I've been gone from here for a few weeks due to some serious soul searching and changes I've been making. I upgraded to DSL for my computer, but my old computer is so slow now. I'm buying a new one in the next few weeks, going from a 20GB hard drive to an 80GB, so things should go more smoothly.
I bought a desk and file cabinet too which will arrive next week. I've been sitting on my butt in the living room with the computer and the TV and decided that was not conducive to good mental health and led to one of the 7 deadly sins - sloth. I feel 100% better now that I have my computer in the second bedroom, which serves as my office/exercise room.
I haven't been MFing, but I'm maintaining my weight. Still at 298. I didn't order my MF food this month, but will do so next month. I still have plenty to get me through until then. It's been an explosive few weeks, let me tell you. Work, life changes, old fiances, old friends from Virginia, just nuts!
I'm starting back MFing this Friday. I am off for Good Friday and I took Monday off to so I could have a peaceful successful MF start, and get the files moved into the file cabinet, get my desk set up and stuff I like doing and being 100% compliant on MF all the while. Four days to get out any withdrawal symptoms in the comfort of my own home, four days to be on my own time, do what I want to do and four glorious days to relax.
I've always been 100% committed to doing MF, I just had to start on my own terms and when I was truly ready. Moving my computer into this second room (it's been empty for over a year!) was the best thing I could have ever done. My friend gave me her old dining room table so I had somewhere to put it, but it's opened my mind up so much to have a place to compute, pay bills, etc., without the distraction of the mindless TV set.
I apologize for being AWOL for so long. Life just got super busy and I've been fixin' stuff.
I decided to change my ticker to an armadillo (or is that an anteater?) because here in Texas, I don't see too many live ones, so he's with me on my journey and I promise I won't kill him off He'll be moving right along from the sad, fat heart to the thin happy one.