I don't remember where I heard this, but on TV some trainer or morning show guest or something like that called pepperoni 'little bits of instant obesity.' It cracked me up and I never forgot it. Do I still like pepperoni on my pizza? Of course. I'm sure I always will. But that particular phrase just stuck with me.
I woke up to day 4, and the first thing I thought of was how day 6 has been the day I've always cheated lately. Never gotten past day 5 on plan. But this, how I feel now, is how it's supposed to be. It's tough at times but not impossible to resist the food. It was all a mental hurdle for me and now that I've jumped it, I feel like I can run on to the next one and clear that, too. (Did a better job with that metaphor than the car/train one.
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I've gotten rid of a few more pieces of clothing that I never want to wear again. I'm obviously not in smaller sizes yet but I do have things that are too tight right now, but practically new (or in some cases, completely new) and I'm looking forward to trying them on in a few weeks. I also ordered a few pieces of 'goal clothing.' I found the sexiest dress last night for only $20, so I got it in two colors and two sizes (14 and 10). I'm not sure I'll ever get to a 10 but that dress represents hope.
I also have my vow renewal dress. Whenever we get around to doing that. I've known it was 'the dress' for at least a couple of years and it was on sale for only $50 so my husband said I should get it. It's a size 12, which is probably good because special occasion dresses tend to run small, right? Plus I can have it altered smaller if need be (imagine that!).
I have to be honest - maybe I'm getting dangerously high on MF or something, but I cannot help but think that I could reach goal in record time. I watched the Biggest Loser last night for the first time in a long time without some kind of junk food in my hands, and I saw the losses they were getting, and it didn't seem unreasonable for me to try to shoot for five pounds a week. I know it's the high end of normal, and double what my average was last time, but who knows what could happen if I actually stay on the program like I'm supposed to?
I'm not getting false hope or letting myself freak out about it. It just would be really nice. And I feel so great for finally starting and sticking with this, and the fact that I just KNOW it's different this time, because I can feel the difference inside my mind every day.
So that is my mini-goal each week. If I hit it, fine. Actually, great. If I don't hit it, then I will try the next week to make a change - use the momentum for a week, add in exercise (but nothing crazy yet). I feel like that might help keep me excited from week to week. As long as I don't get discouraged when I don't lose 5 pounds every week (because despite my hope, I am also realistic about it). But I think I'm ready to accept that any loss is a step in the right direction.
Well, for those of you who aren't so well-acquainted with my rants, let me assure you that this is just how I'm thinking today. While I'm sitting here, in fact. I'll probably have a million different ideas before I'm done. But it doesn't matter how many great plans or ideas I have (after I just said yesterday I was done with all that) as long as I stick to MF for the duration. And that is the ultimate plan, and I won't give up on it.