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[nickieluv]

Piano recital for my students is now over - and it went well. Of course I am always critical but only in my head, never to the kids! But I have a mental list of things to work on for next time during the next few months of lessons....

I still have one whole bottle of water to get in, since I increased my ounces from a little over 100 to about 135 a day. And let me tell you, if I keep losing this well, I'm going to keep drinking this much water! I am already at 6.8 pounds gone this week (if it sticks) and it's a thrill and a half to see the scale moving this way.

However - thinking of my comment earlier about cheating just so I can see big losses - I checked my chart of my weights since Christmas. Yes, after cheating I have had big losses. BUT if you subtract what I gained in the first place, the losses are about average for a week. Like this week - sure I've lost almost 7 pounds, but I am only 1 pound under what my ticker said before the cheat. It's more dramatic this way, and more fun to watch the scale move down so quickly - but in the end I am not speeding up a darn thing. All I'm doing is saving myself from having to fret over the scale when it doesn't move, and probably confusing the heck out of my body. Not a good thing.

So I really do want to stay compliant until school starts again, just as my initial goal. I was at a luncheon at work today, and I had a bar and water and a diet soda - not even tempted by the food, but the cake sang to me. Then at the recital tonight a parent had made a cake (in the shape of a grand piano, complete with white chocolate and milk chocolate keys - yellow cake with chocolate frosting - my mouth was watering) but I was good. I fed some to the baby (special occasion) and did not even really want a bite - I told the chef I could have some at the next recital. And that one little comment clicked in my head. I can have these things later. Chocolate cake is not going to disappear from the face of the Earth. And I know I've said that before, both to myself and here in my journal, but it bears repeating sometimes because with all the cheating I've been doing, I've obviously lost sight of my goals and my real reasons for getting there. The pregnancy talk with Laura helped - and then this evening I had a long talk with another teacher who is pregnant and we swapped stories of our first childbirth experience - and it cleared my head a little.

Would it be OK if I stopped MF right this instant and got pregnant? Sure. It's my life, I'm healthy, I've dropped a lot of weight. But would it be the BEST choice? I don't think so. I don't think even just waiting until fall is the best choice, not if I'm still overweight. And my goal is just on the upper edge of 'normal' BMI so I don't have a lot of wiggle room here. But I'm compromising. Being at a healthy weight and having a healthy baby are two things I really, really want. And I've decided I'm willing to wait a little longer for the former if it means I can have the latter sooner. But over 200 is still not a good place to be to have a baby.

So - day 4, come and gone. I have one more supplement to have - I might have the beef stew tonight, we'll see - and 1 more bottle of water - and then a nice night's sleep to let the magic happen....

[SuzyQ66]

Nicki - Congrats on resisting the cake and for making it through Day 4. I too make it through. It's so great to be moving on the Day 5. Have a great night and I will check on you tomorrow.

[nickieluv]

Still packing up my classroom, and soon I'll have to unplug the computer - but I just wanted to say I was down a little bit more today AND I am wearing my size 16 jean no-stretch capris!!!!! They fit great in the legs and they hold everything in without making it hard to breathe - I probably don't really fit into them but I'm wearing a long t-shirt because, damn it, I wanted to wear them!!!!

[SuzyQ66]

Hi Nicki - Hope Day 5 is going well for you. We are almost done with our 7 day challenge. This has so far been really great. But I am now entering the weekend - but I really think I will not have problems this weekend. Being optimistic.

[Mike]

Nickie,
You are doing great. (Better than me I have to say). Going to Cheap Trick concert in Petaluma tonight. Should be alot of fun. Taking shakes and a bar with me, so I should be fine.
Have a great weekend.

[holberry]

happy dance for size 16!
That's got to feel good eh?
And getting the classroom done as well. I know that well.
here's to a cheat free day Niki.
hol

[Tawanda]

New clothing size! Cause for celebration!!!!

