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[Tawanda]

DH arrived home from work while I was typing my previous post so I had to end it fast so I could go greet him and hear how his day went.

Thanks Katie & Pam, appreciate your comments.

I had to make something for DH's lunch and brownie mix is what I had on hand. I did do some indepth thinking of how I would handle the smell when they came out of the oven, knowing that it would be a temptation. I decided that no matter what I would not give into temptation. With DH arriving home and the smell is no longer as strong---I made it through that time. Whew! LOL

I have had all my supplements on time today and did have 2 oz of baked chicken breast about noon. I was inbetween supplement times and wanted to EAT NOW! So, grabbed some chicken breast out of the 'fridge, weighed it and ate. I drank a lot more water and made it for another 40 minutes to the next supplement time.

It is odd -- I had no hunger on Saturday and Sunday (ketosis I'm guessing) but by not having all of my 5 supplements on Saturday and Sunday (had 4 on Sat and 3 on Sunday) I must have screwed up ketosis and sent my body (or just my little bitty mind) into thinking it was starving. I am being very careful to watch the clock today and get all of the supplements in (along with that extra bit of chicken for extra protein). It is too darn hard to get myself back through those first 3 days/ketosis and dropping the hunger, to want to screw this up and have to do it all over again.

So......went from doing well for 3 days to shorting myself because of circumstances that I didn't expect....to " I'd better make this a priority today!".

I'm disappointed in having only a .5# loss for the week......but am hoping for a good roll call in 6 days.

[holberry]

must be in the wind, Ive been watching the clock and chomping at the bit for food.
we will do it today, yes yes

The beebies got delivered. The saddest part, really really sad, is the mamas out in the field looking around for them.

[katesmom]

Hi T...
Great job avoiding the brownies...They would have been a huge trigger for me...

I've had a supp already and now it's time for water !

Have a great day !

[Tawanda]

Good morning. HB, it is sad to envision the mothers looking for their babies. Hopefully they have short memories. What the heck was up with the hunger yesterday? I made it without going off program, but wasn't happy about it.

Pam, good to see you! Hope you have a great day, too.

Back down to ticker weight today. Water ended up being about 84 oz. for the day. All seems to be well right now for my child so that worry/concern has been set aside for today. I have a pizza/ice cream cake birthday party to attend tonight. I was asked to pick up the cake (groan). I will take along a chicken salad to eat along with the fresh memory of how horrible it is to go through the first days to get into the Medi-zone/ketosis if I were to give into temptation. I am 5# from goal (again........or is it 'still'? Blech!). I can do this (get to goal). I want to do it (most of the time) and I will do it (I sure hope so ).

That is it for here.......

[holberry]

good for us, we lived through another day

one mama is still looking and looking right at me. you know their eyes are huge, I cant even look at her

5# you woman, are going to do this, this week

enjoy the party, not the food. it's only food

[Tawanda]

It was a really hard and rotten day -- not food wise.......just hard and rotten. So many things went wrong, or broke, I cut my finger on some glass.....just a crappy, rotten, awful, accident prone, hard day.

I need a vacation and may just take one. I'd like to turn the blessed computer off for days. Maybe I will do it! (we'll see if I can do it)....

[Tawanda]

This morning I've decided to raise my goal weight. I'm tired of the struggle to hit 140. I have been as low as 143, but keep sabotaging myself back up to 147/148. This morning I'm back at 146 (yesterday 145, day before 146......etc.). I am really contemplating just raising my goal weight to 143.

So......I'm going to mull this over more before changing my ticker to the 'new' goal weight... My problem is that I know 140 is doable if I'd just stick 100% to program for an extended period of time. I've been program compliant for 6 or 7 days now, so a drop should happen soon (please!). By raising my goal weight, I feel like I'm cheating.......which I know is silly. Who would be hurt by me raising it.....no one. Who would be affected by the 3# raise? No one (I don't count, lol). What would it do for me if I do raise it? That is the main question I need to answer to myself............what benefit it will be and would there be drawbacks. Would it bother me to raise it, feeling like I did 'cheat' to get to goal.

Healthy weight for my height is between 121 and 158, I believe (going by memory). I chose 140 because it was kind of in the middle of the range and seemed to be completely doable. So......I could have called 158 my goal, or 155......or 150.....or 145.....and not felt like I was 'cheating'. But I chose 135 when I began MF, then a couple months into the program I raised the goal weight to 140 and it has been that way for at least 8 or 9 months.... Why do I feel that it matters, why do I feel that it would be cheating? Why do I feel that I will not/cannot or maybe even *don't want to* get to the goal of 140?

Ugh! I think about stuff too much!

Hope it is a good day for all......

T.

[ChynnaDoll]

Hey T, and a good day to you too sweetie. I see you had some 'serious' thinking going on, but ultimately you've decided to do what makes YOU the most comfortable, and usually your gut feelings will be the right way to go...BUT remember, we would've loved'ya no matter WHAT decision you made:+) Keep up the good girl...you look GREAT!

Chynna

[Serendipity]

T, I think it's fine to change it. You are tall, girl. I'm only 5'3" and my goal was 135! Anyway, it's your decision.

I just wanted to suggest that when you hit that goal, you don't go off into transition right away. Wait until you level off. It took me 2 weeks at my goal weight for the scale to nudge a fraction. Just a suggestion, but I do believe it helped me not to bounce back up a few pounds when I began adding more food.

[queenielou]

Sounds like good advice, Jo, about waiting to transition.

Hey T,

I hope the decision to change your goal weight gets easier for you to make. Either way, you've done an outstanding job losing all the weight. 3 pounds is minuscule in the larger scheme. Keep up the hard work...you're almost there!

[Out*With*The*Old]

T - thanks for sharing your struggle and your post to me in my journal. I am trying to make the same decision now -- by doing so now, I hoped to avoid the stuggle with my feelings/numbers on the scale and focus on health and work outs. I find that even now - 30ish something from goal I am trying to decide if its the 'right' thing for me.

Wouldn't it be nice if MF had a guideline to set goals? LOL Then it would be all spelled out for us!!!

Good luck with your decision - - I look forward to hearing what others say to you as I want to soak up their wisdom too

[Tawanda]

Thank you for the input. I appreciate each person's thoughts.

I still haven't decided....I do feel that I'd be cheating and taking the easy way out....so am fighting a bit within myself over it.

I screwed up on day 6 of my back on program so I'm now on day 2.

Yes, I need a V-8 type slap upside the head. To throw away 6 days of compliance---was in ketosis...thus why I've not been posting. I'm disgusted with myself (once again). So, no pity party here but am really giving some thought to why I don't just get this done.

See you at roll call....

[DonnaS]

Hi Tawanda. I just wanted to pop in and say thanks for your encouraging words to me during all my struggles. I appreciate you!

I can't even imagine trying to be at my goal weight so I'll probably raise mine too. I have it at 135 which is a size I haven't been since 1979, and before I had kids. I think you should set your goal weight to whatever you think you can maintain with a healthy amount of calories and exercise.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

[holberry]

good morning
here's to a great day!
xxoo
h

[queenielou]

Hey T,

Only 1.5 days more until you're back in ketosis. You're going to do this. Those last 5 pounds don't have a chance