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[Tawanda]

Thanks for the welcome Beth. Truthfully I was quite embarrassed that I chose the name Tawanda to use but I just keep thinking of the battle cry---I'm moving forward instead of retreating and one just cannot retreat with TAWANDA! ringing in your ears.

I'm down another pound today! Whoo-Hooo! I missed my L & G yesterday due to a family emergency that took me away from home on the spur of the moment. I had already eaten a bar and there was no time nor place to have a L & G nor to make an extra supplement meal. So the day ended up being a 5 & 0 unfortunately. I really missed having something to truly chew on though.

I had my oatmeal this morning and didn't notice a chalky taste and I just had a cup of tomato soup for lunch (I despise Tomato soup normally) and it was fine. I think I'm getting the hang of this food (and use to it).

Life is good.

Hope the day is going well for everyone.

[Tawanda]

Day 7 of the program and up .5# . I knew the daily loss couldn't continue forever but was still disappointed to see the scale go back up. I did keep myself from getting off and back on the scale though (in hopes that the number would change).

Busy day, but I will be able to stay on program! I hope it is a good and successful day for everyone else.

[bikipatra]

Day 7 of the program and up .5# . I knew the daily loss couldn't continue forever but was still disappointed to see the scale go back up. I did keep myself from getting off and back on the scale though (in hopes that the number would change).

You're better than I am. If I see a number I don't like I hop back on and off so many times it counts as exercise!

[Sojourner]

...I hop back on and off so many times it counts as exercise!

Step aerobics!!

...disappointed to see the scale go back up.

Tawanda, don't let the daily fluctuations discourage you...try to keep your focus on the overall downward trend that you're experiencing. I know that's easier said than done, but you'll make yourself nuttier'n squirrel poop if you focus too much on the numbers. There are SO many reasons that can explain the .5 gain the scale showed: TOM, sodium, muscle inflammation, water retention, or you didn't set your chin just right when you hopped on the dad-blamed thang. Point is, look at the bigger picture for the smaller you.

[Tawanda]

Soujourner, thank you for your advice but I'm okay with the fluctations (so far anyway ), I expect to see the scale go up along with going down. I was just being a bit pouty, like a whiney baby, that it had already popped up a tiny bit.

Today is the first day of week 2 for me. The scale showed the .5 is gone (again) so that was nice. I'm in this for the long haul so it really doesn't matter, in some ways, what the number is each day--although it is nice to see it 'dropping'. I'm playing with the idea of staying off the scale, once I weigh in for Roll Call tomorrow, and only stepping back on it next Sunday for Roll Call. I'm not sure those magnets in my feet can stay away from the scale for a whole week.

Tomorrow is a pizza party. A small gathering and I'm trying to figure out how to not be obvious that I'm not eating pizza or b'day cake. I am not yet ready or willing to share with anyone (other than DH) that I'm dieting (again). My DH said "just eat the food, it is only one meal out of 21 in the week and it shouldn't matter". I told him that it does matter a lot to me, that I *obviously* have a problem with food and that I've been on program for 7 days --- I'm not willing to have just 'one meal' off program. I don't think he understood me, but that isn't important at this time (to me). He did come up with other suggestions that I had already thought of to disguise that I'm not eating one of my very favorite foods.

Why am I not ready to share that I've begun a new (and my very last) program to lose weight? I'm not 100% sure, I think it is because this is my battle and I'm not ready to listen nor talk about it to anyone (outside of this forum) yet. I am excited, I'm focused, I'm determined, I refuse to quit, stray from the program (even once) and I am determined to see it to the end. So, right now I'm savoring and enjoying the process and my mindset. There will be a time later, when enough weight has been lost that I will be asked 'what are you doing to lose?' or 'are you dieting?' or whatever else may be said/asked. By then I'll have wrapped my mind around this enough to know how I want to respond. I guess I've tried and failed so many times that I'm afraid to let myself believe that I will do this.

Anyway, staying on program is #1 priority for me and staying 100% compliant until I hit my goal so that I never have to restart and I will get control of eating instead of giving 'food' the power to control my life, my emotions and my happiness. I deserve this, I am worthy of being thin and ..............well, I guess the only other thing to say is..................

TAWANDA!!!!

[bikipatra]

I truly admire your detemination!

[DonicaB]

Why am I not ready to share that I've begun a new (and my very last) program to lose weight? I'm not 100% sure, I think it is because this is my battle and I'm not ready to listen nor talk about it to anyone (outside of this forum) yet.

Tawanda~ I completely understand this kind of thinking. I often feel the same way. I think I have always feared that people are saying behind my back, "why doesn't she just give up......she fails every time." There is probably NO ONE that is actually saying that behind my back.......but for some reason I am paranoid about it.

You're right......this is your battle.........you don't have to tell anyone.....anything. We are all little foot soldiers in this battle.......and we are not going to turn back and cower.......we are going to keep moving forward until the battle is WON! <img src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/14/14_2_109.gif" alt="SmileyCentral.com" border="0"><img border="0" src="http://plugin.smileycentral.com/http%253A%252F%252Fimgfarm%252Ecom%252Fimages%252Fnocache%252Ftr%252Ffw%252Fsmiley%252Fsocial%252Egif%253Fi%253D14%252F14_2_109/image.gif">

DonicaB

[Serendipity]

Tawanda,

I found in social situations it was easy to avoid explaining myself by just saying "not just yet, maybe later" when I was offered food. When later came, they had forgotten that I didn't eat and I was home free, hehe.

