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[Serendipity]

Don't even make me think about all the time I wasted.....but no looking back......onward and upward! No, not upward - Sideways!

[bikipatra]

Don't even make me think about all the time I wasted.....but no looking back......onward and upward! No, not upward - Sideways!

I've already been in one film for the American Cancer Society but maybe you can be in my second movie!

[nickieluv]

Ugh.

Ugh.

Ugh.

Rehearsal in twenty minutes, which means I have to leave in 15. So don't want to. These last two nights of getting to bed after midnight have just done me in - and I have to go through this tonight and tomorrow as well. We found a sub trombone player so I don't have to play on Friday night, but I'll still be out late (that is, if he'll still do it - I can't give him comp tickets unless I want to pay $40 out of my own pocket and that ain't gonna happen - which I think is dumb. They don't pay the pit, the least they can do is comp them a few tickets. My husband's on the board, I'm going to talk to him about it). Anyway - I'm just tired. At least Saturday maybe my husband will let me sleep in - and for a change, after this week, I might actually be able to do it instead of getting up at 8 anyway!

Next week will be busy, but better, because at least I won't have anything to do at night after getting home from work. But my husband will be on nights next week so I'll be alone - maybe not such a bad thing for next week, but after that I'll probably start getting lonely - have to watch myself on compliance and snack-urges.

Just got a call, literal life and death crisis at the show, gotta go!

[Mickeyz]

Up after midnight! I rarely even do that on New Years Eve!

[bikipatra]

Next week will be busy, but better, because at least I won't have anything to do at night after getting home from work. But my husband will be on nights next week so I'll be alone - maybe not such a bad thing for next week, but after that I'll probably start getting lonely - have to watch myself on compliance and snack-urges.

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When I know I am going to be alone most of the day, it is more a threat to my emotional health than an eating opportunity but I feel the same loneliness. I plan ahead and buy magazines, get a few books, check to see if there are any movies I can get engrossed in or plan a project on my computer. Otherwise I just feel isolated.

[bikipatra]

One more think Nicks-Remember-don't get too angry, lonely, hungry or tired. You're already tired and might be lonely so plan ahead. Have you tried journaling? I thought I would hate it but it fills time and helps me to get all my thoughts out because I write slower than I think. Maybe try that to wind down.

[nickieluv]

Up after midnight! I rarely even do that on New Years Eve!

Believe me, Mickey, I don't either. If I didn't absolutely have to be up that late, I would be in bed by 10 at the latest most nights in the summer, and on school nights? 9pm is my limit. Need my beauty sleep!

Biki, when I was in counseling that time a while back she wanted me to do a hand-written journal instead of typing online. But I hold the pen very, very tightly and my hand hurts long before my mind is done racing. I try so hard to keep up with my thoughts and I can't - but I guess that's the point, so you have to think about things more, right? Every so often before bed I try it, but it's not a habit like it used to be in high school and college (all that teen angst to gripe about, you know).

The end of tomorrow will be the end of day 20 of compliance for me. VERY exciting. I wish I was losing more, but don't we all? The scale was up today - I am 1/10 over ticker!!!! Really frustrating. But I am holding out hope that next week (around day 30 of compliance, actually, two roll-calls from now) will be a great one. I am telling myself that I am not losing this week because of lack of sleep and very late nights. I'm certainly not eating anything I shouldn't be. Which is unusual for me. And I'm still getting compliments, people are saying I look thinner every time they see me - so that's nice, and helps to keep me going. I just spent so long in this limbo just before onederland because of all my cheating, going up and down and up and down, that I want to put it behind me once and for all. What a happy day that will be. And another happy day when I can weigh myself at the end of the day and STILL be in onederland. Not that I weigh more than once a day....

Well, I'm going to be late to my class again. Surprise. Last day, home at 4, then I'm taking a nap. Maybe that will kickstart my little Keebler elves.

[holberry]

Niks,
I think Biki is totally right on, prepare with extra stuff, not just MF>
Here's to great reviews on your play
hols

[bikipatra]

Biki, when I was in counseling that time a while back she wanted me to do a hand-written journal instead of typing online. But I hold the pen very, very tightly and my hand hurts long before my mind is done racing. I try so hard to keep up with my thoughts and I can't - but I guess that's the point, so you have to think about things more, right? Every so often before bed I try it, but it's not a habit like it used to be in high school and college (all that teen angst to gripe about, you know).

