Well, I had a very bizarre weekend but, after debating whether or not to go public (out of the shame of it all) I changed my mind and decided to share because of the lessons (and very valuable lessons) I learned.
I went to an all day band festival on Friday and I had been looking forward to it for months. I took a backpack with me, had one shake before I left, took 3 more with me and a few other bits. (Water was not allowed because you HAD to to buy it there and spend $3 per 16 oz bottle!) So, from noon I was outside in about 94 degree weather and God only knows the heat and/or humidity index. I was sweating like a stuck pig, mainly from being fat, wearing cropped jeans (because there was NO way you'd get me in shorts) and the heat in general. I drank water all day and supped my shakes like a very good girl. I wanted a Gatorade SO badly, but I wouldn't let myself have one because of the sugar.
Well stupid me! Just before the very last band played (about 7:30pm) I found myself in the Medical tent from a close call of heat stroke. Despite the water and sunblock, I was boarderline tachia cardic (I have no idea of the spelling) and had my vitals taken 4 times. I drank another water and finally allowed them to give me Gatorade. I was so proud of myself for sticking to plan but cursed myself at the same time for not having the Gatorade. Wow, did that knock me for a loop!
Then on Sunday, I was absolutely starving! I don't know if it was the recovery from losing so much fluid on the Friday, just one of those days or what, but nothing helped - 4 pickles, 2 bouillon and 2 shakes later, I could have eaten my left foot! After the voices in my head argued for about four hours, I finally gave in and went to Burger King. (The shame of it, I know!).
BUT! This is the kicker. In having this little slip, I learned some things which almost makes me glad I fell! Firstly, the food did NOT taste very good. The first fry was great, but it went steadily downhill from there. Secondly, I could not binge like I used to! In fact, I couldn't even finish ONE burger! After throwing the majority of it all away, I quickly realized that I felt nasty. My stomach bloated up, my IBS kicked off (albeit mildly) and I bet I slept all of 2 hours last night. Everytime I woke up I caned myself for doing that and kept asking why did I do it??
After scraping myself out of bed this morning, it finally hit me. I did it, but I LEARNED from it. I learned that although I still suffer with binge/obsessive eating disorder and always will, it no longer RULES me. I may slip up, but thanks to MF, I don't fall nearly as long and hard because the difference in feeling good on MF and so poorly on junk is like night and day!! I also realized that food LOOKS much better than it tastes, it wastes money (the junk) and it really serves no purpose! And even more importantly, I realized that I have now gained the strength to get back in the saddle after an 'oops!' That was the most monumental thing of it all because now I know that once I hit goal, I can MANAGE it!!
So, after that odd ordeal, I'm pleased to say that today has been shakes and 80oz (or more) of water as usual, and I'm "back in the saddle, again...." with new weapons to use against those things which tempt me!
Yaahooooooooooooo! Giddiyup!
Alisha
And when you eat the wrong stuff Mf lets you know all about it.. Lesson well learned 
if you are going to be in the heat like that.
I am proud of you for coming here and sharing this with us. I think accountability is so important to our success on this program.
Here, have a nice cold glass of diet tonic and lime... and let my cabana fan slave earn their keep... 
..It disappears like a ghost : 
I have a feeling that the cost of the MF products will be nothing compared to what I'll spend on clothes and shoes when I hit goal! 
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