The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[sidrah]

A good day at work makes all the difference for the rest of the week and the month, sometimes. That's good for you. You have a good plan. Beating yourself up just makes you feel worse and that just won't work. You're watching what you are doing so it will be just fine. You'll feel good about the MA, too.

Have a good weekend

[oksoonergirl26]

Still having a hard time, drowned my sorrows in Halloween candy, thankfully the scale didn't move. Went to my birthday dinner last night, had a pina colada, gelato and some potatoes. One of my classes (my 11th graders) threw me a surprise birthday party-I was not telling them that I couldn't eat the cake or the dip they made for me-teenagers get upset over stuff like that. Today should have been better but I found a rogue mini-Twix bar roaming on my desk and I had to eat it. I exercised three times last week and once so far this week. I will workout tonight but not again until Saturday. I am just not feeling inspired to run anymore, don't know why, just don't feel like it. Depression keeps rearing its ugly head and dragging me and the appetite down with it. I keep telling myself how dumb I will feel and look if all these new clothes start getting too tight, which on an upside I seem to be going down another size even with all this off-plan behavior. My mom bought me two pair of pants for my birthday and they were too big, but she accidentally threw away the recepit and the tags (she confused them with her pairs) so I am stuck with them-I have to go and buy a belt now. I hate cooking my L&G-any ideas for not cooking or healthy cheap take out options? I hate going to the grocery store even more than I hate cooking. I wish I could afford a personal chef. Once again, I am whining and complaining over trivial things.

[Tawanda]

I'm not sure what to say but I wanted to say 'something'... I'm sorry to read that you are struggling and not able to get yourself onto program. Only you know best what you need and what it will take to make you want the weight loss more than the other foods. I played around for months, eating some supplements each day and also eating whatever tickled my fancy for the rest of the day. I kept putting on more weight as I did this and I was mad at myself for not caring enough about myself and my health to get back on program. It is difficult and I feel for you......

I hope you find your way to whatever will make you happy!

[oksoonergirl26]

Thanks Tawanda! I will get through this, I don't have any choice but to refocus. I am hoping that if I stay active in some form it will counteract my bad food choices (I HATE Halloween candy it is still everywhere I turn) until I can back on plan. If I didn't want to exercise I would just tell my husband to fix his own meals and I would do six supplements a day until I lose about 15 pounds and then go back to the L&G. I know that if I am not careful one bad meal will turn into another one and then lead to a bad snack and it is a slippery slope back to 200+ pounds. I am looking for joy in my life and right now it is hiding somewhere and that really makes it difficult for me. When I have marital issues everything else just sucks too. Sometimes my students are my solace, but sometimes they are the problem too. I need Christmas Break to hurry up and get here so I can decompress.

[Karli]

Hey, OK, I'm rootin' for you . Marital problems are really not so fun. I have found that I really have to make a conscious decision to be loving (for example) and/or patient, even when it seems like it's easier to be upset and bothered. That is something that I really have to work on because it's easy to fall into just indulging my own feelings instead of thinking about my hubby's feelings. Of course, ideally both individuals are making this decision, and even still, it can be really difficult to not let everything else in the world come between two people whom genuinely care for each other. I think that's probably one of the blessings of marriage; that it really provides an opportunity for us to grow in character in a way that we may not otherwise be willing to grow. Not that we can't grow through other interactions, too, but in marriage you feel a different kind of responsibility since you have committed your life to this relationship ! There's always some need for balancing one's own needs with that of the relationship and our partner's needs. It's tricky business, but it can be so rewarding !

Anyway, wishing you the best .

[Tawanda]

It took me a long time to get my appetite, emotions and head all in the same place where I -would, could and wanted to- stay on program. Sometimes it takes us quite awhile to find that place. I feel for you---it is awful, hard and seems like it should be so easy to 'just do it'---but it is not easy.

I believe that if you don't give up and will work at it, it will happen. Going to be hard (you already knew that, LOL) but you will get yourself there.

Marital problems are awful when they happen, I hate it and know that a part of mine are when I am so unhappy with myself. I hope things work out, in all the avenues of your life, soon.

Take care of you!

[oksoonergirl26]

Would like to say that I have been good, but I haven't. Still not in the right mindset, but tomorrow is a new day, again...I keep telling myself that. Here is one of my big problems. We (my husband and I) are feeling LOTS of pressure to get pregnant and bottom line is-I don't want to have a baby, yet or possibly ever again. I almost died with my first child and that is just not something you bounce back from. I am afraid that if I tell my husband this, he will leave me. When we first got together he didn't want to have kids or was undecided about it and I didn't push the issue because of my problems. In addition to the near death experience I don't want to gain back all this weight I have lost and then have to work it all off again, while taking care of a baby. I am just not that maternal, when I am around babies I don't want another one and I actually am glad when the babies go home with their parents. I have enough trouble taking care of my husband, my house, and my school work the thought of another thing to take care of just sends me into a panic that is almost smothering. I like my life just the way it is and I think my husband does too, but his parents want grandchildren (plural) and the brother's girlfriend being pregnant just makes it worse. Also, (this may just be me being petty, but oh well) when my husband and I got married, none of our family came to our wedding in Las Vegas, well now that brother has knocked up the girlfriend he is talking about marrying her and mother-in-law is making a HUGE deal about everyone going to their wedding. Ouch! It hurts my feelings so very much and I can't say anything because my mother-in-law is very high strung so...add that to the baby thing and I am a complete basketcase at the moment.

[Tawanda]

I'm sorry you are having a hard time.

[oksoonergirl26]

So far so good today. No cheats and I have had all of my supplements. I am debating on whether I should have my L&G or just another supplement before I go to bed. I didn't go and exercise because I didn't feel like it. That motivation is seriously lacking at the moment and that is what I need more than my keeping my appetite in check.

[Joy]

I hope you will have a great day.

[oksoonergirl26]

My week hasn't been totally on plan, but I haven't been too bad. I only exercise once though. TOM is messing with me too. Brother-in-law leaves tomorrow!!!! Yeah for less stress in my life.

[Tawanda]

Great for less stress!

[oksoonergirl26]

Company is gone, last day off plan for me. Tomorrow I am suppose to get up and run at 8:30 (pure torture) but I will do it. I have to get this ticker moving again! I want to break into the 150s before Thanksgiving and be at 150 by Christmas. After I get there I will reassess as to if I want go another 30, 25, or 20.

[Karli]

You can do it !!

[MyComplete180]

I am with you... I hate the fact that the big IF is there, If I would have yada yada.... at the end of the day just do it, one shake at a time. Question ANYTHING else and give yourself 5 minutes to say do I REALLY want this. I have gotten rid of all the 26, 24 and 22 sizes in my house. My 20's fit, when they are loose I will get rid of them. I bought 5 pair of used 20 capris and zipped a pair of 18's. Reward yourself as you go. We are here for you!!!!