oksoonergirl 26's journey to a better a life

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Postby oksoonergirl26 » June 6th, 2009, 12:54 pm

OMG!!! I am sitting at my computer in a master's class all-day institute and I am bored silly. I ate two peanut butter cookies, some lunch meat, 1/2 slice cheese and like 1/4 of a baguette...I am so going to have to run tonight. I have only had one bar today, plus the off-limit bread and cookies and I drank a VitaminWater 10 as well.....
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Postby sidrah » June 9th, 2009, 1:47 am

I have the newsletter where they talk about new products. It just says summer, but I am assuming marketing is still underway.

The good thing is that there are 2 flavors of each the cheesepuffs and the pretzels and they are MEALS, not snacks. Talk about convenient.
Don't really care as long as everything's better than yesterday was...

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Postby nickieluv » June 9th, 2009, 6:53 am

This sounds awesome. Can't wait!!
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Postby Karli » June 9th, 2009, 8:00 am

Hey 'OK' ... just given you a shout ! I hope you got your run in and that things are going well for you :). Cheers !
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Postby oksoonergirl26 » June 10th, 2009, 7:31 pm

Karli, thanks for the encouragement! I having a really hard time with the exercise b/c my lower legs are hurting so bad and nothing seems to be alleviating the pain. I went to a yoga class today..that was interesting. I actually enjoyed it and will go back again tomorrow night. The gym I go to offers it four times a week. I figure that the yoga can serve as my toning and strengthening, since I HATE lifting weights, push-ups, etc..I have not been on plan since Saturday. I am out of food and awaiting on payday, so I haven't lost, but I haven't gained. I feel puffy though. I have coped by having one or two MF meals, string cheese, tuna, and my regular L & G. I did have a bowl of cereal yesterday. I keep craving chips and the soy crisps aren't helping me. I do feel proud that I didn't go too far off plan, I didn't have any off limit drinks. My biggest slip up was eating chips and fat-free cream cheese w/salsa. I ate a whole block of cream cheese in like three days. I did discover that you can make yummy tuna salad with red onions, celery, dill pickles, and about one tablespoon of Miracle Whip. I would put about 1/4 cup of the tuna on half of a Carb Balance tortilla with lettuce. I figured that it was about 110 calories total with protein and fiber. As far as my progress with exercising I feel like I am getting weaker not, stronger. I exercised really hard on Sunday and I haven't been able to get my energy back. I think it's b/c the MF meals are so nutritionally balanced and I am pretty sure what I was eating wasn't. Another thing that has really bothered me in the last two weeks is that my hair seems to be falling out more than normal. I started taking 3 omegas a day instead of two and adding 1 tablespoon of peanut butter to my diet. I figure the fat can't be too bad. Enough rambling, just feeling slightly sorry for myself...
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Postby oksoonergirl26 » June 11th, 2009, 9:53 am

Still wallowing...I ended up not running last night, the electricity was out, so no treadmill and since the wind gusts were between 70-80 mph with rain and lighting walking outside wasn't really an option. I am hoping that rest will help me get over this hump. I get paid tomorrow so I am eating 5 MF meals today and hopefully that will improve my energy level. My running group meets tonight (weather pending) so I will try to get in 3.5 miles to make up for laying off yesterday.
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Postby Nurcyn » June 11th, 2009, 7:05 pm

Hi OK....hope you're getting through your day ok! I have had a few rought days here and there (I'm finding PMS VERY difficult, as I'm always STARVING during that TOM), but I'm getting through it. I hope you're able to get back on the 5-a-day and feel wonderful within a couple of days! I really admire how you're running, too....that has to be worth something! :mrgreen: Just want to encourage you to KEEP GOING, it seems like once I get through a day, the next one seems better.

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Postby oksoonergirl26 » June 17th, 2009, 8:36 pm

