by rodeomom » January 4th, 2008, 11:27 am
This morning has been really rough. I woke up to my parents screaming and yelling at each other and it went downhill from there. My emotions have not been so rattled for a very long time. Some of that, I am sure, is related to the pain killers I am on for the ankle (they always mess with my moods), but I know that many "environmental" factors are weighing on me as well. Staying on plan has been a struggle today. I am not hungry and I keep reminding myself of that fact. I just want to soothe the emotional struggle going on in my head right now. This is the first time that I have really had to deal with emotions this strong and overpowering while on MF so I am trying to come up with new ways to deal with them. Journaling is one of those releases for me now - if my hands are busy on the keyboard then they are too busy to shovel food into my mouth. I should sew, but I am to rattled for that right now. If I had two good feet, I would go for a walk, but that is completely out of the question at this point.
On top of the emotional junk, I slipped and landed on my bad ankle this morning. Needless to say, the pain has returned with a vengence. I really don't think I landed hard enough to do any damage. The nurse at my doc's office said that if I didn't break the splint, then I probably did not do any damage inside. Basically, I am to take two pills and call if it gets worse or doesn't get better. Since the doc himself is in surgery all day today, I wouldn't be able to see him until Monday anyway.
Deanna and I have another trip to Snow Trails planned for tomorrow. We will get up early to get her up there by the time the lifts open. At least I will be out of the house, but I am not sure how I will keep myself occupied while she snowboards.
Ok - enough whining - time to find something to do to conqure this mood.
09/21/07 - 12/21/07 Lost 80 Pounds Ankle Surgery 12-21-07