KUDOS to you KD!!!!!
When my husband was alive I remember putting him - or trying to -- put him in that situation of giving me PERMISSION to abuse myself ---- GOD WE NEED RETRAINING OR WHAT>>>>> at this point we know (most of the time that we don't want to do it to ourselves BUT we still believe in poll taking in the weak moments ----- because that's who we WERE -- just by the outcome it's clear that's NOT WHO WE ARE TODAY!!!!!!!! Yeah for us - one day at a time, one incident at a time and one victory at a time!!!!
If only Re-contitioning my brain could be as easy as re-contiioning my hair - years of old, sick habits that allowed me to keep myself in pain --- WHY, because I just didn't know - what, how, why, who, where.... I'm learning more everyday --- it's ME....and I will change this time I have made that choice and commitment to myself....I MATTER!!!!
YOU GUYS are AWESOME and I couldn't be doing it without Y'all --- everyday I get something I need from someone on this forum - either a bat in the head or a reason to relect and FEEL things I've been avoiding for YEARS>>>>yadda, yaddda, yadda...sorry for the long winded post...
WE WILL do this together!!!
