by Lauren » December 18th, 2007, 1:57 pm
Hey, folks!
Besides a truly evil stomach flu that has hit me, all is great in my world! I just had my pre-op consultation for my exciting surgery that's just a few weeks away! Yay! I can't wait to get this excess skin removed. It was a cool appointment, because the surgeon reiterated that usually he has to do a lot of internal work on tightening the ab muscles, before removing the excess skin, but that all my exercise has paid off - so it's really about the skin and not muscles. Before anyone thinks that was just shameless gloating, let me tell you it's not. The reality is that the excess skin plays a total head trip on me sometimes, where I feel like I still have a lot to lose (like body dysmorphic disorder, but there actually is something there looking like fat, it's just, well, not fat!). So, the surgeon reaffirming that once he gets rid of the extra, I'll look thin, was a truly feel-good moment. I am hoping that looking the way I feel I should, post surgery (and post recovery), that I will be able to look in the mirror and see the real deal - whatever that may be. It will hopefully enable me to continue with my healthy exercise, but not be manic in my efforts. Does that make sense?
I have maintained my weight loss for just over a year now, so I feel confident going into the surgery knowing that maintenance is manageable. Easy? No. But totally achievable and sustainable. Which is just fine. Being fat wasn't easy either. :-)
I am off to Aruba in a few days to relax before the big surgery!
This is a pretty big few weeks!
Cheers to all of you, and happy holidays,
Lauren