It's funny, I feel like you and I are so alike and so I just assume we're the same age and in the same place in life. I guess I am still thinking that I can always lose it later - in fact, any time I want to. But some of that is denial, keeping me from starting right now.
When I lost weight the last time, I wasn't initially thinking about another baby - at least, I don't think I was. It's so hard to be sure about anything after so many years! But that's been very front and center in my mind this time, I'm sure because my husband has put a time limit on this whole deal. That's the awful part about marrying a man so much older than you are. That and he loves that awful 80s music.
Styx, Kansas, ugh! (Sorry if I offend - I'm a child of grunge and I'm sure lots of people think that's garbage, too.)
Iin a way, I can't help but think short-term, because I know in the end I'm going to put weight back on. And maybe that's why it's so hard for me to get started, too. Sort of a 'what's it all for anyway?' kind of attitude.
Well, one way or another, we'll both get where we're going. No doubt you'll make it faster than me - but as long as I get there I'm happy. I could probably do well to take your attitude about it not being a race. I just need brain surgery to eliminate this perfectionism. Which oddly, only relates to certain things. There are others where I'm happy to say good enough is good enough. But that's a thought-stream for my own journal.