by Tiolazz » May 13th, 2006, 3:01 pm
I am feeling really depressed today and needed to vent.
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I can't seem to get past this d**m last lb to get under 200.... I started walking again this week, and am afraid that the additional calorie burn is causing me to stall... but thought it would help to bump me over this hill.
I soooo want to get under 200, it my next minigoal and I wanted to be there by today, which is my birthday. I didn't make it, so now, I am feeling fat, depressed, unsuccessful and most of all OLD today.
Not to mention, that most of me wants to go out and celebrate, I want to drink wine, eat a good dinner, have a baked potato and eat a piece of cake. <img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/7/7_4_17.gif' border=0>
All of my friends wanted to go celebrate, but I said no, because I didn't trust myself. I know, I know, I will have to learn to go out and be socialable again and not let this make me a hermit, but I am just not ready... so here I sit, with my poor dh trying to do anything he can to cheer me up, and I have just been feeling like crying all day. <img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_44.gif' border=0>
My son works in a 4 star restaurant and they are having a Mothers Day buffet tomorrow, fancy smancy fine dining place. He said he would like to treat me and my husband to the buffet tomorrow for Mothers day and my Birthday combination. I know that he means well, but I just can't go and pass up all the fancy stuff with extra butter, sauces, chocolate and other yummy extras that they will have, so I had to decline <img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/10/10_8_6.gif' border=0>
I feel like my diet is ostrasizing me from my friends and family, I know that I am doing this for all the right reasons, I know all of this will still be there when I have reached a healthy fit weight, (although some of my friends might not), and I have no intentions of pigging out, or drinking or going off medifast......
I just needed to vent, to some people who know how I feel, and have had the same feelings...
Today is just not a good day..... and really wish this weekend were just over....
sorry to bring anybody down...... think I will just go eat some worms.....
Terri