I finally broke down and bought it. I was stuck up enough to think I didn't need it.
I have been struggling lately. I haven't been this thin in over 10 years. I am running out of clothes. BUT, I am bored silly and getting lazy. I'm not bored of the shakes - I'm not bored of losing weight (duh)- I'm simply bored with the struggle. Want some food with that whine?
I read the forum several times a day. I have just read the ELEVATOR section (good reads, btw). I am not ready to stop, I just need that spark back. The spark where no matter what anyone said or did I wasn't going to eat. I may have been the most temperamental you-know-what in the world at first but I didn't care. I was doing the right thing. Hunger?! So what! No parties, no get-togethers, NOTHING to stop me. Not so, anymore.
My eating strategy for the rest of my life is NOT to live on 500 calories a day 90% of the time so I can eat crappily the other 10%. I want to eat less and heathily ALL the time so a bite of something is acceptable and part of the whole healthy lifestyle.
Screw the self pity - I need to get MAD! Fighting mad! I need that burning desire!
Anybody want to do a day-by-day check of perfection? Sounds incredibly scary, actually. Maybe I can start a thread for a daily accounting. Perhaps I won't need it after a while and I can discontinue it but I think I need SOMETHING.
*sigh* Anyway. I ordered the book because I realize I need help with this. Not just butt-kicking (which is helpful) but a plan of attack. Hopefully this book will help.
Off to make a shake,
Kat