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[Tawanda]

So far I'm down 4#. I've been exercising 6 days a week along with eating on program. It is working well together, who woulda thunk it?

This morning I walked/jogged for 20 minutes on my treadmill. I'm looking forward to being able to jog/run for the entire 20 minutes.

I've been using the MF products for 90% (guessing) of my meals for almost 2 years. I'm finding myself getting weary of eating this way and need to figure out what I'm going to do. I still have enough supplements to stay on program at least 2 months (again, a guess). I am a member of the BeSlim club and would suggest it to anyone doing MF, my savings of 12% of my order along with the free shipping (on orders over $200) has been a great bonus on this journey of mine.

Anyway.....I'm striving to be smarter by adding consistant exercise to my daily plan. Muscle burns fat and calories....I should have started exercising a long time ago. But I wasn't ready a long time ago. I am ready now and I am enjoying doing it (knock on wood!). I hope this feeling and enthusiasm lasts a long time.

Hope everyone is doing well....

[holberry]

Hey You
Iam very impressed with you and your dedication girl!!
go T go

[Tawanda]

I'm dragging this morning, not just physically but also emotionally and mentally.

I usually exercise at 6 a.m., it is now 7 and I've got to get my bum out of this chair and moving. I know I'll feel better once I do it, but I'm just so not in the mood this morning.

Birthday party later today---my first challenge since recommitting to MF and exercising. I'm not sure if that is why I'm dragging on beginning the day--knowing how much I'd want to have a huge chunk of b'day cake and ice cream and wondering how in the world I'm going to talk my inner brat out of it when I'm actually at the party..... I can practice saying 'no thank you' all day long, but when that little brat actually 'sees' the birthday goodies.....that is when the mental tantrum begins and the scheming, kidding myself, negotiating (I'll exercise twice tomorrow if I have some cake/ice cream.....) begins.

I am committed to being healthy. I am committed to exercising 6 days a week and eating wisely. I am DONE (!!!!) with being a glutton and human garbage can. I am NEVER (!!!!!) going to consume a meal (or food) with my eyes on my plate, making food my focus while I shovel it in.....

Do you ever eat and then wonder if everyone in the room stopped and watched you shovel it in? Some times (ah heck, most of the time) I'm so focused on my plate and fork that I do not look up, look around, interact with anyone until all the food is gone........everyone could stop talking, eating and be staring at me in horror and I wouldn't know it.

That is pathetic (and embarrassing).

Food is fuel---it is not my friend, it is not my comfort (God is), it is not a hobby, it is not the focus of my life (oh yeah?).....

Each day that I make healthy and wise choices is one more day that I defeat satan (he doesn't deserve a capital S) and his desire to pull my focus from God.

I am strong. I am smart. I deserve good health. I want to be free of gluttony and turning to food for comfort.

Absolutely ridiculous that I spend so much time fighting my food desires! Life is so much more than my appetite......it is suppose to be so much more and how sad, that I've chosen (for far too long) to allow my food addiction to rule my days.

No longer! I've overcome and I'm not going back.

I'm off to exercise and to have a successful day......

My best to all.

[holberry]

Good morning girly
You sound like you have delved into the back spaces of your brain and come out with TAWANDA CAN DO it!
So right on about food being a fuel. yep, that's about it....
I assume you have already sweated and are getting on with the great day.
hugs,
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[SuzyQ66]

Congratulations T with your success on getting back on program...you go girl. You can do this...and so can I. I need to...

[Tawanda]

Suzy it is great to see you and HB posting.

I went to a family birthday party last night. The cake looked wonderful but I didn't have any. I hated that I wasn't having any but was proud as we headed home that I had stuck to program.

[Lauren]

Good job, T.! And I am just so thrilled with how well you're doing, and the great vibes and energy you've been putting out into the world and to yourself recently! It's awesome!

I was going to give a little hint about entering into situations (like that bday party) that could be uncomfortable, IF you're feeling vulnerable. It's kind of twisted, though, so you've been warned!

Basically, if the people at that event know me, and know how I lost all the weight, then I go into it imagining that they are totally watching every morsel I eat (in many cases they are), and that if I eat anything "bad," they'll either think it's really sad that I fell off the wagon, or they'll privately be cheering my impending weight gain. Either way, it makes me just paranoid "enough" to stay clear! Haha

If the people don't know me or my dieting history, like a business function or something, I am sure to try to work that in to some random conversation with at least one person, or do something like whip out my diet salad dressing, so someone near me may inquire, and I'll mention that I am always watching my weight. That way I'll feel like I still have "eyes" on me.

I don't usually feel vulnerable, as I usually feel like I'm empowered when in public situations - it's actually when I'm alone that I have more issues. But this works for me if I feel any sense of slippage...just thought I'd share!

