The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[Lauren]

Hey, Nickie -

I can't believe I am going to ask this, because it seems so, I don't know, anti-woman, that we can't just have feelings for the sake of it, but, is it possible that it's almost TOM for you? Because the combo of your feeling fat, ugly, miserable, and nothing going your way - in conjunction with a weight gain - well, it could be that time...

If not, I would indeed put the lack of water at the top of the list (in fact, either way, that's an issue) as a culprit.

Hope you feel better soon, whatever the reason!

Lauren

[Lizabette]

Mornin' NICK!
Hey, I do know how you feel about the 'fat' thing. Even after 8 months on maintenance under goal, there are times when I still feel 'fat'.
I know I'm not, but it just happens!
So, moral of the story is, keep telling yourself that you are getting thinner and healthier, and every day will get better and better!
And it will!

You are learning that the water is very important, and getting back on the water wagon should knock those pounds you're holding on to right off!
Put on your happy smile for your picture and you will look and be beautiful.
You are doing wonderful, wonderful, wonderful!

[nickieluv]

Thank you all for the encouragement and suggestions. I DID just buy two new dresses this weekend so maybe I will wear the red one tomorrow - and my new red shoes - perhaps that will be just the lift I need. I forgot about those outfits since they're new and I haven't been staring at them in my closet for months. The hair - I'll have to think about that one. I forgot that I don't even own a hairdryer. Maybe I'll shower at night and set it in rollers overnight - I have these soft ones that are just supposed to give it a little wave - and if it looks awful in the morning I can just shower again and wash it and go like I usually do, no harm done.

I have decided that on my lunch break today I am grabbing my jacket and taking a stroll around the building. Not a fast walk, not for exercise - just to get some fresh air and sunshine and BREATHE and enjoy the day. So far this Monday is dragging like crazy so that should be a nice break in my day. I need to get myself up again.

Oh, and TOM - it's supposedly not due for another 10 days but I've been very erratic since sticking to MF - so it's possible. I'll see if the walk helps any - the good news is the day has to end eventually, even if I stay miserable.

[bikipatra]

THe red dress sounds great! On stage they always taught us that red, black and white showed up best. I just took a nice walk myself and really feel good

[Sojourner]

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Great job, Nickie! You've got it all worked out! I hope the walk does you good, too.

And yeah, the water is a huge factor. Okay, this is prolly really gross, but it works for me:
think of it as a toilet bowl. If you don't add water to flush it clean, it fills up and just sits there ~
being gross. Add water to flush and it's all good!

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[bikipatra]

Just drink plenty of water and remember how HOT you were telling us you felt a week or so ago!

[Mike]

I do just awful with water on the weekends

I just never can seem to accept that the water is that important. During the week it's just a habit that I have at least 100oz a day, but when I'm home I don't bother.

Plus I feel fat and frumpy again today.

The kids are coming into the building now - maybe they'll cheer me up....

I know how that is. When I'm at school I always get my water for the day in by 3 and them I have coffee or more water later, but I know I get the water in. Weekends I have to remind myself to go and get a bottle and drink.

You aren't fat and frumpy. Just go back and look at those pictures from "before" and look now.... you've changed.

Hope the kids cheered you up. I don't look for the kids to cheer me up... cuz that doesn't happen much. I rely on my wife and God for that. Hope you had a great day. We are doing state testing this week... oh joy.

[DonicaB]

NIckie~ I don't have much advice to add, everyone has already said what I was thinking anyway. I agree that you should get dolled up......sometimes it helps to feel better just knowing that you spent a little extra time on you.

I hope the rest of your day goes better.

Donica

[nickieluv]

Yes, Sojo, the toilet thing WAS gross - but I get it.

I did not get in my walk after all but I did take a nice break and sit by an open window and talk with my husband. It helped de-stress me although it probably wasn't as good for me as a walk would have been. And Biki, did I ever say I was hot? I must have meant temperature-wise. No, I know I must have said that but it's hard to remember having those feelings when I'm in 'a mood,' you know?

Mike, when I was in the middle school I was hardly ever cheered up by the kids - but now at K-2, even when they're evil, they're at least cute. And they are usually so excited about what we're doing every day, and I get lots of hugs and 'music is my favorite class' comments and 'you look pretty today' comments and it really helps me out. I really don't know that I could have been successful on MF if I was still dealing with the stress of my middle school job. I know lots of people love that age level but I was burned out after only 4 years.

