Hi
Good job everyone.
I have NOT done a good job, however. I kicked butt a couple days but got my butt kicked on others. Obviously this is taking much more time to get used to than I realized.
I'm very uncomfortable when I reach that point of apathy toward real meals. At first I'm like cool, go with it, but after day two, three...I can't seem to refocus that apathy into energy and I eat something I shouldn't because I think that normally I would've cheated by now and I might as well cheat....because I really want to even though I don't feel like it and I'm not hungry, but I'm SUPPOSED to want to eat, right? so...here we go...
I've gained weight, of course... and I'm really glad that I am going through this, but it seems now that success will be hard for me to deal with than failure.
I want to say I don't think I can do this, but I'm smarter than that. I can do it, but what's up for grabs is how am I gonna deal with whatever it is thats making me so uncomfortable? I don't know....I'll figure something out... Hippiechic, the best MFin buddy in the world gave me a good idea so I'll give it my 100% this week and see what happens...
Official weigh in: 314
Goal for this week: 5lbs
Total loss: 5 pounds (and I'm happy about that
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xoxox Toxsiq