The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[ChynnaDoll]

Oh Nickie, i am sooooo HAPPY for you that people are noticing your weight loss! FABULOUS
Keep on doing what'cha doing!!!

Oh my gosh Biki you are toooooo funny girl...lol! Well i guess i'm the odd one here as far as shaving legs go...i have NEVER shaved, and i wanna too..but i have no hair on my legs..SERIOUSLY!...some people do some people don't..lol! So yall keep'on shavin':+) but i do LUVVV mani's & pedi's!

Excellent advice Mary:+)

Chynna

PS:Forgive me too for hyjacking your journal Nickie

[DonicaB]

NIckie~ My school takes a staff picture every year at the beginning of the school year. Every year I say, "next year I'm not going to be fat." But....every year.....I'm still fat. I try to hide in the back as much as possible. Well........next year................I'm gonna be skinny and I'm gonna stand right on the front row.

I'm so glad you got dolled up and that people noticed you in that red dress. Just imagine how wonderful you are going to look in your Christmas photos this year. WooHoo!!!

Keep Shakin!!!!

Doni

[nickieluv]

Well now that we've had a whole conversation in my journal about pedicures I guess I'll have to get one someday. I'll add it to my rewards chart - although I don't even know where I would go around here to have it done, being in the boonies and all.

Just dropping in for an NSV. One of my 2nd graders said the following today:

"Mrs. _________, you look a lot thinner than I remember you being."

I love this child. Never mind that he's seen me twice a week all year - he's an 8-year-old and he thought to say something like that! I didn't have a chance to acknowledge the comment and say 'thank you' in class because we were in the middle of a dance, but I could have kissed him (if it wouldn't get me fired ).

Have I mentioned I love my job?

[Mike]

One of my 2nd graders said the following today:

"Mrs. _________, you look a lot thinner than I remember you being."

Said in a much more appropriate manner than my eighth graders say....
"Dang (or da&%) Mr. _________, you be gettin' hecka (or he&%a) skinny"

[MerryMary]

Just dropping in for an NSV. One of my 2nd graders said the following today:

"Mrs. _________, you look a lot thinner than I remember you being."

Out of the mouths of babes ... Children sometimes speak very simply and more wisely than many adults! What a wonderful NSV!!

[nickieluv]

One of my 2nd graders said the following today:

"Mrs. _________, you look a lot thinner than I remember you being."

Said in a much more appropriate manner than my eighth graders say....
"Dang (or da&%) Mr. _________, you be gettin' hecka (or he&%a) skinny"

But they say it, and that's what counts. I think a 13-year-old is probably much more self-absorbed than an 8-year-old so you're making a big impact!

[nickieluv]

I am going to bed early again tonight with my RTD and my fun book. Otherwise I am going to eat everything in the house, I know it.

I already had broccoli with melted cheese as my L&G - I know, technically you can have cheese, but all I had was slices of colby-jack. I used 4 slices because I didn't know how many to use and to be honest I don't think I cared much tonight. I just wanted something that felt like something bad. Last time I did this the salt killed me the next couple of days - and I'm here trying to make the teens and not helping myself at all. I also had 1 little whole-wheat Goldfish cracker. Just one. I sucked all the salt off and then let it dissolve in my mouth so it would last longer. I know - gross. But I was craving them and I didn't want to break down and eat the whole box, so in keeping with my plan to allow myself one bite of things I'm really craving, I had one cracker. And actually, it helped. Yes I thought it was yummy and wanted more, but now I know in maintenance if I still want some I can measure out a serving size and have them then.

So I am not looking forward to the scale reading tomorrow but I'm trying to cut my losses and get into bed before I do more damage. Not sure what is bringing on this urge to binge today - unless it's that I felt good today. Yeah, life sucks - I feel good I want to eat, I feel bad I want to eat. This is how I wound up needing MF in the first place. But I WILL NOT GIVE IN!!!!

My husband has been asking me if I'm going to keep ordering MF stuff when I reach goal. I'm still undecided. I think if I want to go back on it post-baby if I need to, it would make sense to keep my BeSlim order current so I don't lose the discount. And there are definitely things I really like and could see having even in maintenance, like the bars and the cocoa for example. (There's that choco-craving Di was talking about.) A lot will depend on how maintenance goes for me I think. I know that I need to keep on top of things and the minute I gain even 3 pounds I have to cut back right away on my eating so I don't balloon up again. I have to be VERY careful that I don't gain it all back when I get pregnant - because I can see myself saying 'I'm pregnant, I can eat whatever I want!!!!' and of course that's not true. I did really well with the last pregnancy though, so I'm hopeful I'll keep those good habits for the next one - and keep the good habits I've learned through MF, like eating small amounts and never skipping breakfast.

Well I am way ahead of myself talking about maintenance already. I need to get through the school year first - then through the summer - then through Thanksgiving - and on to Christmas. Then it'll be time to think about it. I can't imagine doing all this work only to completely lose my mind and gain it all back - but I know it happens to lots and lots of people on all diet programs. It scares me. I think I will beat the odds but then I have nights like tonight and if I was at goal, would I stop myself from eating everything in the house? OR would I think I could get away with it 'just this once' because I was thin? Only it wouldn't be just one time - I still have lots of emotional eating work to do I see.

OK - time for putting the baby to bed and then tucking myself in for the night, too, safely away from the cupboards. I wish I didn't have these feelings but I'm proud of the way I'm getting better at dealing with them and not wrecking my diet. I'm not perfect for sure, or I wouldn't have had what I did for L&G - but it's so much better than I've done in the past!

