The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[dede4wd]

Hi T,
I just read your great post. Not great because of the fact that you gained, great because of the honesty and the resolve. I know exactly where you are. I'm there too! I'm so embarassed I gained so much back, I feel like I let people down. I'm mad at myself for going back to considering bad food a treat.

Let's look at the good points though. You and I both realized we had a problem and fessed up to it BEFORE we gained it all back. With some work, we CAN get back to our cute clothes and maintaining. We have each other. We can lean on each other when times get tough.

I'm right here with you, let's finish this!

Let's do it together!

[Tawanda]

Hi Robin, Unca & Dede!

Posting my weight gain, removing my maintaining medallion and having my weight club adjusted (gulp) all helped me keep my focus yesterday whenever the munchies hit. I did not waver and I stayed on program! I know that day 1 is usually the easiest day to get through when beginning the program, today and the next few days will probably be a lot tougher to get through. Hopefully my resolve will be enough to get me through without any off program nibbling (or a binge) -- and if that doesn't quite do it, then I hope I'll remember the shame I'll feel when I would have to come back here to say 'I gave in to a food whim'.

I'm down 2# (bless the first days of program with the water retention losses).. I now have a new little mini challenge staring me in the face....to get 4 more pounds off and get back my 40# club. I can and will do it.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

[katieb920]

Hiya T,

I am right there with you. But you are a strong women and you will get through this battle. Sometimes I feel like I should not come here because I do not want to dissapoint people that are doing really well. I am glad you are writing on the boards. You always helped me focus on what I needed to do.

[nickieluv]

You have inspired me as well to 'let go' of the progress I made last time and admit that I am starting all over (not that you are starting completely over, but I am, and I've been holding on to that 60# club in complete denial and you removing your medallion and changing your club helped me to decide). I pm'ed Unca just a minute ago. I hope wanting to get that club back will help me stay strong, too!

[dede4wd]

Hey T, have a GREAT first week! We're right here with you!

Katie, when you said "Sometimes I feel like I should not come here because I do not want to dissapoint people that are doing really well." I know exactly how you feel, that's how I felt when I was gaining. I was too proud to ask for help. People used to tell me I was an inspiration and I didn't want to let someone down. But I needed help and support then and I need help and support now. Never worry about disappointing anyone. We're here to support, thick and thin!

[Tawanda]

Hi, I've had internet problems since yesterday afternoon. Right now I'm getting a lot of error messages and pages loading painfully slow. Frustrating!

Hello to Katie, Nickie, Robin and Dede, thanks for stopping over to say 'hi'.

I'm going to keep this short since I'm not positive how long I'll get to stay online or if I'll get another error message and kicked off......

Today is day 3, we did have a family picnic here. I'm very hungry right now and will probably have an extra supplement or go boil some eggs. I need something to get me through tonight.

Weight down another .5# this morning....but I'm not going to attempt to open the roll call page. Total weight loss since Friday morning is 2.5# -- I'm happy with that and know that it is water loss, not fat loss......fat loss will come.

I'm sorry I cannot read what everyone has posted. Hopefully whatever problem is up with our ISP will be solved soon.

[DogMa]

Morning, T! What everyone else said about being embarrassed. I think that's why a lot of folks disappear from the board, and I wish they wouldn't. You're not disappointing people; you're showing them that this is a lifelong battle and that it's far too easy to slip up in maintenance. You're also showing 'em that the smart thing to do if you DO gain back some weight is to do something about it! Personally, I think anyone who keeps trying is an inspiration.

[dede4wd]

Personally, I think anyone who keeps trying is an inspiration.

Exactly! I'm happy for you about the 2.5# loss so far! I'm on day 13 and I'm not sure if I'm losing any fat yet, might still be just water (considering my diet soda addiction), but we'll get there!

I'm just so glad I have some familiar faces to face this with! Am I embarasssed? YOU BET! Am I kind of proud of myself for not gaining it all back, for jumping on when I hit that "that's it, this is enough, fix this" point?" Kind of.

Onward and downward! Let's do this! Let's get healthy and back into our cute clothes!

