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[Tawanda]

It has not been a good day in many respects. One of the babies was ill, running a fever, fussy and lethargic in the afternoon. Program? Compliant? No, not today.

Tomorrow will be better. Much better. I'm too close to start this fooling around and messing up again! Darn me!

[lifelovinaries]

Tomorrow will be better. Much better. I'm too close to start this fooling around and messing up again! Darn me!

You're right! So tomorrow WILL be better! Look how close you are!

[bikipatra]

[Tawanda]

Thanks Erica and Biki. Yes, water needs to be drank, my rings are tight and I'm at ticker weight this morning (145#). I have a box of French Vanilla shakes on the counter next to my shaker jar and that is what I am having today along with at least 8 glasses of water -- I'm hoping to have 12. I ate MF foods but I ate too much of them. Bars (yes, plural) and soy crisps were my extra indulgence yesterday. I know that it isn't a big deal calorie-wise (compared to many, many off program foods) to over-indulge in MF foods.........but what bothers me is that I am still having times of over-indulging or if I'm not going to split hairs, I had a binge. The weight may be almost gone.......but the thought processes and behaviors are still within me. I'm not positive why I threw away day 10 of compliance....but then what could have been day 11 was tossed aside, too. Today *would have been* day 12.....it will not be ignored and will begin my journey to learning self-control instead of self-sabotage----again.

Hopefully with shakes and plenty of water, my roll call weigh in won't be dismal (in my eyes).

I need to phone about the babies to see how they are doing and if they were ill all night.....

Hope everyone has a good day. I plan to stop beating myself up and just move forward. Welll................maybe I'll do just one or two more hard head slaps to myself and then move on.

[lifelovinaries]

<img src="http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_1_118v.gif" alt="SmileyCentral.com" border="0"> there...i've done it for you so you no longer have to beat yourself up. Simply move on, what you have done can't be changed but you can change what you WILL DO. Enjoy your shakes and water today. I do understand your "fear" of knowing that some of those old habits still exist. The good thing is that you recognize them and have the ability to address them as they are happening. It's coming T, you've had enough strength to change your mental state in order to lose the weight which means you can muster enough strength to lose the last couple of pounds and KEEP it off!

[KellyC]

We all want to beat ourselves up for going off plan.. the great thing is, you are immediately picking yourself up and moving forward, instead of letting a day of non-compliance be the start of a big backslide.

It is great too that you are recognizing these things in yourself, you will be able to see the warning signs in the future and adjust the behaviours.

You have done so so amazing.. you are an inspiration.

I hope the babies are better!!

[Tawanda]

Thanks Erica and Kelly. I've downed 4 glasses of water so far and need to get myself going on the next 33 oz jug.

I was fully aware of what I was doing and I did make the conscienous decision to toss aside my self control and the program. It was an "I don't give a ......... er, um, hoot" -- yeah, hoot moment. I didn't care....the inner brat said she wanted to indulge and I said "great, go for it and have a lot".

Anyway, not to beat a dead horse any further......it is done, I don't believe I learnt a thing from it (other that I'm still willing to toss aside program). But I am back to program. Tomorrow will show how much damage I did.

[bikipatra]

You're right. There are many times we don't learn a thing from going off program than what we learned before...we don't get to say, "Oh, it was a lightbulb moment!" No, we just screwed up. So move on, stop your negative self talk I know you must be doing and have a glass of water on me!

[Out*With*The*Old]

Good luck getting back to it! You know you can do it! Just look at them skinny jeans and remember how you got there!!!

[Tawanda]

Thanks Biks and Kym..... No gain this week but also don't get to enjoy the loss I saw earlier this week either. My penalty for off program eating.

Yesterday I drank 84 oz of water.

[siglamb962]

Keep up that water intake and just move on. You will be okay!

[bikipatra]

Thanks Biks and Kym..... No gain this week but also don't get to enjoy the loss I saw earlier this week either. My penalty for off program eating.

Yesterday I drank 84 oz of water.

Good for you on the water intake! Keep it up. Glad you didn't have to post a gain!

[Tawanda]

I don't feel like being online right now so I'm going to hibernate for a few days. I had to put my horse down last night and that on the heels of so many other tough things in the past three months has just made me desire some quiet time. I thought I'd pop in and leave a note so no one would become concerned. I'll be back.

[lifelovinaries]

I don't feel like being online right now so I'm going to hibernate for a few days. I had to put my horse down last night and that on the heels of so many other tough things in the past three months has just made me desire some quiet time. I thought I'd pop in and leave a note so no one would become concerned. I'll be back.

Sorry about your horse T. We all understand about needing some "you" time. We will be here when you are ready to come back. You'll be missed!

[DogMa]

Oh, T, so sorry about the horse. I hope he/she wasn't in too much pain.

Take all the time you need ... but drink your water!