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[purplepansy]

Hello all,
It has been awhile. I must say I am so disgusted. The last few months I've been on an eating frenzy. Eating when not hungry and eating to push away the anger and feelings i've been feeling for years.
I started a new job in Sept and that has added new anxiety and stress.
Can you tell I don't do stress well?
I made a list last night of all the reason's I need to lose weight. Mostly to be healthy for my children. I truly feel I am an addict. I need medifast to clean the slate so to speak. I don't want to think about food, points, calories, grams of carbs.. sigh I am so low right now.
Thanks for allowing me to vent..
this is a journey on which today I took my first step..

[BerkshireGrl]

My dear Purple ~

There are many here who have been where you are... including me! I not only gained back what I lost on Medifast, but added on 6 pounds too. You aren't going to get scolded - at least I hope not! If so, then I need a real good one myself.

The important thing is that YOU ARE BACK. YOU CAN DO THIS!

It's a tough thing to resist the Need To Feed. Oh I know! I am in the middle of the dark hours for me; all day Monday and most of today, I had it all planned out what binge foods/wine I would buy. I even left my car right outside my front door last night because I anticipated running out for that 3,000 calorie pizza shortly.

Instead, I went to My Virtual Model, created one of my future skinny body, and I "shopped" for clothes, trying on skimpy outfits on my imaginary body. And I tried them on my current fat body too. Boy, have to say, everything looked MUCH better on skinny me

After an hour of that, and eating my MF dinner, the pizza whines had been reduced to a tiny whisper. I didn't do it.

Tonight, I parked my car in the garage, and told myself, if you want it, you walk down the snowy driveway to get the car.

I came on here and read a LOT of posts. I thought about my 4 "pure" days back on plan so far. Did I really want to blow them for one dinner? Start over at square one tomorrow morning? My jeans are no longer killing me... I can tie my shoes without wheezing in the morning.

I still want that pizza and that wine... but for another day, I am not going in give in. I have used the excuse of "just today" or "just once a week" too often! Where does that get me? FATTER!



So, trust me, you have my understanding. And my support! You and I want to lose just about the same!

Let me remind you how wonderful it is to throw back the covers in the morning and think "How much weight have I lost today?" and get to see those numbers down at your feet... rather than waking up with a food hangover and dragging through the day, only to be "comforted" by another binge later.

The difference between the two... or

Purple: Tie on that Medifast Bib... and start watching those numbers drop!

[Lady Bug]

Hi Purple and welcome:

Good post Sarah and congrats for not giving in to the Pizza demon. Eating is such a gratification for about an hour. Then the guilt sets in and it just isn't worth it. Starting over........again... and the feeling of depression is the pits. We've all been there...but pat your self on the back for not giving in. I truly believe coming to this site vs eating really does help!!

Keep up the good work Purple and Sarah, it's worth it.

,
Evie

[mytime]

Sarah - what an AWESOME POST !!!! You are right ! We have ALL BEEN THERE. Lets just do this one day at a time. It is the only way it works. Strapping on my MF bib as we speak... Mytime