[nickieluv]

You only fail if you give up. And everyone here is so understanding about food struggles - I'm always amazed how the maintainers (who I've always known as thin people!) can remember and empathize with how hard it is to take the plunge and get started.

We're back and raring to go - let's make it happen this time once and for all!

[Tawanda]

Hello, grandchildren are down for a nap and I thought I'd better get over here and check in. ISP is running better (yes!) but I'm struggling. I'm not giving up and I will continue to update daily....but I'm not the picture of program perfection right now.

No babysitting tomorrow (I think) so maybe tomorrow will turn out to be my day that I will get myself back on track. I did great for 2 or 3 days and then at a family barbecue (here) I decided to have a bun with my turkey burger and to have some of the salads (mayo type salads). Not horrible binges, but still not at all program compliant items.

I will get this done!

[DogMa]

T, I think it's especially hard to get back in the right mindset when you've been on maintenance awhile (even if you weren't quite maintaining). You get used to being allowed to have those things occasionally, and suddenly feel very deprived when you're not supposed to.

The restrictions were helpful for me, though, once I adjusted. I didn't turn back to Medifast because I (thankfully) never gave up on the exercise, but I still went with something that didn't allow for much off-plan foods. I think it helped me refocus, you know? But it took awhile to resign myself to it and realize that, at least for a while, I needed a strict program to get myself together.

[Karli]

Hey Tawanda, hang in there ! Just to let you know I am rootin' for you .

[Lauren]

Hey, T.! I am sorry to hear how much of a struggle this has been, but I think you're TOTALLY on track now that you've had that lightbulb moment. It's amazing how the pounds can just creep up, almost so slowly that you don't realize it until it "feels" too late. But you KNOW it's not too late, it's never too late, and it's even better that you've stopped it in its tracks!

I am totally in agreement with Robin on the issue of scaling back once you've "enjoyed" maintenance. I found the weight loss process infinitely easier, because I literally had blinders on, didn't even see the other options. But once you're "maintaining," the food world is your oyster! Ha. I am still maintaining, but I absolutely struggle, and I find that when I want to "reign it in" a bit, it is actually easier to just go full throttle back to MF zone, then to make small tweaks. But that's just me.

Either way, you said it yourself a few days ago, all the other stresses and issues will be there regardless, why add feeling crappy about yourself to the mix? (um, yeah, I paraphrased! Ha.) Might as well do the things that make you feel and look great, and the other stuff will likely feel less debilitating.

Welcome back, use this crew to garner the support you need, as we all have gotten so much from you all this time, it's a give and take!

Lauren

[Tawanda]

Good morning! I didn't realize that I missed checking in yesterday. I spent the day cleaning & organizing our attic (huge storage area). I stayed on program (5 + 1) except that I added 2 string cheeses during the day when I had the munchies--OH! I also, during a hungry time in my day had an extra bar (the crunch ones). So I guess I was a 6 + 1 + 2 cheese sticks. LOL Not 100% program compliant---but loads better than I did a few days ago with the salads and adding a bun.

My weight is back up where I began-----what in the world is up with that?! I know it isn't calories. My ring is tight, so I'm going to hope it is just water retention. Dinner last night was diced baked chicken on a salad (I baked the chicken so know there wasn't any extra sodium). Can't fathom that the 2 cheese sticks had enough sodium to do it. Doesn't matter.....I am still a long way away from my goal weight and still need to do a lot of time with my nose to the grindstone.

Today and tomorrow I'm babysitting. The grands will be spending the night so it will be a long span of time that I'll be busy.

Guess that is it from here....I'm going to go try to get the rest of the posts read before the kids arrive.

Have a great, compliant, day and through the weekend. I need to update my ticker and I'll work on getting here daily.

Tawanda.

[nickieluv]

You might be surprised about the sodium in cheese sticks. They always taste salty to me anyway. And how's the heat out there? That can make you swell up and retain water, too. I'm sure that's all it is!

Congrats on your better day yesterday - and getting all that organizing done. I wish I could do the same - I'm afraid to go up in our attic so I have to trust my husband when he says it doesn't look that bad....