by nickieluv » July 9th, 2007, 9:16 am
As I said in Sue's journal I'm getting an attack of nerves about this 100 days of compliance thing. So I might just break it up in my mind as ten days at a time. So the first mini-milestone will be 7/17, my daughter's birthday. That'll be an easy one to remember.
I'm sure I CAN do it, but I have not had much faith that I WILL do it based on past experience. At the moment I can't think of a single reason not to be compliant. This challenge I think will be helpful. Will I want to blow it with other people coming along for the ride? What about that public service I was talking about earlier?
OK, so, 100 days and hopefully 40 pounds. I know it can be done with MF but I'm mostly focusing on the number of days, not the number of pounds. The number of days is the only thing I can control after all. One day at a time, one evening at a time (since those are my hard times), and I have the advantage of the musical taking up almost all my evenings for the next three weeks, so I can get 20% of the way to the 100 days goal without a lot of struggle I hope.
Alright, I started it, I can't believe I started it, but it has begun and I'm both scared and excited by it. I'm trying to imagine how I will feel on day 99 - and hoping that by day 101 I won't go nuts off-plan!!!!
Have I mentioned I'm scared? This seems unreasonable to me that I am experiencing this much anxiety about this challenge. I'm not sure exactly what I am afraid of. But I'm going to remain compliant and I'm sure I'll figure it out - whether I'm afraid I can't do it, afraid I'll miss certain foods too much to endure, afraid of the success I might have - but off I go on day 2! Time to get more water....