by fedup » May 23rd, 2005, 10:47 am
Christi with an "I"-- even though we're just meeting, wanted to let you know I hope all is okay with your child! You seem like a super person from the reading I've done here... I was on the board alot last Oct/Nov, then I hit my downward spiral...
Carrie- Is this the same Carrie as before? YAY!! I'm so glad to "see a familiar face!" I'm so glad you've been sticking to your plan.
I appreciate everyone's input and help. I'm just so frustrated with myself. If any of you from before remember, I was so gung ho and I NEVER cheated... It seems like I was a different person.
I know we've all been there, and I definitely need to hear that. It just feels lately like my whole life has been spiraling out control, and I know that it is time for me to TAKE CONTROL! It's like I've let everything go and my whole life has just been food. I do not want my life to be like this, and I know that I'm the one who has to change it.
And yes, finances are just another area of my life that's out of control, but maybe I need to examine and prioritize. I hate to "charge" anything since I'm already in debt, (aren't we all) but this may be the 1 thing I should "allow" myself to splurge on... since it's for my physical health (and my mental health also, I've been severely depressed living in this "funk" I'm in) Maybe if I can take control of this eating binge then I can start doing better in all the other areas also, even with budgeting and debt managing. It seems for like if my eating is out of control, everything is out of control.
I'm at the point right now when I'm trying to tell myself that I have the inner strength to do this again, and this time stick to it to the end and maintain sensibly. I've done it before, but I'm more scared this time and I don't quite know why!
I also know that last time this forum really made it work for me, the support here was wonderful, which I posted back here when facing my dilema.
Christy 5'5" age-34
Fresh start: Sept. 15, 2005 (240/ 240/ 160)
"Time to 'release the butterfly' inside