Thanks for all your replies!
I actually have more to lose than 15 lbs. But I'm not striving to be thin.
After I lose 15 lbs, I still have more to lose until I can say I'm healthy again.
For now, I just want to be curvy. I still need
some fat around my hips to do latin dancing.
*Shake shake shake that booty*
Welcome! You mentionned that "wake up call" ...what was it? I can so relate to your hurt and pain that you suffered during that traumatic time you experienced.
I got my wake up call when I couldn't sleep AT ALL one night because I binged to the point where my heart was beating abnormally fast.
I didn't want to be seen during the day anymore because as I binged,
I cried,
and every morning, my eyes would be swollen and red.
I realized I was killing myself one binge at a time.
it is reprogamming the mind that is the challenge
I agree, dlr2424!
Even when I do lose the weight, I don't know how I'm going know how to love myself.
I want to look in the mirror and THINK I'm a beautiful person, but that's just never happened before.
I'm so used to abusing myself, that when I don't abuse, I feel I'm just not being myself.
How will I ever get over this self-loathe?