by Karli » October 27th, 2009, 9:02 am
Hey, OK, I understand how that could bum you out ! That would bum me out, too ! Not that hubby and I buy too many gifts for each other anyway ... but, I get how the principle behind it is just a bit insensitive ! I totally get what you're talking about regarding life COULD be worse. Sometimes I get lonely being here at home with mainly practicing at the piano and private teaching to do during the day. And, of course, this is *exactly* what I wanted, too ! I have had to work really hard to get to this kind of life, and then I feel like it's hard sometimes and I start wondering if this is really what I am "supposed" to be doing with my life and I start wondering if I can really do THIS for the rest of it ! And then, I start thinking "wow, look at me having a house, a loving husband, living in a wonderful little town, working from home, making a living as a musician, having time to practice ... and having enough leftover energy to be wondering if I am choosing the right thing for my life ! Who in the world do I think that I am to be so ungrateful when so many people in so many places have SO much less ???" I have had some very "interesting" living experiences in my life, I have had a lot less than what I do now (and we are definitely not living a rich life as it is now), and sometimes a person can feel more purpose in their lives when it comes to living with less. Not that one should wish that on oneself, it's just good to maintain perspective and I think that's part of the "trap" in living in the US sometimes, is that many people have choices to make that spring from having TOO much of something ... it's a whole other kind of "problem" than having too little.
Anyway ! I feel for you and yes, get yourself outta your funk and move forward !