The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Tawanda]

I did not buy any candy and we tucked the kids' baskets into the cupboard so I wouldn't be as tempted to 'help' them empty them. Terrible grandmother to think of even taking one piece of their goodies.

Hope you are doing well.....

[oksoonergirl26]

Haha! I wouldn't blame for eating a piece, but oh well. I am having a horrible day-I just can't seem to focus and I am HUNGRY all the time. I don't know why, but it is very frustrating and the supplements just aren't satisfying my tastebuds. All I can do at this point is stop, go exercise and try to be sensible for the rest of the day. I totally took for granted how much support I had from my two co-workers that were doing this with me. Now they are both pregnant and off the plan and no one else at work really tries to eat that right.

[DogMa]

Hey, I'm finally checking in after a million years. Are you still thinking about Heels and Hills? I'm doing the FW Zoo Run next weekend, Race for the Cure the week after that, and then Heels and Hills two weeks later. And then I'm done for the summer, except for the Disneyland race in September. But all the injuries set me back quite a bit, so I've gone from running 2.6 miles outside with no walking (and more on the treadmill) to maybe a mile or so. Argh.

[oksoonergirl26]

I was going to do Heels and Hills, but I sorted of slacked off on running after the first week in March-so I am electing to sit out that half-marathon. I wish I could do the zoo run, but I have company coming in (again) this weekend. It sounds like such a good time! I am doing a fun walk on the 17th in McKinney and then another here at my school on the 24th, but after that I just don't know. I may start doing classes with Run On! to train for a full marathon or the Hotter than Hell Half in July. My husband and I have cut our mileage back so much (he because of his back and me because of my knees and hips) that we are only doing about 2.8 twice a week now.

[DogMa]

I just realized I have races three weekends in a row. Zoo Run on the 17th, Race for the Cure on the 24th and Heels and Hills on the 2nd. Oy. The good news is I seem to be almost back to where I was before the injury, as of this morning. Ran 3.2 on the treadmill this morning, with a couple of hills. I'm going to run the neighborhood on Sunday and see how far I get, and then next week try doing 3.5-3.75 with a slightly bigger incline. And strength-train the heck out of my hamstrings and hips.

Do the H&H 5K instead of the half! With me. I'm sure you'll still be able to run circles around me!

[oksoonergirl26]

I feel like a dork now-I thought the Zoo Run was this weekend and I signed up to do a different run on that day. We have decided to go to Austin that weekend or I would bop over to Irving and run with you.

[DogMa]

Or run ahead of me. Sigh. I ran the neighborhood the other day, and it did NOT go well. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm only just now over the hamstring injury, and I have to build myself back up. But I read some info on training plans for a 5K using primarily a treadmill, and I think I need to do more hills again (I wasn't allowed to run on an incline with the hamstring problem, so not since December).

[oksoonergirl26]

Don't feel too bad-I have only been doing two miles about 2 times a week for the last month and I HATE hills. We are doing a 5K on the 24th that is nothing but hills. I am in a funk exercise and food wise, so I have to get my head back in order.

[oksoonergirl26]

Okay, one day at at time-most of the week was an entire bust but today I was pretty good. I realized that I am almost out of MF food and I didn't budget for it this pay period-so I am going to have to be very careful and ration out my supplements until the end of the month. I had a cookie for breakfast, but rebounded for lunch and ate a small L&G (only 2 oz of protein and 2 cups of veggies). I had two pieces of fruit at two different times to fight the urge to eat the remaining cookies hiding under my desk (resisted!!!!) and a packet of Quaker Weight Control Oatmeal. I went and exercised (even though I didn't want to). Afterwards, I came home ate my on-program chicken "tacos" and had a spoonful of gelato. Compared to what I have been eating-this was good. I am just telling myself over and over again, that if I don't stop this I will be right back at 230 pounds, miserable, unhealthy and unhappy. I can't do that again. I don't even want to see the scale go over 160 (and it is right there!) and I want the healthy desires to come back. T posted in her journal about food addictions and how eating fake sugar makes you crave sugar and I believe it. When I was 100% compliant I did not want sugar, bread, or pasta. I would have killed for some chips and cheese, but eventually those cravings went away too. Unfortunately I started allowing myself to rely heavily on Splenda and Splenda-sweetened products and then it was Thanksgiving, then it was Christmas and the two half-marathons and depression and every other excuse I can think of for sabotaging the last year's hard work to change my life.

