...we would have SO much fun!" But then...three hours later (!)...you started writing about bat wings and cankles and cat scratches and a double set of fish gills...and I thought, "Well, now I'm just scared."

Heehee! You know I'm just funnin' ya', girl.

This time I guess I've stuck with a weight loss program long enough at that weight for the rosy glasses, I was looking through, to change into the reality lenses that I hate so much.

Actually, Mizz T, I don't think that reality has anything to do with how you were viewing yourself. I think you exchanged your rose-colored glasses for dung-colored ones. You need to get away from the extremes and find a happy medium, a middle ground. I don't know if you've already resolved how you were feeling, but WE can all see your awesome wonderfulness and you should be able to see it too! At least some of it!!

I just need to remember this is a battle and I am Tawanda!!!!

Yes, you are, Mizz T...and don't let anyone (yourself) tell you otherwise!!

[DonnaS]

Tawanda, Thanks for stopping by my journal this morning; I was a little disapointed about a 6 lb. loss but it's better than a gain, which is what I would have had if I had not found medifast.

I read your post about the grandkids and I must tell you that you have much more stamina than I do. I can't hardly keep up with my one grandbaby by myself, much less two. Your children and grandkids are blessed to have you.

[Tawanda]

Biki, I'm not sure when I stopped breathing hard and snoring either (what weight) but am so glad that I did (so is DH ).

Pinks.....they do have crocheted socks patterns for free on the internet---I've never looked at the instructions for doing it, but I have come across them. I enjoy doing crocheting and knitting, but for some reason knitting is a bit more appealing. I think knitting makes me concentrate a bit more....but maybe I'm just making that up.

Sojo.....I do believe still that I was being honest with myself on what I was seeing in the mirror. It may have been 'brutally' honest, , but I'm still seeing the same things days later. I believe that I was so enamored with seeing the scale numbers drop and being able to wear smaller clothing that I became a bit blind to how much more work I need to do to get where I want to be to have a healthy and trim body. All of a sudden it was like those rosy glasses were removed and reality was smack dab in front of my nose. I was hearing 'you're thin enough, you look good (along with why are you getting rid of all your clothes--you'll need them when you gain the weight back, )....and maybe I even began believing that I was 'there' in a way (healthy and trim). But I realized that day that 'nope' I'm not there yet and it is obvious here and here and here and there and dang it, there also!

So.........nope, not being mean to myself or too critical, just seeing a work in progress that still needs quite a bit of tweaking and I cannot let my guard down yet and cannot stop until I get to goal.

I went outside to let the horse out into the pasture, saw some weeds in the flower beds that needed to be pulled, then saw that that deer & elk have been munching on my little apple trees, so began driving fence posts to put the fencing around the trees more securely (to protect them from the darn wildlife) and finally got so hot & tired that I had to take a break. I sure hope my day off begins soon. I'd better get back out there, I've got 2 more fence posts to drive and then to hang up the fencing.

[Tawanda]

Good morning! I slept in one of the other bedrooms last night so that I wouldn't bother DH with my snoring and even though it wasn't my pillow or my mattress, I slept pretty good. Still have the stuffed up head and sore throat....but I'll live if I whine a bit.

Okay, done whining! Promise!!

I have another day 'off' today and plan on continuing with my deep cleaning/purging of household 'stuff' that I wish would disappear. Yesterday I got rid of a big old wooden rocking chair (darn thing was never comfortable, even new and it scooted across the floor as you rocked) and also a monstrous cat tower/scratching post. Both were heavy as heck to get out of the house.....but they are forevermore gone and I'm smiling about that. Now that those are gone, I'm looking around at whatelse can go. Of course I'm eyeing DH's things more closely than my own 'junk'.........LOL. I'd love to clean out his garage & shop stuff but then he says he'd get to clean out my sewing room........not a good trade off so I just keep my little mitts off of his stuff.

Weight today is the same as yesterday (and the day before) .5 above ticker. I did get all my supplements in yesterday but did not drink the minimum water (again). I really have a heck of a time, some days, in getting that water drank and other days no problem getting 90 oz drank. I just need to be more aware of it and also to make it a priority. Maybe I'll make it so that I cannot check in here unless I've drank 2 glasses of water before hand? Hmmmmmm.........might work.

Okay.......I'm going to go fill up my pitcher of water and get my day revved up.

OH!!! This was in a Support in Motion email that I read this morning and I liked it a lot so thought I'd put it in my journal.......

Remember that losing the weight isn’t the final goal; it’s maintaining your lower weight and achieving Optimal Health.


I like that as my final goal isn't to get my excess weight off---it is to keep it off forever and to never revisit obesity again. I want this to be the very last time that I ever have to be on a weight loss program. Maintaining my healthy weight will be my happy job for the rest of my life.

Make it a good day!

P.S. Donna, keep going......6# is an awesome loss for the first week.

[ChynnaDoll]

LOL Tawanda, you tickle me! My hubby eyes my stuff too and just throws it away..he knows i'm an avid pack'rat and he's not..but he COULD ask first!, but i know how nice it feels to just go on and get rid of stuff taking up space unneccessarily.

As for the water dilemma. i too sometimes just CAN'T seem for the life of me to get down all my water either...what's with that?..lol!
I figure i'll drink a glass per hour..at least then maybe i'll get in my 8.

Don't over work yourself today:+)

Chynna

[Tawanda]

I'm taking a break! I've been cleaning/organizing as if I had some Martha (Stewart) genes. Amazing how much I've gotten accomplished! Carried a bookcase upstairs (had to find a spot for all of the stuff on the bookcase before I took it upstairs), vacuumed, moved furniture, moved another bookshelf (we like to read), dusted, then went into the attic and began going through 30+ years of accumulated 'stuff'. I still have all the papers my kids did in kindergarten for heaven's sake!! I've thought about weeding things out and tossing the majority, just haven't had the energy at the same time as the thought would hit me. I'm so pleased with myself for getting this much accomplished so far. (Yep, I think I'm pretty great for doing it).

I've only drank 32 oz of 'water' so far. I need to get myself going on that if I don't want to be drinking it until bedtime and then up all night long .

Okay........I'm heading back to the coal mines (upstairs). Dang but this feels so good (to have the energy to do this indepth cleaning/tossing/organizing).