by Carrie » December 6th, 2004, 6:49 am
LOL Coco and Spidey - actually this morning when I stepped on the scale, I did a double take and thought the 200.2 was 208.2, my heart did a flip flop, I bent way over and peered closely at it, saw the 200.2 and my heart did another flip flop.
I'm very excited about it, but I have to admit that I'm going through one of my wierd times where I am actually ANGRY at myself for not eating like I used to. This is something I've been through a couple other times since March when I began MF. I seem to experience periodic phases where my old ways try to reassert themselves back into my life. There were several days last week where I planned to binge - looked through my take out menus, thought where I could order from, etc etc. But when it came right down to it, I couldn't do it because I didn't really want to. That doesn't mean though that the old me wasn't still in there wanting to eat. And I actually experience ANGER that I choose to stay on the program. Like a kid throwing a tantrum I guess. Does that sound completely crazy? It feels crazy, but I've been through it before and it passes, so I'm just waiting it out.
It really is a journey, isn't it?
Carrie
Now: 2/5/07: 233.6/220.0/145
1st time: 3/1/04, from 266.5 to 195.4