[Tawanda]

The party was postponed until tomorrow so I have a reprieve which is good since I'm having a case of the 'hungries' and it is good not to have temptation showing it's ugly head here today.

I'm sticking to program and not waivering....but today is a good one to spend lots of time reading the motivating posts here to keep my resolve firm along with drinking lots of water (maybe even 'hot' water as I'm cold all the time lately).

Jo, I think your idea is going to work at the party, thanks.

[Tawanda]

Well, the day is almost over and I made it! I figured if I came here to write that I made it through the day 100% compliant that I wouldn't dare go off program.

I looked a tiny bit in the elevator forum and there I found a post by Nancy that I thought was especially good. It was under the thread 'Do overs' . It was a great one to read today.

So, that is it for my Sunday. Day 9 almost put to bed and eager for day 10!

[Tawanda]

Day 10. I'm behind on my supplements. Darn me! I had a busy morning so didn't have my first one until 9:30.

I stayed off the scale this morning and think I'll try to not get on it until Sunday morning for Roll Call. Not sure I can stay off of it until then but will give it a try just for fun.

I'm trying to figure out where/how I'll place my next order for MF. The first order was through the main MF website. I don't really understand how it all works if I stick with ordering there or ordering elsewhere. One of those gray areas that is a bit confusing. I'm also trying to decide if I'll stick with the variety package or if I'll pick & choose just specific items. I haven't 'loved' everything in the variety package, but I also haven't hated anything. If I truly am going to get past my 'addiction' of using food for pleasure (a hobby) then maybe it is best to stick with the variety package so that I am eating for fuel and not sticking to just things that are 'delicious'. Another complex thing to think out and decide if it is complex or not.

Determination and commitment are still very strong and I'm praying I stay in that way of thinking. I want to stick with this to the end---make it to goal and then do the transition/maintenance. I *NEVER* want to gain this weight back again once it is off---NEVER! I want to be healthy and to have whatever happiness & contentment that goes along with feeling better, being able to bend, walk, move easier and the happiness with being able to buy clothing that is attractive instead of focusing on whether or not it can hide my extra pounds.

Tonight is pizza and ice cream cake. I've decided to eat my L & G before going to the party and just say that I'm 'being good' and have already had a salad for dinner. It will be fine and I'll have pride in the morning that I didn't compromise my commitment nor cave to any outside pressure for eating off program for 'just one meal'.

TAWANDA!

[Serendipity]

Tawanda,

I don't think you need to eat supplements that you don't care for to prove to yourself that food is fuel. I think that we were meant to enjoy our food, just not to the excess we have been used to. I have always chosen only the supplements that I liked. Funny thing is, although I enjoyed them, my thinking about food changed dramatically during my time on program. I highly recommend eating your very favorites because I think that helps us to stick to the program. Why dread your next supplement when you can truly enjoy it.

If you join the be slim club, you can get discounts! Yeah! Nancy and Terry Pettit provide us with the wonderful forum, so I order from them. It doesn't cost me more and they get a little back for all of the things they do for us. If you call the number at the top of the forum, they will fix you up.

[Tawanda]

Jo, thanks for the information. I wasn't sure if I had to reorder from the original site or not. I didn't think I had to, but had heard that everyone was assigned a health advisor when they begin but I wasn't sure how that happened and if I was going to 'mess something up' if I switched to ordering from someone else. When I'm ready for more program supplies I'll call the MakeMeThinner.com number.

Today is Day 11 of complete compliance for me (Commando Medifast!). I'm so proud of myself for making this decision and commitment. I have learnt a lot from reading the archives here, a lot about making a commitment and how difficult it can be to get started again. I am more than ever determined that I will stay compliant until goal---I am afraid if I do not that I will be one of those that just never gets started again. This is important to me.

[j0j0ruca]

[quote="Tawanda"]Day 10. I'm behind on my supplements. Darn me! I had a busy morning so didn't have my first one until 9:30.

I stayed off the scale this morning and think I'll try to not get on it until Sunday morning for Roll Call. Not sure I can stay off of it until then but will give it a try just for fun.

I'm trying to figure out where/how I'll place my next order for MF. The first order was through the main MF website. I don't really understand how it all works if I stick with ordering there or ordering elsewhere. One of those gray areas that is a bit confusing. I'm also trying to decide if I'll stick with the variety package or if I'll pick & choose just specific items. I haven't 'loved' everything in the variety package, but I also haven't hated anything. If I truly am going to get past my 'addiction' of using food for pleasure (a hobby) then maybe it is best to stick with the variety package so that I am eating for fuel and not sticking to just things that are 'delicious'. Another complex thing to think out and decide if it is complex or not.


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Monday mornings are my "official" weigh ins but for the fun of it I'll hop on mid-week. I know Wednesday I jumped on it at night to see I was up a few pounds. That really kept me focused.

I need to reorder soon. I started off with the variety package as well, but have been picking things up along the way to try. I have a feeling I won' tbe ordering the variety pakage again. I'd rather stick to the flavors I like then try to force down the ones I don't.

[Tawanda]

Finishing up day 11 and have been doing well. Last night I helped serve the pizza to everyone and not one bit of it touched my lips even though it smelt heavenly and looked wonderful. I took a bar along and ended up eating that while I was alone in the kitchen for a few minutes. I drank a bottle of water while everyone else was eating their pizza and enjoying the ice cream cake. I felt strong and in control---not at all deprived--it was a good time.

I'm really tired and a bit down this evening. Hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep and tomorrow will look rosier.