Hi Everyone!
Happy New Year!
Wow... you are all doing so great. You all deserve a big pat on the back.
I on the other hand am not doing very well. I re-started on 12-1-05 and was losing a pound a day. I know hard to believe... Lots of water. I was feeling good, especially knowing it was a hard time to start, but wanting to get a jump on the New Year...
Well... I wanted a little nibble of a holiday treat and thought no big deal I will just taste it and be right back to slurpin... didn't happen. The rest is junk food history.
I feel terrible. No energy. I'm sure it's probably a sugar sludge running through my body making me feel so gross. It didn't even taste that great. At least not as good as feeling the weight come off. This is a battle of the mind for me. I know I feel so much better on mf, there is no comparison. So why can't I seem to stay on this?
I know this might sound strange but, I think that even though I hate the way I look and feel, I'm a little afraid of being a success. I know what life is like fat. It's been so many years since I was thin. Even though I know all the great benifits to becoming thin are... why do I keep sabatoging myself? Maybe I'll be able to figure it all out along the way.
I know this quote that I think of often is similar to one I have seen on this site, but this one goes like this. "Don't sacrifice what you want most for what you want now."
So with a new determination I start again... to join you on a journey to health, happiness and thinsville.
I am so grateful that you are all so wonderful, and this forum exits. I come everyday to feel encouraged and find strength from all of you and to find joy in your success and empathy for our struggles.
So I lost 14lbs. Gained 8lbs. Lost a total of 6lbs. Yeah! I didn't gain it all back. I'll take the six and not look back.
So I take your hand Christi knowing that I apparently cannot do this on my own, and join with everyone in the desire to become thin, and make friends along the way to a happier and healthier New Year.
Let's make this the best 2006 ever!
I know we can do this!
I really want this. Make the dream a reality.
Thank you everyone you are all an inspiration.
Petals
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe." – Anatole France