by nickieluv » July 13th, 2007, 4:42 am
Mickey, I was deep breathing in the car on the way home - while clutching the steering wheel so tight I thought I might break it off! I will try it more seriously next time I need to calm down. I get pretty mad, really quickly, but the good thing is I'm over it just as quickly. I have flare-ups, I guess you'd say. Our biggest fights are about money and it's usually because I feel like what I do to help is not appreciated. Same fight last night. But it's over now and I'm moving forward to try more things to help the situation.
Frankie, thanks for your compliment. I find 'candor' a compliment, anyway. I try very hard to be completely honest, even when it paints me in an unflattering light. Which it seems to do fairly often nowadays!
I'm worried about being compliant today. It's the first day I've been home alone since I started the challenge, and that's dangerous for me. I know I can do it, it's just that there have been so many Fridays lately that I've nibbled and cheated during. More cheating Fridays than compliant Fridays, at least since summer vacation started. Mike is right about it being hard to get into a new routine. I am confident that when the school year starts I'll get back into my school routine without the problems I had this summer.
But, the current problem is today. So I've had my morning shake, I'll be sure to get in lots and lots of water, and if I'm feeling like I'm about to get out of control I know that I can either have my L&G earlier in the day, or have a snack. No peanut butter ever again while in weight loss! But I still have some packages of MF crackers and they've been helpful this week - I've had two snacks in 5 days and I've been adding salt to things, which I usually don't do - but somehow I've been craving the salty taste. I imagine that will taper off soon? I think I remember something about sometimes needing extra salt in the early days, that's why the bouillion is so helpful? Which I have, but have never made. Doubt I'll try it in the heat of summer.
Well, I'm off to research some more vacation options. The cruise is not going to work out this year, which means I don't know if we'll ever go - unless it's just the two of us and the kids stay with my mom. Somehow I don't believe we could EVER afford a cruise for 5, 6, or 7!! But someday - it's still on the list of dream vacations.