I just have to realize that it never gets easy, the desire to eat (for me) will never go away, and I will have to exercise despite eating healthy or it won't matter anyways. I am not a celebrity and my job does not require me to be thin and beautiful so I don't have an army of personal trainers, chefs, stylists, and nutrionists to make sure I am behaving. Since I am on my own I have to do this for myself because that is only way it is going to stick. Nancy says "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels" I truly wish I could get to that point. Sadly, thought I still love food, the way it tastes, the way it feels, and how it makes me feel when I am eating something starchy, sugary, cheesy etc...I can't quite reconcile my desire to be thin with my desire to eat well and enjoy what I eat.

It could be worse I could be trying to do this by drinking the powder shakes (ick!) and the oatmeal (double-ick). Medifast is the only diet that actually provided palatable foods that aren't loaded with calories (Slim Fast is good, but my goodness 200 and 300 calories a supplement), stuffed with sodium and actually provide true nutrition for your body. I just have to get back to liking the supplements-it could take awhile. Also, I am sick of vegetables, really sick of them. I would rather just eat the lean and forgo the green entirely. You can only make salad so many ways before you burn out. The best thing I have done through this journey is the exercise. The longest I have taken off is 6 days and nothing more. I won't let a week go by without exercising and I almost always get at least two days a week in, five or six when I am being really good. However, I have discovered that the more I exercise the more I want to eat-I need to find that perfect balance I had when I first started the program.

[DogMa]

It NEVER gets easy - at least, not for me. I get in a funk about exercise. I get in a funk about food or just rebel against always having to be so careful. Then I gain a few pounds and scramble to lose them again. Sometimes I just accept it all, but sometimes I just hate it.

So I'm right there with you. I'm OK with exercise right now, mostly because my leg is finally better (or mostly better) and I have so many races to train for. But food is another story. My weight wasn't budging even when I was eating right, so I'm actually attempting my old standby and doing Atkins for a few weeks or a month (but no more). I figure it's a good chance to eat a bunch of stuff I normally can't have and take a break from being so digustingly healthy all the time - but without gaining a ton of weight (and hopefully I'll lose some). I also need to get back to eating healthy carbs and getting rid of the crap (like cereal!), and I figure one way to do that is to cut out almost ALL carbs for a little while.

Are you eating other veggies besides salad? I'd be sick of 'em if I only ate salad, too. Right now I'm actually MISSING having all the veggies I normally do.

[oksoonergirl26]

I do eat other vegetables than salad, but I am pretty sick of all them. I use to crave vegetable, I would want some steamed broccoli or grilled peppers.

Well, I have been pretty compliant (not necessarily MF compliant, but very very aware of calories and carbs) for three straight days. Thankfully it paid off. On Monday the scale screamed 162 at me and this morning it was down to 157. So I felt extreme relief that it was that simple-cut back the carbs and calories, add some MF supplements and fruits and exercise and I lost 5 pounds. I know that won't happen every week, but it has been so hard for me this last month or so, just for the scale to go down made me feel better. Now I have to lose 3 to be back where I was in February.

[oksoonergirl26]

Why can't I do this??? I was good Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday (I survived a weekend without being bad) and yesterday I sort of screwed up and today I crashed and burned. I don't know why-I had to work out for two hours today to try to minimize the damage from lunch and after school snacks. The worst thing is that I am STILL HUNGRY..... Restart in the morning, try to stay on plan, go run after school and eat a sensible dinner.

[DogMa]

But you know that if it's just one day, you'll be OK. Better yet would be one meal, but even a whole day doesn't undo a whole week.

Hey, and I just signed up to work one-on-one with a running coach. We start May 1.

[oksoonergirl26]

That sounds like fun. I am going to do a Speed Development Class through Run On! It starts on May 23rd. If I can get up and go every morning I am going to do their marathon training class and run White Rock in December. I was bad again today-it is so hard to be locked in a room with pizza while attending a boring training, so I ate two pieces and then two chocolate chip cookies. I really don't have an excuse and the scale was down this morning and hopefully it will stay down. I am sitting here contemplating going to exercise, but the smell of my turkey burgers is telling me to do otherwise.....

[oksoonergirl26]

Well, I managed to go walk/jog for 50 minutes, but I am still hungry.