My name is Julia and I am a fataholic... or maybe a foodaholic!
Actualy I am 240 something pounds now and down from my usual comfort weight of 258 through weight watchers and walking a lot on my job. Anywho I have been reading the board for about a week and ordered a month worth on Sunday afternoon...I am waiting...patienly getting in my last suppers at my favorite places. Fatty Patty's where the mascot is a pig and they serve my favorite burger "the Fatboy with cheese"! I don't go often and I don't overeat more than once or twice a week, but I seem to stay the same weight no matter what!
I was a chunky kid, somehow woke up and was a size four teenager one day, (I starved myself) and then slowly started creeping up and was over 200lbs by the time I was 19. 200 lbs isn't that bad if you are 5'9"... I however am blessed with the shorty gene and I'm only 5'1". Anyway after my fourth baby 19 months ago I was almost done with college and finally felt like TRYING to lose. I have done weight watchers three times for three weeks each! Atkins twice for about ten days when I gained and got scared & quit... I had thought atkins would be my miracle - I was wrong.
Then at work I look up and see someone I had not seen for a year. The face was kinda similair but whose body was this? Is it her...no it can't be! But the familiar smile and voice proved it to be her! So here I am... Excited, hopeful, and quite worried that I will cave in and quit. Talk myself into eating bad food, Go crazy and eat like a cow when I ovulate, mess up cooking for the kids! All of it! I am a taster, a picker, one of those who nibbles all day and then has a small plate of food! Not all the time, just when I am feeling depressed and need to eat something bad to make me feel better...
If I have results, I will stick to it longer! Not so easily tempted. I have in this year of dieting, learned a lot about the bad things I tell myself and I need to change my ways, my thoughts, and my size (22).
I can't let myself eat badly if I gain, which is my pattern of self destruction! I can't let my husband say, "C'mon just tonight"!
I am hoping right now that I have more willpower in the weeks to come~
You guys really give me inspiration, reading your posts make it feel like home here. People who feel and know what I feel - I'ts a special place!
I am worried about the hair loss...Anyone have any ideas on how not to lose hair? Much appreciated!
Well this is my introduction and I have been getting to know many of you already through your writing! BTW I am a nurse, I have four kids, I'm 28, and I have spent the last 11 years obese. I feel perfectly healthy, but I know diabetes and arthritis are just around the corner...
Bring on the shakes!