[SuzyQ66]

Congrats on the NSV and for being able to deal with the munchies and not wrecking your diet. I think the longer you have been following the program- the easier it gets. I think our goal weight is something that is dangling before us and we want that more than we want those snacks.

I am so glad Nicki that things are coming together for you. You are doing a great job!!

[bikipatra]

Nickie, sometimes progress and change come in seconds and inches. You may feel like you had a minor slip but at least you didn't eat the bag of goldfish or call that pizza boy! I am proud of you.

[nickieluv]

Thanks! I was wondering this morning if I really should be proud of what I did, since I did cheat. But it was a step in the right direction!

Today I weighed in pre-shower at ticker weight, and post-shower 3/10 below. All week I've been weighing 3/10 MORE after showering so that was a nice surprise. One day at a time and hopefully there will be good news on Sunday, too. At least the scale is moving down again - actually it's been moving down all week except for Monday, so I should say that at least it's under ticker again - and hopefully it'll stay there.

Today is Thursday - another busy day like Mondays - and it's going to rain so the gloom is here instead of the sunshine. I feel slow today, probably because of that - and I'm wearing all black because I have to play at a concert later. Funny how that can dampen your mood, too, the colors that you wear. Anywho, gotta get going for now.

[bikipatra]

I love all-black and bet you look chic! It is also slimming if it fits properly.

[Serendipity]

Yep, nickie, clothes and weather play a big part in my moods, too. Today I'm wearing a new top - white with black lettering. It has the words Joy, Serenity, Inspiration, Kindness, Confidence, and a few more painted on it. I call it my Medifast shirt, lol. It did put me in a good mood this morning.

As I've said many times before, it's hard to be down on a beautiful day!

[nickieluv]

I did think of you Biki with the all black thing - figured I would have your approval. It doesn't look bad I don't think - and the clothes do fit (it's another new skirt today that's been stuck in the hamper for about a month - yeah, laundry is falling behind lately).

I really am being short with the kids. It just seems like every little thing frustrates me more than it should. My patience with them is about zero. I feel a mental health day coming on - I'm thinking Monday. I need a break - and the kids need a break from me being on their case all the time lately.

I guess the weather wasn't a bad thing, Jo. The rain has come and hopefully gone and it's left me feeling refreshed. There's a great breeze coming in my window. I'm going to try to be less of whatever I'm being lately for the rest of the day.

[nickieluv]

I just posted in Karli's journal about this but thought I should bring it on over here.

It's not a good thing to be thinking about in the middle of the work day because I'm on the verge of tears and I've got to hold them in.

I am afraid my husband is going to leave me. I am paranoid that he is looking for someone else, wanting to have an affair. In my rational mind I know he loves me and none of this is happening - but I am afraid.

So in response? Do I hold on tighter? Do I shower him with attention and love? No, not me. I argue with him and *itch at him and hang up on him and am oh so loveable.

I said in Karli's journal that I don't know where the insecurity is coming from, but really it's always been there - it just fades from time to time. In the past I had a 'push him away before he hurts me' mentality because I just *knew* he was going to leave me eventually. And in the past I could blame him if that happened, thinking he was a jerk to leave me just because I gained weight. But NOW if he leaves I would have to admit it was my fault, that I pushed him away - because the extra weight is going away and with it my excuses. Or that I just wasn't the right person for him and he couldn't love me.

To be clear - my husband loves me. He is committed to me. He just told me yesterday for Pete's sake that he would never look for or find another woman because there isn't one out there more perfect for him than me. But I am still afraid and insecure and believe me I know how unattractive that is.

I have a class coming in a couple of minutes and after that it's my lunch break, so I'm going to call him then. I really wish I could pack it in and go home for the afternoon but there's no way to get a sub on such short notice. God they're here early - bye!

[Karli]

Hi, Nickie . You know, I have been in similar shoes as what I can percieve as being yours at the time-being. I know it just flat out bites to feel like that -- but, you are being aware, it seems. You know, your husband loving you is not an excuse to walk all over him, however, if he really does love you and there is nothing for you to be concerned about, he will indeed stick with you while you work that out -- together.

It's not that absurd for people to wonder, at points, whether their lifelong, living, moving, breathing, partner, will be attracted to somebody else and make a bad choice at some point. I think that to some extent, that is a normal sort of consideration when it comes to us living out our entire lives together. Of course, we don't want to be waiting for it and constantly suspecting -- unless there are real signs.

But, circumstances themselves can be very conducive to these sorts of thoughts (even when the thing you may be concerned about is not actually happening) -- like your husband working nights and you working days -- this is NOT an easy situation !

Awhile back you talked about you two setting up a date night together -- I hope you continue to do that on a regular basis. I know that it's really helped my husband and me -- and, if we let it go for too long, it becomes really obvious that it's been missing. We even have certain conversation-subjects that are sometimes off limits during these times, just to help us remember that the time we spend together needs to be about US, and not just our own current "obsession" in life (believe me, we hear that enough from each other). You know, these "conversations" that are not actually conversations, but just each person going on about something the other is really not all that interseted in, and knows very little about (despite how much they have been "informed" ... LOL).

Anyway, I hope that your conversation with him this afternoon goes well. This is just another thing to get through -- you know ? And, it's the kind of thing that will only serve you better as you get through it, and enrichen your life and relationship together.

Wishing you all the best !
Karli