Donica, I will try to doll myself up. It still feels odd to do it but after today I think I need a boost.

I just realized that I let the scale ruin my day. I had a decent night's sleep, I felt thin and healthy for about 30 seconds UNTIL I stepped on the scale. I swore to myself up and down that I was through letting the scale run my life - guess that's not 100% true. I didn't realize that's what it was until just now as I was writing my comment to Mike, thinking that today was a lost cause from the start - then I remembered that actually I woke up feeling pretty good, but saw that 9/10 gain and got depressed.

I think it's hitting me hard because I was in the teens on Saturday and got bumped out of them for weigh-in - then I figured I was so close I HAD to be back in them today - but no, up again. If I'm this neurotic about the teens, watch out when I'm in single digits trying to get under 200! Run for cover everybody when that day/week/month comes!

Well, now that I know what's had me depressed, I realize I'm being ridiculous. It's a stupid number on a scale. I'm doing what I'm supposed to and I should feel good about that. And I did learn that I have to be better about getting in my water on the weekends - that's not news, but this is the first time it's made such a big difference in my numbers so now I really have to focus on it. Because despite my grandiose statements the scale still does have power over me.

Well, it's late enough that I can get away with leaving for the day. I have a couple of piano lessons tonight and for a change I don't have to go pick up my daughter afterwards - my sister is bringing her home instead. I'm going to try to really enjoy my evening with her and get outside to play. I have a lot to be grateful for and while I'll never stop hoping for better numbers on the scale, I have to remember this is a long journey and every day takes me closer to my goal and farther away from my old unhealthy life.

[nickieluv]

I said I wouldn't binge but I did.

I had a very unsatisfying L&G. 3 hard-boiled eggs which I thought would be good, but - no. And then asparagus - which I am officially giving up on. I cannot make it taste good. It always tastes good when I order it in restaurants - so I imagine they put all kinds of things on it to make it bad for you and that's why it tastes good.

I went ahead afterwards and had my bar right away - dinner was a bust and I was hungry. But then after the bar, I got out an Atkins bar because the baby wanted chocolate - and I had one bite of that. Then I got out some chicken my husband had made me, and theoretically I was getting it out for the baby's dinner, but I drowned it in A1 and ate almost all of it. I imagine it was 10-12oz of chicken, on top of the 3 eggs (which I smothered with salt by the way to choke them down).

I did NOT eat the entire box of Goldfish crackers although it crossed my mind. And I did NOT have a package of cheese, which also crossed my mind. I did not even have a lick of those things. Once the chicken had settled a little I felt (and feel) bloated and full and a little sick. I am just checking in right now and then I'm going to bed, even though it's only 8:30. I don't know if I should be having another supplement since I only had 4 today, but I'm not going to have another one. I couldn't eat a thing. I have 33oz of water sitting in front of me - more like 18oz now - and I'm taking that upstairs with me and that's all.

I know that this happened because my afternoon got hectic and I missed a supplement, which threw off the rest of my schedule. I let myself get too hungry. I'm starting to think I should take a bar to work again. I feel that I'm past needing the crutch of two bars - especially now that I have the RTDs and hot cocoa back in stock. And I did not get as hungry at night when I had the bar in the morning. I got cravings, sure, but I wasn't really hungry. So tomorrow I'm going to take a bar to work and see how that goes. Now that I know the solution is so easy, if I start wanting a bar at night again I'll just stop taking one to work again.

All in all, though, I actually have a bit of a good feeling about all this. I binged on chicken - and it makes sense to me why I did it. It was probably partially emotional as all my eating seems to be, but I did not fuel my body properly and I crashed. I did not want anything off-plan in the sense of ordering in or eating anything at all just to cheat. This was not a compliant day. But it was not a disaster.

So, to sum up - no more asparagus. No more hard-boiled eggs. Taking a bar to work again to feel more full during the day. And drinking extra water to counteract my binge. Oh - and I don't imagine I'll be able to face eating chicken for quite a while now. I hope the dress I was planning to wear tomorrow isn't suddenly too small after tonight....