I still haven't resumed the running. I ran on Saturday and Monday, but I pushed too hard Monday. I have decided that since I have nothing to do at home I will take advantage of all of my gym's classes. I went to a kickboxing class on Tuesday and yoga today. Tomorrow is spin class. Since this forum is pretty exclusive and no one really knows too much about me, I have some things I need to talk about and if anybody can help me-I would be forever grateful. My wonderful husband has been struggling with horrible panic attacks and anxiety for about the last year (this has been on and off our whole relationship). He had a really bad one last Saturday because he got finished running before me and there was no one else around. So, on Monday I ran as hard as I could to try to keep up with him to prevent another one and made myself sick. He won't fly and can't drive more than 20 miles from our house without having an attack, it doesn't matter if I am with him or not. He feels out of control and is afraid something will happen and there won't be anybody to help. The flying thing has been there for a long time, but the driving thing started last summer when he had to drive to New Mexico by himself. The long stretch between Roswell and Santa Fe freaked him out so bad. He finally consented to go get help from a psychiatrist today. The psychiatrist had decided that he doesn't have an anxiety disorder, but is bi-polar. What is upsetting me is the complications that come with taking medications for bipolar and what happens when you forget or go off the drugs. My husband HATES to take medication, he never finishes antibiotics, won't take his heartburn meds or even his daily vitamin. I am afraid that he will start the meds, not like how they make him feel, quit and then end up in worse mental shape than he is already in. This really hurting me right now, because I am totally powerless to make him feel better. He was really disappointed that the doctor just threw prescriptions at him, instead of trying to talk out his problems. I don't really know how to go about finding a good therapist for him.
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Postby nickieluv » June 17th, 2009, 9:01 pm

Well I think it's definitely worth a second opinion, especially if your husband is uncomfortable with the way things were handled. Is there some sort of board - medical, or social work - that you can contact for referrals to other doctors? I'm sorry you're having to deal with this - I wish I could do more to help. It seems like your husband is willing to admit there is a problem, at least, and that is a huge step. Whenever you need to vent, you can come here. :hug:
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Postby DogMa » June 18th, 2009, 9:35 am

I'm not much help, but I do have a friend who is bipolar. She's been on meds for six or seven years now and is doing WONDERFULLY. She even got married. The only issue for her is that she wants kids but would have to go off the meds to do it.

I also know someone in the DFW area who has major depression and panic disorder. But I don't think she'd be much of a resource, since she has trouble holding a job and had to take a hiatus from school.

I'm sorry it's such a struggle.
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Postby Karli » June 21st, 2009, 12:58 pm

Hey OK, I am not much of a help either, but I didn't want to let that stop me from posting to at least let you know that I hope you're finding a way to cope and that your husband is getting the help he needs ! That's a toughie, for sure ! Don't let it take over your entire being though.
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Re: oksoonergirl 26's journey to a better a life

Postby oksoonergirl26 » June 21st, 2009, 7:02 pm

Some good news about my husband. He has decided (not with my help) to find someone to talk too, instead of taking daily medication. The doctor gave him something for the panic attacks and he took a half today was able to drive to Oklahoma to visit my family, without an episode. He has determined that he will not let the diagnosis rule his life, but wants to talk to someone to learn some behavior modifications and other ways to cope. We both felt pretty desolate for a couple of days, but we are better. I ran my second 5K today and did it in 39:11!!!! I was so very excited because my goal was 41:30 and I beat it!!! I was pumping my arms over my head like I had just won the race when I crossed the finish line and saw the time....most of the people were puzzled, but my husband and son were happy for me too. I have more questions that aren't related to MF, but are weighing on my mind. I am suppose to have LASIK surgery this week and they didn't tell me that I wouldn't be able to swim or get in the lake for up to the month????? Has anybody every had this surgery? The people at the doctor's office know that I spend my summers on the water and I can't imagine why on earth they wouldn't tell me this. If that's the case I will NOT have it until the fall and we put the boat up. One of my main reasons for having it is too enjoy my time on the water. Grrr.....
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Re: oksoonergirl 26's journey to a better a life

Postby nickieluv » June 22nd, 2009, 4:33 pm

Great news for your husband! I'm so glad you are both feeling better.

AWESOME 5K time, too - you are really athletic, aren't you? Or becoming so, more each day?

About the surgery - I hadn't heard that about staying out of water, but if it's true I'd put it off till the fall as well. I can't imagine having to spend a whole month of summer on dry land. Best to save it for later. But everyone I know who has had the surgery loves the results they got. Sadly, I'm not a candidate - or at least I wasn't two years ago. My corneas are too thin. But maybe there have been some advancements since then. I always ask every time I have my eyes checked. :mrgreen:
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Postby oksoonergirl26 » June 22nd, 2009, 6:10 pm

I decided not to have the LASIK surgery, I just can't stay out of the water until the end of July and I couldn't wakeboard until the end of August. I have done really well since I got my new food and I am feeling pretty good. I was shocked by my 5K time because I hadn't been running too much in the last couple of weeks. I go weigh in again at the center tomorrow and I think they will do measurements as well. I am curious to see how much I have shrunk. I actually bought clothes in the regular size section today.
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Postby nickieluv » June 23rd, 2009, 6:03 am

You are really enjoying some awesome benefits of lost weight and increased health. Shopping in regular sizes - that is a milestone for sure and it feels so GOOD! I can't wait to be where you are someday. Maybe not running 5K races, but then again, you never know!
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