by supermom » May 3rd, 2006, 10:38 am
Thanks everyone for the prayers. Unfortunately, I did not do very well on the exam. I know I did well on the burn and renal portion of the exam. I guess I just got all of the diferent types of shock and the hemodynamic instabilities all mixed up. I really don't know. They have not done the item analysis yet, to see if there were any bad questions, so I am not sure of my final grade. I do know, however, that it is not going to be high enough to secure my "B" to pass the class. I have had to drop out of school twice. Once when my oldest child was diagnosed with cancer, and once when I gave birth 17 weeks early. They made me sign a contract with them that they would not let me back into the program regardless of the circumstances, if I did not succeed in this class. It is over. I have blown my whole future. I will probably lose my marriage over this. We have put so much on the line for me to go to school. My husband is very supportive, but there is really only so much a person can take, you know?? Anyway, I really don't know what I am going to do. I just really wish that God would call me home today. I don't want to let my family down. I cannot and will not believe that he put such a huge desire in my heart to be a nurse if that is not in my plan. I just don't know what to do. I feel alone, helpless, hopeless, and I just don't want to breathe anymore.