[Pashta]

Well look at it this way: You probably didn't knock yourself out of ketosis. That's a big plus and will make tomorrow easy. You'll be fine.
Don't stress about the teens. I was hoping to get there too but not yet apparently. Hey, we are close and it'll happen sooner or later right?

I *love* asparagus. It's so awesome! I buy mine frozen and not fresh. Fresh is usually too tough, like eating a tree! Frozen is simple, pop it in the microwave with a little bit of water in the covered bowl for 5 mins. That's it.

It does make your pee smell really weird though...

[nickieluv]

This was frozen, Pashta - the only kind I buy - I think I didn't cook it long enough or something because 'tree' is exactly how I would describe the taste! Even my daughter wouldn't eat it and she loves all veggies. Oh well, back to the broccoli and salad. At least I tried several times before giving up.

I was down 2/10 today - might have been more if I hadn't had my chicken episode but I'll take it. I did get all 'dolled up' today and I feel a little silly and overdressed but I'm sure I'm really not. I'm just not used to it. The hair came out OK - I'm not crazy about it but it's not terrible anyway.

I'll check in later and try to post elsewhere, too. Gotta run!

[bikipatra]

I bet you look really pretty! Have a great day!

[nickieluv]

Well, the hair is getting worse as the day wears on. It was way too Shirley Temple curly this morning when I took out the rollers so I didn't use anything to hold the curl, thinking it would flatten out some. I had no idea how much it would flatten! So now I've got barely a wave and sort of the puppy-dog ear phenomenon happening around the sides of my headband. On the plus side it feels really soft. And last night I enjoyed tremendously my long, very hot shower. I went to bed so relaxed, I think I might start showering at night all the time now. Or at least I won't stop myself when the mood hits me. Next time I think I'll try putting some curl spray on before I roll the hair and just not roll it so tightly. It only took a couple of minutes to set the soft rollers - heck, maybe I'll try it again tonight. It's worth a shot.

This red dress I have on today is the first dress I have bought (and also worn in public) in YEARS that only comes just below the knee. All my dresses have been down-to-the-floor or no more than a touch above the ankle to hide my stubby chubby legs. Today I am actually showing some leg AND wearing heels and although the rest of the building might wish I hadn't, it's pretty liberating. My legs are still big but I have a bit of an ankle again and my calves are much smaller than they were. I don't believe I'll ever be an above-the-knee person but only time will tell. One thing is for sure - I won't feel so self-conscious wearing shorts this summer. Oh, and I cross my legs all the time now just because I can.

It's another beautiful day today and I'm so far in a better mood. Could it be just because the scale went down a little? I really did think I was less attached to those numbers now. I'm in for big trouble when I hit a long stall if I can't change my attitude about the scale. In the meantime I'm still hoping for teens by Sunday and I am back on track and will be compliant for real today. I did bring a bar to work and I gotta say, I feel better having had it. It's a bigger energy boost than the RTDs. And I've already planned that if I'm feeling like chocolate I can have cocoa, and if I'm feeling like just sweetness in general I'll have oatmeal. And of course I have my stew for when I want something comforting.

Two more classes to teach today, then home for lessons. I do enjoy my job but I am getting very anxious for summer vacation. And also for next year, believe it or not. I have so many ideas and plans for next year to make things even better, and sometimes I forget to focus on finishing up this year first!

[MerryMary]

This red dress I have on today is the first dress I have bought (and also worn in public) in YEARS that only comes just below the knee. All my dresses have been down-to-the-floor or no more than a touch above the ankle to hide my stubby chubby legs. Today I am actually showing some leg AND wearing heels and although the rest of the building might wish I hadn't, it's pretty liberating. My legs are still big but I have a bit of an ankle again and my calves are much smaller than they were. I don't believe I'll ever be an above-the-knee person but only time will tell. One thing is for sure - I won't feel so self-conscious wearing shorts this summer. Oh, and I cross my legs all the time now just because I can.

I know the feeling well, Nickie! My (one and only) dress is just below my knee and I where cute strappy heels that show off my peticured toes beautifully!! A real change from the long dresses and "sensible" shoes I used to wear. I've noticed that I've been crossing my legs too--hmmm

I'm glad that you are in a better mood today and more realistic about things.