The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[bikipatra]

OMG, Lauren! You don't know what you're getting yourself into! hehe.

Bebes, I'm not abandoning you. I'm pretty sure I'll have wireless and I'll be lonely in my hotel room with nothing to do but knit, so I'll be around.

It's nice to know know we've got backup, though.

You make yourself sound like Madame Lafarge! I will be glad to hear from you if/when you have time.

[Tawanda]

Jo, hope you have a great time and that you'll get to soak up some sun while there.

I've been working on my practice sock and have about 4" of cuff knit! I know the heel is going to be challenging, but this ribbing is going well (easy) and I've not lost a needle/stitches (yet ). I'm eager to try the ML method next.

[ChynnaDoll]

Jo, wishing you a GREAT time..you're gonna look sharp!

Chynna~

[Serendipity]

Well, here I am at my conference all alone and struggling with my demons. Scratch that, the demons are winning at the moment. I don't know if it goes back to my overbearing father or to the fact that I married very young, never living on my own, but when I'm off by myself, my rebelious nature takes over. I can do anything I want and no one can stop me.

It all started when I walked into the hotel and they had two huge urns of Mamosa's there for the taking and a humungous tray of homemade cookies. I won't go into details, but it's not too pretty. Granted, I didn't completely let loose, and I have been fighting it and feeling like crap, but the first day, I ate 6 of those dang cookies! Yesterday - 4! Today - 4 more and my stomach hurts.

There I confessed. Don't really feel better. It's gotten me thinking about stuff.....icky stuff that I had thought I had grown out of.

Gotta turn a negative into a positive here:

1. At least my stomach hurts and I will remember that.
2. This is a good test for when I get home. I have no intention of letting the demons take over my soul.
3. I recognize what's happening and that this is going to be a life long struggle.
4. Being thin is worth soooo much more than a few (ok a dozen +) cookies!
5. I miss my MF comfort food........I'm coming dahling!

[Lauren]

Jo, I am going to take a pretty heavy-handed approach that I think I can only take with you in this moment. Disclaimer: nobody else personalize this: it's for Jo. :-)

Jo, I think the one thing that glows larger than your rebellious streak is your ego/pride, and while I don't believe in "shaming" ourselves into eating right/dieting, I do believe, in this instance, that you you should acknowledge that you won't be able to scream from the rooftops what a superstar you were during conference. Don't you want that awesome feeling of being the one to beat the odds? Being the shining example that you've been for so long?

Yeah, we have demons. You feel yours when you go away, I feel mine when I visit my family's home - instantly want to closet-eat. But you know what? You HATE the feeling of failure and of shame, and I know your glow in the light of others here watching your success. So think about the ego glow, think about what you can and should do to be able to gloat. Your rebellious nature should rebel against your old school ways! Who wants to regress to our younger years (in that way), when we can embrace the greatness of our future? You are in the midst of your own greatness, don't go backwards, Jo, only forwards.

Forward march. To the gym. To the shower. To bed. To anywhere other than food or drink. THere's no part of it that will bring you joy.

Lauren

[bikipatra]

You're still my hero, Jolene.

[Serendipity]

Thanks for the tough love, Lauren......Intellectually, I know what I want and what I need to do. It would be nice if I could just keep things nice and even and sane, but the reality is that from time to time I'll lose control. The trick will be to recognize it and stop it before it gets out of hand.

Biki, even heros have their flaws. Don't do as I do, do as I say.......at least until maintenance.

[bikipatra]

Biki, even heros have their flaws. Don't do as I do, do as I say.......at least until maintenance.

You've got a deal.

[Tawanda]

Jo, you having a difficult time and sharing about it with us is incredibly valuable to me. I know that losing the weight isn't getting rid of my thoughts that drove me to overeat constantly---those thoughts (little evil demons! lol) are still there and I know I will be dealing with them on a greater scale, than I do right now, once I hit my goal.

Knowing that they hit others and how they react & handle the situation helps me to visualize and make a plan NOW for when it happens. Having a plan isn't going to solve my problem or get rid of the temptation/thoughts, I know, but it will give me some ammunition to shoot the little devils down when they make their attack.

I admired that Lauren cares enough to talk tough to you ....

Thank you for sharing the truth about what it is like to hit goal but still have food issues to overcome.

[nickieluv]

I second Tawanda's emotions. In a way it is like you have become human now. I honestly thought that despite what you said, you couldn't possibly understand my emotional/rebellious eating because from what I read here, you were just perfect the whole time. The only way I could make sense of that was to believe that you were in a class all your own (which of course you are but you know what I mean). Now I have to digest the fact that you know EXACTLY what I deal with, but you've learned to beat it most of the time, and that makes me more hopeful that I can, too. I know that I am going to see your advice in a whole new light now, and your words of wisdom will feel more relevant to me than they used to. I'm sorry you had a slip-up and feel lousy, but for my sake, I think it's going to change my journey in some way yet to be seen.

[Sojourner]

See, Jo...everything happens for a reason.
The responsibility for your little cookie snafu can be placed squarely on the shoulders of Nickie.



How great is Lauren?? So very.
I think Tawanda and Nickie have made an excellent point.
You continue to educate and enlighten us all. I especially
appreciate that you 'fessed up so readily. That couldn't have
been easy to do. Thank you!

On a completely different note...the overbearing father,
having married young, never living on your own, and the
rebellious nature?? Four more things, sistah.
(Like I had to tell you about the rebellious nature! )

[bikipatra]

I second Tawanda's emotions. In a way it is like you have become human now. I honestly thought that despite what you said, you couldn't possibly understand my emotional/rebellious eating.

Nickie, I seriously doubt that there is anyone on this board who can't relate to your emotional/rebellious eating. How do you think we got here? Have you checked out Jo's numbers? She didn't get that fat from drinking too much V8 juice. She had to have eaten a lot! And she understands.

[Diana]

(((((((((((Jo)))))))))))))

I feel ya, girl! We all do!! Kudos for being committed enough to post it. Being willing to be accountable and seek feedback, particularly in the dark hours, is a huge part of success. . .as you well know.

To the lesson learned and the boundary found!

[Serendipity]

Well, I'm home now and the sanity may begin, hehe.

Nickie, bebes is right. I didn't make it all the way to 276 without alot of food. In my case, it was periodic binges. Sweets and white bread/rice and sometimes anything else I could find. Yes, I followed the Medifast program. I'll take credit for making it to my goal without cheating. Maintenance, however, is a different ball game. There are more choices. Nothing is forbidden. Until the cookie trouble, I believe I had things in pretty good control. The good thing about this experience is that I'm reminded that there are some things I should just avoid and must avoid if I am to stay thin. I want thin more than anything else in my life. The cookies taste good for a moment. Thin feels good all the time.

I'm glad you see now that I'm far from perfect. I knew it all along.

Everyone else.....thanks so much for your support. I really appreciate it and as Diana said, I'm glad I was able to come here and fess up instead of doing what I have always done in the past - crawl in a closet and stuff my face. This forum may just be more important to me now than it ever was during my weight loss phase....sheeeez, that was a piece of cake.....just ask Nancy, I was so low maintenance while on program. No more, guys.....I plan on using you as needed.

Sojo Renee! Of course, I could have guessed......soul sista!

[Lizabette]

Well, I'm home now and the sanity may begin, hehe.
This forum may just be more important to me now than it ever was during my weight loss phase....sheeeez, that was a piece of cake.....just ask Nancy, I was so low maintenance while on program. No more, guys.....I plan on using you as needed.

Good post, JO! I totally agree. We still need each other even more so now!
I feel for anyone trying to go it alone!