I'm very "all or nothing" and thought I was setting a bad example for my daughter by not eating "real food." But in the past month I have eaten out/ordered in so many times - I can't remember the last time I had a real home-cooked meal, unless the turkey sandwich I made tonight counts - anyway, I'm still not eating "real food." And now my daughter's habits are suffering. She's only 17 months old but she's already showing signs of over-loving food, stuffing herself until her little belly is so hard, and what a sweet tooth! So much like her Mommy and not in the good ways. So I really think the way I've been eating lately is skewing her nutrition, too, even though I've tried to keep the really bad stuff from her.
So we are going "healthy food shopping" for her this weekend, and I've ordered again and based on the shipping speed of last time, I figure I'll have it by Saturday - or if not, certainly just after Christmas, which is when I want to start anyway. I've read a lot tonight about the full fast or complete plan, and while I thought it seemed like a great idea at first, I don't think I should do it long-term based on all the advice about doctor's supervision etc. So I'll probably just try it for a few days, then add in a L&G, or try to, anyway. I didn't realize how extremely low-calorie having only 6 supplements a day would be, but I was attracted to the idea because I wouldn't have to prepare any meals for myself and I wouldn't have to even think about food for a while.
I tend to write with a lot of "buts" in my sentences. I think that's part of my problems in life in general.

Anyway - where was I?
I am starting Medifast. I am not going to cheat. I may not always have my lean and green. If this happens it will not be a travesty or an excuse to give up. I can have extra supplements if I miss my L&G. I do not have to have ice cream to increase my calorie level.
Now, my question, for all who have been eagerly searching for a point to all this - in all my reading tonight I came across, frequently, mentions of Certified Health Advisors (with very impressive capital letters) and I wondered what that was and if there was some other helpful service here I should be clued into.
Sorry if this seemed too sarcastic. I do respect this plan but I'm scared and I tend to hide what I really feel behind this joking wall. I can't be alone in that, I'm sure - actually I know I'm not, if only because my whole family does this. This is my third time here in 4 or 5 months and I haven't made any real changes, so I'm doubting myself right now. I'm afraid of posting this and then disappearing again for a few months only to return later saying yet again that "this time I'll really stick with it." So here I am, as I am, and I guess we'll see what happens this time.