[queenielou]

Nicki,

You're doing so well this week! Congrats on the lower size

[nickieluv]

Thanks everybody! If only it were always so easy to stick to plan, I'd never have a problem - but the NSVs are sometimes few and far between.

I do feel like the 16s are new territory for me. I'm not quite brave enough to try on my size 16 jeans - they are a different brand and I think the capris are more forgiving. See, I just can't see how I could be in 16s already. So I figure I must have stretched them out already trying them on a few times in the last couple of weeks! But I'll take it, I'll take it!

I got my big summer check today, and paid bills - and it's gone. All gone. We were behind on our taxes and that just ate up a bunch of money. But we'll make it through the summer somehow, we always do. And I got word today from a colleague that she would like me to be the vocal director for the high school musical next year, and she understands I only want to work a couple of nights a week and she is fine with that. She asked me to put in for the official position and that means a stipend - which means over 5 times as much money next year for doing that job, than I got this year for accompanying. Payable half in December (Christmas money!!!) and half in June (vacation money!!!!). So I'm very excited about that.

I'm still hoping we can go away this summer for our weekend getaway - but financially it is a very bad idea. But you know, you have to live a little - and I have another check coming from the school soon that I can save for the trip (which includes all our meals and lodging, we only have to outlay more money for gas and tolls and any shopping we do), and I don't really know how much I'm going to make for this church job after taxes so it might be more than I'm expecting. It remains to be seen what will happen, so I'm not going to spend a lot of time worrying about that.

So I was so busy paying bills that I forgot to eat - I kept saying to myself 'as soon as I finish this one' and then something else came up. So I just grabbed a bar in the middle of reading posts here, and I'll be having a bottle of water soon (behind on water, too, and have only had 3 supplements so far today - eek). I'll probably have an RTD with my L&G to catch up. I don't like doing that but it doesn't happen often.

I'm feeling very good about staying compliant. Food was calling to me today, probably because I got off-schedule - but I did not give in. I have to remember how close I am to the 60# club, and then my initial goal of being under 200 - that will feel better than the texture of any food. I cannot believe how much time has gone by since Christmas, and that I have made so much progress - me, the quitter, the eater, the binger.

Well, hubby's home - have to break the financial news to him - bye.

[HappyHomeMaker]

Still packing up my classroom, and soon I'll have to unplug the computer - but I just wanted to say I was down a little bit more today AND I am wearing my size 16 jean no-stretch capris!!!!! They fit great in the legs and they hold everything in without making it hard to breathe - I probably don't really fit into them but I'm wearing a long t-shirt because, damn it, I wanted to wear them!!!!

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I'd wear them too!! Actually, I DID wear mine too!!

[SuzyQ66]

Congrats on staying compliant Nicki - I went to Polish Fest in Milwaukee and believe it or not - smelling all that wonderful food was satisfying enough. Only two days left of our challenge.

[Patty]

Congrats Nikki on the size 16's - - that has to feel awesome!

And great job on getting everything packed up for school - you are doing a terrfic job!

[bikipatra]

Congrats! There are some 16's I can't even get into. The skirts are fine but some of those pants I got off Ebay zip up but make me feel like a sausage!

[nickieluv]

Congrats! There are some 16's I can't even get into. The skirts are fine but some of those pants I got off Ebay zip up but make me feel like a sausage!

Yeah, I'm pretty sure this is a very forgiving 16. I did attempt to get my 16 jeans on - ha, that was hilarious. Someday when THOSE fit I'll feel pretty slinky.

Down a little more today - room all packed and mostly moved - I don't know what I'll find in August when I go in again to unpack....

I only had one RTD yesterday, and wound up having a 6/0 with a double hot cocoa at 8pm - it seemed too late for a L&G to me. Not sure what is happening this weekend - we were going to go golfing today and tomorrow but I think we're both feeling pretty tired, so I'm not going to push it. It may just be nice to have a weekend to do nothing and be home with the baby.

I'll head out to catch up on the news elsewhere now - another compliant day, here I come!

[bikipatra]

Let's all have a compliant day!