The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[DogMa]

Wait, you went to Buca and had salmon and veggies, and I'm YOUR hero??? Please.

Honestly, the exercise thing just sort of hit me one day. I don't know how or why. I just woke up one day and liked it. Mostly I like how it makes me feel about myself and my body.

[PJinCali]

Aug 11, 2006 – Thanks Robin! I hope the exercise bug hits me like it did you. Once I get going each time I enjoy it. Getting going each day is the problem My whole schedule is screwed up but I am trying to get it under control. The scheduled meals really helps but now I need to get the exercise into the schedule. When we were on our camping trip I would dread going on the hikes but my son would make me go. After the hike I would feel tired but fabulous. Also, when we went on an especially strenuous hike, I would have such a sense of accomplishment it just felt really great. I appreciate your support and inspiration.

As for the Buca meal…it helps that all of my offspring want me to succeed and they were all there. I feel like I would have disappointed them if I had eaten off program. Actually there are times when my youngest asks me if I am supposed to be eating some of the L&G items I prepare. They all want me to be successful, I am very lucky to have them in my corner.

[PJinCali]

Aug 11, 2006 – Today I stayed on plan and my period is over so I am happy. I had my hair cut and colored yesterday and that always makes me feel great (and thinner for some reason). I am on track to reach my mini goal of 60# lost by September 3. I keep reaffirming my commitment to stick to the plan every morning.

Nicks 16th birthday is next Wednesday 8-16, and he won’t tell me what he wants to do for his special day. He is such a teenager! Anthony (26) and Aaron (23) are taking him surfing that morning and that will really make his day. He does not want a party but he does want his birthday dinner with the family. He said he will think of something and let me know. We are getting him a new guitar for his birthday and he is in on that so he gets the one he wants. He needs one that is a little lighter so when they have a gig his arms don’t get so tired. He likes the Gibson SG but that is heavier than the Fender he already has. I am going to speak with his instructor so we get the right one. Maybe a Gretsch, I know we’ll find the right one. I will be happy when all these birthdays are behind us so the temptations are gone until the holidays.

I did not make time to do the yoga DVD again today but I have it on the schedule for tomorrow. I am also going to try an ab exercise routine that I tore out of a shape magazine. I’m finally getting back in the grove since getting home from our trip. The schedule for meals is working so I do not get hungry. I still get tempted to cheat, especially by the summer fruit I have in the house for my sons. So far I have been able to stay away from it but I will be happy when I am at goal next summer and I can have watermelon again.

More tomorrow…

[PJinCali]

Aug 12, 2006 – I am in a really crappy mood today. I want to do something destructive. Not to myself but to something. I want to demo something, just take a hammer and smash something to bits! Maybe I will go outside and smash some bricks or something. Oh! I know I can get the pick ax and get rid of that tree stump in my back yard! That should make for a good workout. Don’t know why I feel this way, just had to vent.

More later…

[alpha femme]

I want to do something destructive. I want to demo something, just take a hammer and smash something to bits! Don’t know why I feel this way, just had to vent.

uhmmm...

are you sure your period is over?

[DogMa]

HA!!

But smashing something like that sounds like a good idea. Get out your aggression AND work up a nice sweat!

[PJinCali]

Aug 12, 2006 - I stayed on plan today although I did not eat on time like I should. I got caught up in getting all the anger out of my system. So I just finished my last shake of the day. I also drank way more water because it was pretty hot & sunny today. I should do well on the weigh in tomorrow morning. I am going to read for a few hours and try to sleep.

Final score PJ 1 – Stump 0

PS – Hey Alex, yes, I am sure I am not on my period. I don’t get angry on my period. I do get cranky and I crave chocolate big time. Thanks for asking : )

[PJinCali]

Aug. 13, 2006 – Oh Happy Day! I stepped on the scale this morning and found that I have lost 6 pounds in one week! Must be coming off my period and getting more physical activity that helped push me along. I really stuck to the program this week and drank lots of water. This should help me to keep sticking to it, keep following the plan exactly as is should be followed (no cheating!!!)

The band is here practicing today so I gotta get out of here. It is just to dang loud for me today. It is nice to hear them from the back yard but inside the house it just vibrates everything. I have some reading to do so later for the journal.

Random thought – Where does all the weight go when it leaves me? Is someone else gaining the same amount of weight I am losing? Is it just hanging around me waiting for an opportunity to jump back on? I mean aside from the obvious waste disposal part of the loss, where does it go?

More later….

[DogMa]

Hee. If you're asking seriously, it's burned up as energy.

And I'm glad getting out some anger helped. I know it's hard to focus on yourself when you're worried about the rest of the family, but you really do need to take care of yourself, too. Write down your feelings or post them here or just talk to a friend who's not involved. But you need to be able to unload, too.

