The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[DonnaS]

Rain is nice in the summer when it's been so hot here in Texas and we have had our fair share of rain this year. Usually our grass is brown by now but it's still green.

Have a good day with the babies T.

[katieb920]

I do not mind the rain so much. Either we get a lot of rain or we can go without it for weeks.

I just wish it would not be raining on my vacation
Katie

[holberry]

Morning T,

I agree with Donna, put in a request for a vacation, Im sure it will not be denied.

Hey, have you done some measurements lately? Those always trump the crazy scale.

Have a good day.
I almost built a fire last night
hugs

[ChynnaDoll]

awwwwwww the babies are there...how sweet that is Ms T...YOU are a SUPER grandma and i know they just lov'ya ta death:+))) well we don't get much rain here in Upstate New York..what i'm dreadddddding is the upcoming snow..uggggggg:+(...i actually had my electric blanket on last night Hols, so a fire wouldn't hae been bad either...lol!..it's a lit'tle chilly here...high today will be 68...i'm FREEEEEEZING!!

Have a great day and time Ms T:+)

Love,
Chynna

[Diana]

just stopping by with a cyberhug

((((((((((((((((Tawanda))))))))))))))))

Have a great day tomorrow.

[Tawanda]

156# again.

What a horrible day this has been so far! Babies arrived at 7:20 a.m., all seemed pretty good for the first couple hours and then the cranky, fussy, whining time began. Between the 3 of us (oh yeah, it didn't take long before I was cranky, fussy and whining along with them!) it has been ugly.

I finally got them down for a nap and I wanted to EAT! I was tied in knots, upset, frustrated and on over load. I thought "cookies" but didn't want to go off program. I thought "bars" and then 'nah, I don't want to keep doing that, I need to break that bad habit', then I decided to have my L & G right now (lunch instead of dinnertime). I was out of baked chicken breast (I bake quite a bit up at a time and had run out last night) so I heated up 2 Boca Burgers. As I got the Boca Burgers out of the freezer I gazed at the two half gallons of ice cream in the freezer --- really considered it, but then decided that I'd stick to program. I'm upset enough with myself that my first thought when I get frustrated, over whelmed, upset, angry, sad (add any other emotion that we all feel at some time) that I want to run to food. Sticking to the L & G was still allowing myself to 'eat' right now (which I'm still not happy about) but it did keep me on program (which I'm very happy about).

I'm not sure if I'll eat another L & G at dinner time or if I'll be okay with just having a supplement (as I should do). If I feel that I'm 'needing' more food, then I'll have a small salad with some lean protein, if I am okay (which I should be) then I'll just have a shake or some soup.

I wish I'd learn to just feel the feelings and cope with them as they come (and cope with the reason I have the feelings) instead of eating. But at least I didn't lose control of my focus to get to goal this time. It is so easy to soothe myself with food........to soothe myself with my L & G is pretty incredible, , but it worked. I feel full, satisfied and stronger (maybe part of my problem was that I was hungry on top of over whelmed by the babies' fussiness?).

Anyway, dodged that bullet.........hope the next one is just as easy.......

I only have 4 more hours to watch them today.

Thank you for the comments above.......sorry I'm being so 'me' focused. I'm just coming here to vent and snivel it seems like....LOL.

[Serendipity]

T,

The quote in my siggie used to be: "Comfort food is an oxymoron"

I realized at some point that when I ate for comfort, it just made me feel worse in the long run. As time went on and I stayed on program, I noticed myself getting through some pretty nasty things without food and realized that it's not impossible to do. Looking back, I can truly say that times I did eat my way through bad situations were only made worse by the addition of a binge.

You beat the monster today, good for you!

[Elizabeth]

Hi T, hope the rest of your day is going well. I can relate to the stress eating you wrote about above. I think that most of us here are here to lose weight because of this very reason....we eat to cope, not eat to live. Congratulations on making the right choice with your L & G. Sounds like you were hungry and fueled your body...good job.
I want to thank you at this time for coming to visit me at my journal. Your words helped alot. I'm doing very well today (and yesterday) on plan although is sure isn't easy. Getting through these times feel like I'm toughened up a bit and have more confidence in myself that I can actually do this with hard work.

[queenielou]

Hey T,

It definitely sounds like you are beating the binge monster. I couldn't make it if there was ice cream in my freezer. I'm glad the Boca burgers won! Hope the rest of your day with the babies was a little less stressful.

[Tawanda]

The babies have gone home. My home is quiet and I don't have to do anything I don't want to. LOL

I had a chocolate RTD for my dinnertime supplement and will have some pudding in about 90 minutes. I made it through the day!

It is not easy to ignorethe nasty inner child who wants to eat junk, lots of it and lots of it RIGHT NOW when I'm stressed......but I made it through this time. Thank you for your input Jo, Elizabeth and Queenielou. Maybe I'll remember today the next time I have a food tantrum.

[katesmom]

Tawanda,
It was great to read in your journal because I have felt like you have...I am recommitted today and have started my shakes already and it's 4:00a.m.- Thursday here in Connecticut ! I had a bad day of binge eating yesterday and I really applaud you for sticking with it...You are an inspiration to me !

[bikipatra]

Tawanda-
So glad you made it through yesterday! I was feeling bad and in bed so I missed your posts yesterday. Sorry I wasn't here to support you but it looks like there were plenty of people to take my place. But I do wish I would have been here! Talk to you later!

[DonnaS]

Good for you T for surviving yesterday and I hope today is much less stressful for you.

[Tawanda]

For the past few weeks I've been going through a period of not wanting to read or respond here (on this site)......heck, I'm not even wanting to write in my own journal, thus the self-focused 'reporting' that I've been doing. I'm sure I'll work it through, but I feel like I owe an explanation and an apology to everyone (I probably don't, but I do 'guilt' very well. )

Weight this morning 155.5

There are so many posts that I've not read....and I'm not sure that I even want to spend the time reading. I think I need to take a little break, or at least give myself permission to take a break, not read any posts unless I want to and just step back for a bit, even if the stepping back is just in the form of telling myself that I don't have to check here multiple times per day and that I don't have to read every post that is written.

I'm still 100% committed to MF and my journey but sometimes I just need to either mentally or physically step away, sometimes just giving myself permission to do so, is enough to lift the pressure, other times, I do need to hibernate.

Right now, I need my last cup of coffee and will decide how many of the posts to read......

I do hope everyone has a great and successful day.

[Mickeyz]

Hi T,

I haven't responded much in your journal lately, but I can relate to what you are saying about not wanting to post. I don't know what it is for me, but some times I get involved in a group and I start to feel a little pressure to "perform" and to be perfect. I feel like I am being "watched" then I start feeling resentful and all the emotions become confused and tangled up. I am not saying this is the case for you, but I have been having these feelings.

If you need a break, take one. You have a lot on your plate and you give so much to your family that perhaps you need more time for yourself. Plus, just the weight loss journey after a few months seems to start taking so much mental energy, maybe since we are trying to re-learn so many things.

What ever you decide, I hope you do it for you and not out of any sense of guilt or obligation.

Good luck, you'll be missed if you take a break, but I'm sure it won't be the last we hear of you!