You're kicking butt, T., keep rockin!

Lauren

[SuzyQ66]

Congrats T on resisting the cake. I only like certain cakes and my parents always have the cakes that have the custard and strawberries in them. We have had that cake so much that it does not appeal to me...they even had it this past Sunday in celebration of a few birthdays. That was easy to resist...now chocolate cake.. really hard.

I love your suggestion Lauren...I will try to keep that in mind next week when I am traveling and surrounded by mounds of food.

[nickieluv]

There is a feeling of pride when we beat the food, when we win. I haven't felt that pride in a long time but I do remember it. I can even picture you smiling in the car on the way home. Then again, I always picture you smiling. Not sure why.

[Tawanda]

I woke with a headache this morning (temperature/weather change maybe) and cannot seem to shake it. I take 2 baby aspirin each evening 30 minutes before I take 2,000 mg. niacin (one of my prescriptions to treat my genetically high cholesterol), so I hesitate to take more aspirin since I have a horrible time with bruising issues. I may break down and do it anyway since the coffee didn't do the trick.

Grandchildren here since Wednesday night. Their parent's came last night, to visit and have dinner. They stayed to play with their children, give them their baths and then put them down to sleep before they drove home. If the kids stay here overnight, it saves their parents 1 hr and 40 minutes for the day's driving. It is 30 minutes between our homes and also 20 minutes to where they work. They do a lot of driving to have Grandma do the babysitting. I don't mind at all having them overnight, it just means an extra couple hours of playing with them before their bedtime. I already feed them dinner on the days I watch them, so it isn't a big deal to have them here.

Don't know why I typed all that out..........like anyone cares.

I exercised this morning. I have been putting little stars on a calendar on the days I exercise I love seeing the week full of stars. I'm noticing that my belly isn't sticking out as much---could be wishful thinking or the ab exercises are already working to pull those muscles a bit tighter.

Guess that is it.....I placed my new BeSlim order and only ordered the crunch bars this time. They make eating supplements so easy. I still have quite a bit of misc. supplements on hand, otherwise I'd be very tempted to buy the product that was listed in the 'for sale' section here. Quite a great savings over paying full price...

[nickieluv]

Hey - somehow I missed your Friday post. I was just thinking about you and then refreshed and saw you'd posted in Robin's journal. I'm glad the exercising is going well. It really can be kind of an addictive high when you get going. I still like the 'it's over' part the best, but now it's because I like how I FEEL when it's over, not just because the abuse has ended.

Your grandkids are lucky to have you. My mom just approached us about watching the girls in September when I go back to work, and I hadn't planned to broach the subject until after Easter. But I was so happy she wants to do it. We have the advantage, though, that she is literally right around the corner from us. But there's no one I'd rather have watching my kids so I understand completely why your family would drive any distance to bring you the little ones. It is so much better, if you have to leave your kids, to know they are with someone who will love them and not just take care of their needs. You're a great grammie to do that. I have a friend who's mother and mother-in-law flat out refuse to watch the kids for more than a couple of hours. They say their time raising kids is done. I say they don't know what they're missing.

Well, enough about me. Have a great time exercising tomorrow!

[Joy]

Hello T!

By reading it looks like you will be doing MF for a short spell again too?

In any case, I hope you will have a nice week end.

regards,
joy

[Tawanda]

Just a fast check in. Same ole', same ole' here. Still exercising, still fighting myself to stay on plan, still working on getting back down to my goal weight, still learning how to eat to maintain my weight loss.

At times I feel like a failure because I didn't stay at 147. I absolutely hate these extra pounds I'm carrying around, partially because I'm afraid I'll continue to give into my food cravings which would make me gain all my weight back. It is too hard to take it off, to continue to gain more.

I love that I'm exercising regularly (and hard). It is helping me transform my body, from a fat carrying vessel, to a lean body with muscle that helps burn calories. I still need to learn (and desire) to choose wisely to fuel this revamped body of mine.

I don't 'see' any changes yet from the 3 weeks of exercising. I don't feel stronger from the weight lifting nor do I see an change in my body shape. I will take my measurements at the end of 4 weeks of exercising, hoping to see a nice change.

Guess that is it from here......hope everyone is doing well.

[nickieluv]

There must be changes, T, maybe they are just hard to see from your perspective? If you are working out hard, you're definitely getting benefits. I hope you start to feel and see them soon.

I'm sorry you're still having to fight with yourself. That's a super hard way to be and I speak as one who often loses that fight. But it's better to fight with yourself than to just give up, so you are doing great! Try to be proud that you stopped the backslide after 20 pounds and didn't gain everything back. It was a process to lose weight and I'm sure it will be a process to learn how to maintain successfully. You might yo-yo a little bit. Just keep on truckin.'

[Joy]

Happy Lunar New Year!

joy