[PJinCali]

Aug 13, 2006 – Thanks Robin, Yes I was serious. I know it gets used as energy but since everything is made of atoms, what form do they take and where do they go or where are they distributed after I burn or dispose of them? OK, there may not really be an answer for this contemplation. When I can’t sleep (which is very often) weird thoughts like this get into my head and make me wonder…. Is someone else gaining the same amount of weight I am losing? Or are several people gaining a little or do these atoms transition into some other form and make up something completely different?

[PJinCali]

Aug. 14, 2006 – Today was a good day. I stuck with the program 100%. I do have an energy crisis For some reason I had absolutely no energy today. If I could I would have spent the entire day in bed. I am going to go to bed early so I am sure I get enough sleep. I am hoping that is the problem. Needless to say, I did not exercise at all today.

[PJinCali]

Aug. 15, 2006 – Warning **** I am about to ramble and write down my thoughts while feeling sorry for myself. *****
Tomorrow is my son Nick’s 16th birthday. I dug up some photos for him today (because his girlfriend wants to see what he looked like when he was little) and found one of me taken in the hospital room the day he was born (this was a scheduled C-section). I weighed less when I was about to give birth than I do now! That is just crazy!!! How did I let myself get to this weight?? How could I have lost touch with myself in such a big way? This photo has me spinning. I am having lunch with my best girl friend tomorrow (Nick will be off surfing with his brothers). She is good at listening without judging. Also, I am willing to listen to her without getting pissed off because I know she is not being mean or bitchy when she tells me to get past it and change it (not in those words but that is the jist of it). I am so good at beating myself up and so bad at loving myself. What is up with that?! I am an intelligent woman, why can’t I just change my destructive behavior? It is a good thing I decided to start the medifast program because I would have probably just kept going up & up until I was unable to leave my house. What happens when I get to my goal and don’t have the strict guidelines to keep me going? I have lost so much weight in the past only to gain it back. How in the world it that possible? I work so hard at losing and then just let myself fall right back into the same pattern of over eating and under exercising. I need to work on a support structure this time so I don’t do it again. I’m going to start working on that right now because even though I am only 1/3 of the way to my goal it is easy to slide back into the old patterns. I’ll have to brainstorm with V tomorrow. She is good at telling it like it is and can probably suggest how I get a support system set up. Thank goodness I have this forum so at least I know I am not alone with this struggle.

[JeepGirl]

*Huggs* Girl you are totally not alone in this! I know I have as well as others had the exact same *How did I get this way* conversation with ourselves!

You are doing great! Keep up the good work.

Happy Birthday to Nick tomorrow!!

[DogMa]

PJ, you know I have the exact same concerns about maintenance. So how are we going to manage it? TOGETHER. As I see it, getting to goal is no reason to leave this forum and the support it offers. I plan to stay and help other people reach their goals, but I also plan to stay so that I can get help STAYING at mine.

I'm also hoping that I've been on the program long enough for some of the lessons to sink in, and the same goes for you (or will by the time you reach your goal). Things I'm pretty sure will stick with me: small, frequent meals; splurges only occasionally; dealing with emotions without using food. And finally, if I do slip up, I'm hoping I have the good sense to stop before I gain more than a few pounds (as soon as my jeans start feeling tight) and return to the basic Medifast plan for as long as it takes to get back down. I intend to continue using some Medifast products pretty much every day, which means I'll have a small stockpile in my cabinet at all times so there will be no excuse NOT to jump back on the program if needed.

[PJinCali]

Aug. 16, 2006 – Today is Nick’s 16th birthday and we all went out to The Yard House for his birthday dinner. Nick is happy he is getting his birthday wish of a new guitar & when he is happy I am happy. I was doing great during dinner until dessert, chocolate soufflé! I did not eat a whole order but I did eat about 1/3 of one. I am not going to spin about this. I am jumping right back on plan and sticking to my goal of entering the 60# club by Sept 5th. I still have 3 pounds to go and I have a trip to Vegas planned for the weekend of Aug 26th. I am sure I will make it but I will have to work a little harder because of this cheat. I am going to try and hit it before the Vegas trip.

Other than being a big fat cheater I feel pretty good today. I did a lot of reflection and talking about all my frustrations with my good friend V. She is such a big help because she calls me on my s**t. We have known each other since before I was even pregnant with Nick so she has been with me through all the various sizes of clothing and diets, etc. She was so happy to see the progress I have made so far (we had not seen each other since I left for our camping trip on June 5th). She has vowed to help me stick to the program and help me when I am struggling with my cravings (YAY!!!)

Thanks Robin! You are always so great with the supportive words and great advice. I am so lucky to have so many supportive people helping me get to my goal