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Yeah, that is the point. That you have to slow down and get it down on paper, so you don't miss as much or maybe discover something is more important than you thought it was because you write more than you thought you would about it. She said I don't have to do it everyday-she didn't want it to feel like homework. But whenever I need to get something out, I really like it. If I feel like eating a donut out of the blue, it's the first place I go. Sometimes it even turns into prayer letters to God. I just go with the flow. If your head is going to fast then just write down words, as fast as they come. You can go back and fill in later if you want. It definitely doesn't have to be a linear process. Remember it's for YOU.

[bikipatra]

Nick is 200 your final goal? Or will you be setting another one after onederland? Any idea what it will be?

[Mickeyz]

Hi Nick,

You are doing so good staying compliant. What a change from just a few weeks ago. Even if the scale isn't moving you know good this are happening in the bod. Any difference in measurements or the way your clothes fit?

I'm with Biki, be prepared for situations that you know have been triggers in the past. I'm such an emotional eater that I really have to be careful. For instance, when I knew I had to see my brother (which always triggers some negative emotion) I made sure I was well stocked with MF favorites and a new book. Plus I spent the whole day before getting mentally prepared. I was so proud when it was over, not only did I stay on plan but he didn't have the same old effect on me. It is very powerful to overcome your old triggers and emotions.

You are proving to be very strong and focused. You should be very proud of yourself!

[nickieluv]

Well I did not get a nap yesterday but I did get a bit more sleep - almost 9 hours. I also had an extra 33oz of water yesterday. So between the two I was hoping for some good news this morning.

Same.
Exact.
Weight.

I am starting to think I am the only person on Earth compliance does not work for. But then I thought, maybe this is the third week stall I've heard so much about, but never before experienced on MF? Maybe because I was off plan more than I was on in the month of June, this compliance thing is like starting all over?

Well, I'm staying compliant because that's what I committed to do. And today is day 20 so we wouldn't want to mess that up. And honestly, the thought of cheating does not appeal to me at all. I like eating this way and feeling good about myself. If I make it to the 100 days and still weigh over 200 pounds I will be a lot angrier than I am now probably, but I don't really believe that could happen. I mean, what kind of cruel joke would that be? You all hound me to compliant, so I am, and I lose 5 pounds in 100 days? Like I said, that just can't happen. Can it?

I'm trying to see/feel changes but I can't, too much. I feel really slim when I'm lying in bed and then I get up and look in the mirror and feel flabby and then I weigh myself and feel downright disgusting. It's sounding worse than it is, really. Emotionally I'm kind of detached from all this, like I'm just an observer. I'm not having the same feelings I was before when things like this would happen.

Oh, and 200 is not my final goal, but my 'real' goal seemed too daunting at first so that's what I've been using so far. My actual goal is around 145 (we'll see when I get there if I want to go lower, because that's right at the top weight for normal BMI but it's the thinnest I've ever been), but I'm going to move my ticker first to 165 - that's where I'd like to be before the baby-making party (thanks Jo for that cute phrase!).

I have to get to work - I'm going to be late. That's like a theme with me this week. OK, to be honest, I'm pretty much always late for everything. Oh well.

[bikipatra]

Nickie for old timers like you having the SAME EXACT WEIGHT is not unusual at all. I am sure you have seen me, Tawanda and Joleen talk about our stalls while remaining completely compliant. I think my record is 9 days and Tawanda's is something like 14. And Jo has a whole list of them. It happens. It sucks when it does and is quite frustrating but we don't get instant gratification every day or even every week for just doing what we are supposed to. Hope this passes soon for you!

[Unca_Tim]

Hang in there Nickie,
I know everyone loves seeing those consistent drop in numbers. Try and dwell on the health benefits you're receiving by being on the program. You're probably losing inches also.

Through the four years I've been watching everyone on this forum, long plateaus have always been follow by a substantial dumpage of lbs.

My crystal ball see's a big drop coming your way soon.

[Karli]

Hi, Nickie. Just to echo the words of others, hang in there ! I know I haven't always been a good examle of that, but I know what it feels like to give up and that just plain sucks !! You know, just one foot in front of the other .

Karli